Series: It was always you
Summary: [Y/N] and Sebastian Stan have been best friends for 5 years but she has been secretly in love with him for two and a half years. Unfortunately Sebastian is in a two year relationship with Margarita Levieva, meaning that [Y/N] is forced to hide her true feelings towards him. Their friendship is put in jeopardy after an eventful night that lead to regret the morning after…
Pairing: Plus sized reader x Sebastian Stan
Warning(s): crying, language
Credit: The imagines were made by @mcusocialimagines. You should really go follow her because she’s amazing and makes awesome fake social media imagines!
A/N: [Y/B/F/N] = Your Best Friend’s Name
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CHAPTER TWO: He did it again
[Y/N] woke up the next morning with a slight pounding in her head. A low groan escaped her lips before she was able to open her eyes. After blinking a few times, she sat up straight and stretched her upper body.
“Ouch”, she whimpered groggily as the pounding in her head became a little stronger. She ran a hand through her tousled hair and down her face before noticing that she had dried tear stains on her cheeks. With a confused frown on her face, she quickly got out of her bed and strolled towards the bathroom.
Once she was inside, she walked over to the sink and took a look at herself in the mirror. She was still in yesterday’s outfit, which consisted of a plain shirt and sweats. Her hair was sticking in every direction, had dark circles under her eyes from the crying along with the dried tears stains on her cheeks.
[Y/N]’s stomach churned as she remembered what had happened the night before. The nauseous feeling crept back into her stomach as she frowned and sighed. “He forgot about me”, she mumbled to herself as fresh tears were brimming her eyes, ready to rush down her cheek.
She shook her head before walking over to the toilet and emptying her bladder. A few minutes, later she was in the shower, washing her body and hair. The warm water made her tensed muscles relax as she closed her eyes and began applying shampoo on her hair.
“A-Are you sure I look nice?”, [Y/N] asked with an uneasy look on her face and glanced at herself one more time into the full-length mirror. She was wearing a simple long tight black dress that ended just beneath her knees, with nude heels. Her hair was held back by a tight bun and she was wearing red lipstick.
Sebastian scoffed at [Y/N] from the bed as he couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Sebastian had invited [Y/N] and a few other close friends to dinner. It was the perfect opportunity to get [Y/N] out of her house because she had been locking herself.
It had been a few months since the breakup, and she was still a little insecure about herself. For most of the time, she was confident (with the help of Sebastian and [Y/B/F/N]), but when it came to going out, showing herself in public, [Y/N] still was fighting with anxiety and self-consciousness, meaning that she hadn’t gone out…
“[Y/N], you look absolutely beautiful”, Sebastian spoke and quickly scanned over her beautiful curvy body. For him, [Y/N] had always been a magnificent beauty so for her to not see herself the way he saw her, was something he could never understand.
[Y/N] felt the blood rush to her cheeks, warming them up as Sebastian’s words made her heart pound in her chest. She turned around from the full-length mirror and stared into his blue eyes. “Really?” she whispered and watched her best friend nod his head and stand up, walking to over her.
Sebastian’s eyes never left’s [Y/N]’s as he faced her, “Yes, you are beautiful [Y/N]. Any decent man would be lucky to have you…But not every one of them deserves you because you’re too precious”, he whispered.
Sebastian reached his hand out and adjusted a lose strand of her hair behind her ear. “Perfect”, was all he muttered before stepping back and smiling at her. ”Thank you Seb”, [Y/N] said before clearing her throat. Her best friend nodded his head before leading her out of the bedroom.
A sigh left [Y/N]’s lips as she washed her hair out before applying conditioner on it, rinsing it out shortly afterwards. The first time Sebastian had taken her out was one of her favorite memories because no one had ever said something so sweet to her. Sebastian’s words made her feel like queen, a beautiful and worthy queen.
A few minutes later, she had turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. “Let’s start the day”, [Y/N] spoke out loud and dried her body off before applying body lotion all over her body and brushing her teeth. She blow dried her hair, applied light makeup to her face before leaving the bathroom with the towel wrapped around her body.
[Y/N] quickly strolled to her closet. After she had put on a lacy black underwear with matching bra, she quickly slipped into a pair of black trousers and a white collared shirt with a black blazer.
Once she was dressed, she walked over to her nightstand and unlocked her phone to check the time.
She still had twenty minutes before having to leave for work. So, without further ado, she unplugged her phone from the charger, walked back to her closet to slip into some black heels before leaving the bedroom. “[Y/N], stomach grumbled, despite the nauseousness, she was hungry.
She quickly walked down the stairs, into the kitchen before immediately starting to prepare her breakfast. Ten minutes later, she was sitting at the counter while crunching on her toast with jam, the sad memory of last night swirling in her head. I hope that I won’t see Seb today…He really hurt me, she thought to herself.
The buzzing sound of her phone in her purse, placed next to her on the counter, pulled her out of her thoughts. [Y/N] dug her hand into her purse before taking her phone out and unlocking it, seeing that her best friend had sent her a message.
A part of her had hoped that it would be Sebastian messaging her, apologizing for what had happened the previous night.
Hi babe! How was the movie night with Seb? Are you still in for lunch today?
A frown crept onto her face on her face once she had read the message.
It sucked, he forgot. Spent the night with the girlfriend and posted a disgustingly cute picture on Instagram.
[Y/N] texted back before getting off the kitchen stool and walking over to the sink, placing the plates in it. After washing her hands, she quickly checked the time on her watch and saw that it was time to leave for work. Within a few seconds, she had her purse and phone in her hands and left the kitchen.
She quickly walked past the living room before leaving her house through the front door. [Y/N] walked over to her car and quickly got in, relieved to know that work would get her mind off Sebastian.
Once she had put her seat belt on, her phone buzzed again in her purse on the passenger’s seat. She pulled it out and unlocked it.
I’m so sorry to hear that [Y/N]. Feel free to vent to me during lunch! Xoxo
[Y/N/B/F] responded, making the first smile of the day appear on [Y/N]’s face. She felt grateful to have another best friend who didn’t judge her but supported every decision she made and always welcomed her with open arms whenever she cried about Sebastian.
I will, I’m going to work now and I’ll see you at lunch! Xoxo
[Y/N] quickly texted back before turning the engine on and pulling out of the driveway towards the road.
“Hi!”, [Y/N] greeted her coworkers who passed her on the way to her office. They smiled and greeted her back before she entered her office and closed the door behind her. She quickly opened the window to let some fresh air enter the office before sitting at the desk and turning her computer on.
Her assistant had left a note of urgent tasks that needed to be done, so [Y/N] took a deep breath and shook her head before focusing on starting her work.
The next few hours, [Y/N] was very concentrated in writing the reports of several meetings that had taken place a few days earlier, organized her boss’s schedule for the upcoming week and made sure that she printed her reports out before sending them to her coworkers.
She was so focused on finished the last task on the computer, that she didn’t notice her office door opening and her best friend slowly making his way towards her desk. Guilt and sadness churchned in his stomach as he knew that he had hurt her, broken his promise, but he came to her apologize and make it up to her.
[Y/N]’s fingers quickly moved across the keyboard as the loud typing sound echoed through the office. Her eyes wandered all over the big computer screen as her eyebrows were furrowed and her teeth dug into her lower lip. Sebastian couldn’t help but smile as he loved seeing his best friend focused and all in her element. She loved her job and was very good at being a secretary.
He waited a few more seconds in hope that she would acknowledge his presence, but was disappointed to see her continue working, not glancing away from the computer screen. “Hi [Y/N]”, Sebastian spoke and quickly cleared his throat.
His voice had pulled [Y/N] out of her working daze, her heart skipping a beat instantly. Sebastian smiled once he finally had her attention. “H-Hi”, was all she said. Fuck, [Y/N] though to herself. She didn’t expect him to pay her a visit, especially not after last night.
She hated the fact how gorgeous he looked in his simple blue jeans and black shirt. It didn’t matter what he did, Sebastian always had [Y/N] awestruck and at loss of using proper sentences.
The two of them stared deeply into each other’s eyes, different emotions flashing through them. Pain, disappointment and love flashed through [Y/N]’s eyes while regret…and something else flashed through Sebastian’s.
“I came here to apologize”, he said. [Y/N] slowly removed her fingers from the keyboard as her heart started pounding in her rib cage, the pain slowly rising again. “I am so sorry for forgetting something I had promised not to do, and I hope that you can forgive me”, Sebastian spoke with a sad frown on his face.
The look of him made [Y/N] hate him, because she was willing to do anything to keep him from looking at her like that. She was willing to swallow her own unpleasant feelings and forget about what had happened.
She let out a sigh, “It’s okay” she spoke with a fake smile. Sebastian’s frown instantly turned upside down while listening to her words. He stepped around the desk and lowered his body so he could face his best friend, “You’re the best [Y/N]”.
A little giggle left her mouth as she somewhat felt relieved that he was at least sorry for his action. “ But I also came to make it up to you [Y/N]”, Sebastian smirked and gently placed his hand on her thigh, making a shiver run down spine at the soothing warmth.
“And what do you have in mind?”, she asked with raised eyebrows, and tried to not make it obvious that his hand was bothering her, in a pleasant way of course.” I want you to go with me to the Black Panther premiere tomorrow. Margarita is traveling for upcoming events, so we can spend the whole evening together. All you need to do is get off earlier from work so I can pick you up”, Sebastian spoke with excitement in his voice.
His heart swelled with joy when he saw a beautiful smile appear on [Y/N]’s face. “I’d love to Seb!”, [Y/N]’s squealed before throwing her arms around his shoulders, hugging him tight. Sebastian smiled and wrapped his arms around her thick waist and closed his eyes, enjoying the moment and being happy that he had been forgiven.
[Y/N] closed her eyes and loved the smell of his cologne. She felt the butterflies frantically fly around in her stomach as she cherished every moment of the hug. The two of them pulled away after a few seconds with big smiles on their faces.
“Awesome! So, I’ll book us a car and driver and we can go to dinner after the premiere, alright?”, Sebastian suggested to which his best friend nodded her head. He stood up and took a step back, “Okay I’ll see you tomorrow” he smiled. “Yeah see ya!”, [Y/N] grinned before she watched him leave her office and close the door behind him.
She leaned back against her chair and closed her eyes, joy rushing through her body. This is perfect! her inner voice spoke as she grinned. To get the spend the whole evening with him, while his girlfriend was away sounded very pleasant to her.
And no, never would [Y/N] think of trying to make a move on Sebastian. She respected his relationship too much to do that. It would break her heart to get rejected by him, so she preferred the friendz one over anything else and the mere thought of losing him and their friendship made her sick.
So, with newly found inspiration, [Y/N] continued working until it was time for her lunch break.
“Hi babe!”, [Y/B/F/N] greeted [Y/N] with three kisses on her cheeks. The girls smiled at each other before sitting down and ordering their lunch. “Alright, will be right up”, the waiter said before leaving them alone.
“So, what happened?”, [Y/B/F/N] smirked from across the table. [Y/N] furrowed her eyebrows in confusion, “Why the smirk?” she asked before taking a sip from her water. “Well I had expected you to be hurt and sad about Seb forgetting your movie night, but here you are, smiling from ear to ear with this glow on your face”, her best friend answered and waved her hands in the air.
“So, spill”, she chuckled.
[Y/N] rolled her eyes, hating the fact that her best friend had seen right through her. “So, Sebastian came to my office and apologize, he really regretted what he did. After I accepted his apology, he invited me to the Black Panther premiere tomorrow! The girlfriend is out of town so we’ll spend the whole evening together”, [Y/N] grinned.
“I’m happy that he apologized, but [Y/N], you know that inviting you to the premiere doesn’t mean anything right? For him, it will be just an evening with his best friend”, [Y/B/F/N] spoke with a frown, hating to burst the bubble [Y/N] was in.
[Y/N] nodded her head with a sigh, she knew that her best friend was right. She was putting too much hope in Sebastian’s invitation. “I don’t want to see you cry again when things don’t go as planned. I wish that the two of you would get together, but in the right and honest way, no stealing him from someone else”, [Y/B/F/N] finished with a sigh.
The two ladies got interrupted by the waiter bringing their food, “Thank you!”, they smiled before digging into their delicious meals. “You know that I would never try to steal him away”, [Y/N] spoke after swallowing a bite, “You know what they say, the way you get a man is the same way you’re gonna lose him” she finished and took a sip of her water.
Her best friend nodded her head, “I know. So, do you want me to go dress shopping with you, or help to decide which dress you’re picking from your closet?” she asked.
“I have this fancy dress I bought a while ago, just need to get off work earlier and get my hair and make up done”, [Y/N] answered. “Please try to take a few pictures of Michael B Jordan, Chadwick Boseman and Lupita Nyong’o!” the best friend grinned to which [Y/N] giggled and nodded her head, “I’ll try, I promise”, and with that the two of them continued eating their lunch while talking and laughing with each other.
Once the two of them were done, they hugged and said their goodbyes before going back to work. [Y/N] realized that she shouldn’t put too much hope and excitement in the upcoming event, it would only end up with her getting her hopes crushed again. She went back to work with a cleared mind.
At Five thirty pm, [Y/N] was done working. “Goodbye!”, she smiled at her coworkers while walking towards the elevator. They all smiled and waved at her before the door of the closed and brought her to the parking lot. She quickly walked over to her car before hopping in and driving to her place.
Once [Y/N] had arrived home, she quickly changed into her favorite pj’s before cooking herself dinner. Her boss had allowed her to leave work a little bit earlier the following day, and even told her to have fun. She spent the rest of the evening watching her favorite shows on Netflix before relaxing in bed.
She was currently in her bed, lying comfortably under the covers with her phone in her hands.
Can’t wait til tomorrow! We’ll have so much fun and be able to catch up things. I really missed you these past few weeks [Y/N]
A smile crept onto her face as she read the message.
Can’t wait either! Missed you too!
Was all that [Y/N] wrote back, not wanting to get too deep into her feelings. The best friends continued texting for a little while before they said “Good night!” and both got comfortable under the covers, Sebastian instantly falling asleep.
[Y/N] kept tossing and turning, she couldn’t fall asleep because she was too excited for the following day. Can’t wait to be alone with you, was what she thought as she pictured Sebastian looking handsome as ever in a fancy suit.
Then, her mind wandered to when he had placed his warm hand on her thigh, the way he hugged her. She felt so safe and protected in his arms…Deep down he has to feel something for me. He has too! The way he looks at me sometimes or hugs me tightly…That’s not how friends hug…It’s how lovers hug…, was her last thought before she closed her eyes and finally fell asleep.
“I’m so nervous!”, [Y/N] squealed and took a few deep breaths to calm her nerves. “Don’t be!” Sebastian chuckled from the bed and watched his best friend walked over to the closet, in just a bath robe, and took her never worn dress.
Her eyes scanned over the long elegant velvet dark red dress. She had bought it a while ago, but never had the occasion to wear it. But for you Seb, I’ll wear it, her inner voice spoke. She turned around and proudly showed the dress to Sebastian.
“Tada!”, she sang with a grin and held the dress against her body, “That’s a beautiful dress [Y/N]! I’ve never seen this before”, he spoke with an awestruck expression.
“I’ve never worn it before”, she softly confessed. “Well, I’m sure you look even more beautiful in the dress”, her best friend said with such a genuine smile, it made her heart melt in her chest. Y/N] felt the blood rush to her cheeks again, feeling a little bit too warm at his compliment.
“I’ll let you get dressed, do your hair and make up while waiting downstairs”, Sebastian spoke before giving her one last smile and softly getting off her bed. [Y/N] watched how he walked to the door and left the room, closing the door behind him.
Now, [Y/N] was all alone with a pounding heart as she felt nervous, happy and excited. She quickly entered her bathroom and placed the dress on a hanger before she walked up to the sink and started blow drying her hair.
She had decided to not do anything with it, just letting it in its natural state, with no clips, buns or extraordinary hairstyle. After that, she quickly applied some make up on her face. Thank god for her natural glow, because she didn’t need too much of it to look decent. She simply applied some mascara, winged eyeliner and dark red lipstick to match her dress.
Meanwhile, Sebastian was sitting in the living room, patiently waiting for [Y/N] to finished getting dressed. He was already dressed in his black suit. He felt excited for the premiere and of course to watch the movie with [Y/N], knowing that she was his number one fan and supporter.
Can’t wait until she’ll see me in the post credit scene, was all he though as he chuckled to himself. A peaceful sight left his lips as he continued watching whatever show the TV screen was showing.
The vibration of Sebastian’s phone pulled his attention away from the TV screen. He quickly pulled it out of his pocket and unlocked the phone, seeing that Margarita had sent him a text message. He gasped as he read the message, his heart skipping a beat in his chest as he didn’t expect what she had texted him…Fuck…
It took him a few seconds to decide what to do before his fingers quickly tapped on the screen as he answered his girlfriend. Once he had hit the “send” button, he felt nauseous as the guilt of his decision started to eat him alive.
Sebastian slowly stood up and looked towards the kitchen, a lump forming in his throat and his heart pounding in his chest…I’m so sorry [Y/N]…And with that final though, he left her house, quickly walked down the front porch before hopping into the rented car.
“To my house please” Sebastian gently ordered the driver, who nodded his head before pulling out of [Y/N]’s driveway. He was hurt. Hurt that he would hurt [Y/N] again but way worse than the last time.
Sebastian felt so ashamed that he didn’t have the courage to face his best friend and inform her about his change of plans. With a heavy heart, he took his phone out, unlocked it and sent her a quick message, hoping that at the end of the night, he could come up with something else to make it up to her…
He leaned back against the seat and closed his eyes as the driver brought him to his apartment. During the whole car ride, he couldn’t help but picture [Y/N]’s face when she would discover what he had done…
“Thank you” was all Sebastian mumbled before stepping out of the car and quickly making his way into the building to meet his girlfriend. He was approaching the front door of their apartment and was about to open it when Margarita stepped out, wearing an elegant tight long dress.
The lovers smiled at each other, “You look beautiful”, Sebastian said before pressing his lips gently against hers. The lovers closed their eyes and shared a few passionate kisses before they left the building hand in hand.
Once they were outside, a few paparazzis shot pictures of them smiling before they entered the car. “Are you ready?”, Margarita grinned at her boyfriend. “Let’s go” Sebastian whispered with a smile before the couple drove towards the premiere.
In the meantime, [Y/N] just had finished applying the final touches of her make up. “Voila”, she mumbled with a smile on her face and winked at her reflection in the mirror. She slowly removed the bathrobe from her body, letting it slide onto the ground before she walked over to the dress and removed it from the hanger.
A few seconds later, she had slipped in her tight, beautiful dress. Perfect, she thought to herself before she left the bathroom and walked over to her full-length mirror in her bedroom. She grinned as she truly felt beautiful and ready to be photographed on the red carpet.
She twirled a few times while giggles left her throat, feeling like she was on top of the world. “Okay”, she sighed before her hands ran up and down her thighs. I’m ready. With a final nod of her head, [Y/N] quickly slipped into a pair of black heels before taking her purse and phone in one hand.
She glanced around the room, making sure that she hadn’t forgotten anything. Once she was sure that she had everything she needed, [Y/N] left the bedroom and slowly made her way down the stairs, her heart beating frantically in her chest.
Can’t wait to see his reaction…She let out a few deep breaths and walked past the kitchen, her heels clicking against the floor. “Sebastian, I’m ready!”, she announced excitedly and entered the living room. The smile on her face vanished instantly once she saw the empty living room, the TV still on and no trace of her best friend…
[Y/N]’s heart dropped to the pit of her stomach as the disgusting reality hit her…Thick tears brimmed her eyes as she walked over to the window and that the driveway was empty…
Loud, shaky breaths left her mouth as [Y/N] turned around and walked over to the couch before sitting on it. “He did it again”, her croaked voice cried out before she started sobbing. She felt immense pain and humiliation… She felt unloved, pushed to the side like a piece of dirt, all by the man she loved, yes loved.
It took her ten minutes to calm down her frantic sobs, her sniffles echoing through the living room.
“And here we have Sebastian and his beautiful girlfriend, Margarita who just arrived at the Black Panther premiere!”, the E! News host spoke, making [Y/N]’s head snap up to the TV screen.
She wiped the tears off her face and let out a shaky sigh and watched with jealousy how Sebastian and Margarita walked down the red carpet, smiling and sharing sweet kisses. They looked like the happiest couple, making [Y/N] feel sick to her stomach.
She took her purse and pulled her phone out, ready to call [Y/B/F/N] and tell her what had happened, when she saw that Sebastian had sent her a message.
She scoffed and tossed her phone next to her before focusing her bloodshot eyes on the TV screen again. “So, Sebastian how are you feeling tonight?”, Ryan Seacrest asked him. Sebastian grinned and leaned forwards to speak into the microphone, “Well I’m very happy and excited. I have the love of my life by my side and we’re about to watch THE Black Panther movie!”.
That was it…[Y/N]’s heart shattered in her chest as a loud cry left her throat before she started crying again. With not much strength, she stood up and slowly made her way back to her bedroom, having to lean herself against the wall to prevent herself from breaking down.
Once she had entered her bedroom, she strolled over to the bed and let herself fall on top of it, her face buried in her pillows as she continued to cry…
Sebastian and Margarita ended up having the night of their lives, filled with lots of smiles, laughter and kisses before they went back to their place, passionately made love to one another before falling asleep in each other’s arms.
Poor [Y/N] cried for hours before she fell asleep, done with Sebastian…done with their friendship.