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AGUST D

there are so many important messages that suga is trying to convey to his listeners through his mixtape and im sure that if you’ve read the lyric translations, you definitely know what i mean. i am seriously blown away that we’ve been fans of bts for what, 3 years now? for 3 years, ARMYs have easily labelled yoongi as ‘lazy’, given him that ‘idagf’ image, and yet, we were oblivious to so many of his hardships. we’ve always known that he’s hardworking, more quiet than the other members, and more reflective, but this mixtape honestly blew me away because yoongi’s gone through so much in his idol career and we had no idea. 

first off, he touches on a sensitive topic that idols don’t speak openly about: mental health. he raps about seeing a psychiatrist, battling with depression, self-hate, experiencing social phobia since age 18, putting on a front, and loneliness. His entire song “The Last” really touches on this:

a word said like habit, oh, I don’t give a shit, I don’t give a fuck those words are all words I use to hide my weak self that time I want to erase, that’s right, the memories I want to erase of that day I had that concert I was afraid of people, so I hid in the bathroom and stared at myself

and in “So Far Away”:

I’m in so much pain and lonliness but people around me keeping telling me to regain my consciousness I try to vent my anger but I only got myself so what’s the point of venting my anger I’m scared to open my eyes everyday and start breathing

these lyrics from ‘At Dawn’ also illustrate this:

I pretend I’m not lonely, I pretend I’m not suffering I pretend I’m okay for no reason, meaninglessly I pretend to be strong don’t come over the wall I’ve put up in front of myself don’t throw me off this island in this wide sea 

he also talks about his struggles during his trainee days and i dont think he’s ever talked in depth about this period of his life. this mixtape gives us some insight about him moving to seoul, getting a part time job to afford the cost of living in the city, going to school dead tired after work, and still training with big hit to live out his dreams

was I needy for success? No just needy for money it’d been a long time since I forgot the words ‘in style’ I practiced at night and went to my part time job at dawn then even if I dragged that tired body to school I just slept I became 20 that way, the sight of the graduation room was suspicious

and the fact that he admits he puts up a front:

I hide the self that’s behind my defensive posture I hide myself completely like I’ve become a criminal, always I can’t even take one step outside the dorm that’s like a prison 

all of these are reasons im so moved. because it really highlights how idols only show one side of themselves to the camera, and fans can never really know them fully. we only know the version of bts’ min yoongi that he wants to show us through shows and broadcasts. 

behind every idol rapper who succeeds there’s a weak self standing, it’s a little dangerous I fall sometimes again into depression and compulsion hell no, anyway I don’t even know if that’s the real me

but through his music? through his mixtape, he’s trying to show us another side of him, and i’m so thankful that he’s opened up to his worldwide audience. this takes courage. talking openly about your hardships and your weaknesses to people who look up to you, that takes some damn courage. so thank you, yoongi, for opening up to your fans. 

yoongi: A to the G to the U to the STD 

me:

when Yoongi is too shy to look at fans but still want to show his love ♡

@teamdaegu

I PRAISE THOSE WHO HAVE ONE STABLE BIAS.

PLEASE, I NEED TO KNOW HOW YOU’VE ACHIEVED SUCH LOYALTY.

TELL ME YOUR SECRETS™

hobi staying hydrated moodboard!

Jungkook: now that I’ve become an adult, I will work hard to show a more mature image

also Jungkook:

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me: “oh hey yoongi must have gotten up already, probably outside”

wait why is his blanket lump–

oh

let’s take a moment to appreciate tiny yoongi who only takes up half of the bunk bed and literally curls up into a ball when he sleeps :’)

my fav lil things abt j-hope

- always ALWAYS the one who brings up song credits - although he was tired af after the concert (stated by jimin), he still helped tae to get in the room - no one talks abt it but he always beatboxes for the members and he’s rly good @ it but no one ever shines the light on him!!!?? - always the 1 monitoring the members’ progress in dancing and NVR fails to compliment them and their progression when he gets the chance to - his cute coffee dates w his sister 😍 - is usually the first one to notice the fan projects (prime example being the eatjin project where everyone changed their dps to “we love eatjin”) - how he’s the one tht has to take a few steps back when he’s w yoongi lmao - known rapmom for a good few years but still wants to know him better through trips (friendship goals) - does anything to make members laugh, esp yoongs - “important business” - so close to maknae line tae actually thought he was part of it till their 3rd anniversary radio show lmao (even funnier since rm is younger than hobi) - jamming on the toilet - smol hoseok dancing in predebut vids, still hella energetic as ever - the one tht finds rapmon’s lost items - bittersweet bc being an under appreciated member comes w cheaper merch…..lol yea - “jeongguk ahh~” tht deep voice ;—; - tfw he in the centre of the stage you know shit gonna go down real quick - rare talent: playing a recorder w his nostrils - allows fans to touch his dimples - good @ asking for directions in foreign countries - his violent mood swings - how he came for dancing & singing, but ended up creating his own Rap Style™ and writing all his own lyrics - no one talks abt it but his freaking freestyles omg i could watch him do That all day - !!!!!the nmd dance break!!!!!!! gdi - the barfing sounds in 1verse - 1verse - forehead exposure - not to pressure anyone but when will he be properly recognized as The Golden Hyung - kinda weird but when he always moans during yoongs’ part in cypher 3 (IDK WHICH ONE SPECIFICALLY BUT THAT ONE TIME IT WAS HELLA LOUD AND I WAS TAKEN ABACK AF) - his selfie game in america (the snapback w sleeveless look…. yea) - basically the world does not deserve jung hoseok

This wise kpop fan on the comment section of Monsta X “Stuck” music video (via monstaxmemes)