Sleepy Musings
These are just sleepy musings from a sleepy person before bedtime.
I haven’t updated this blog thoughtfully in a while, mostly because I’ve been perpetually busy. Nothing has really changed, internship and classes consume a majority of my time. I get told a lot that I’m always so busy...one of the most productive people they know...I’m always doing something. It does feel nonstop, but today I have a break.
Well, it’s almost impossible to write about everything I’ve done in Portland. I’ll start somewhere and I’m sure that once I start writing, it’ll begin to flow. Yesterday was a particularly busy day for me at internship as I prepare for my presentations. Strangely, I was getting IM’s and e-mails from leaders in the company asking about my graduation date. I had applied for full time jobs for next year and some of the programs strictly began in May/June 2018.
Even as I cram 16 units on average per quarter over the school year and 19 this summer, the earliest I will graduate is September 2018 after staying for summer session to finish my degrees. So I knew things wouldn’t work out. I got a call from a lady in the Philadelphia office and she said that my name kept getting mentioned all day.
“Haha, oh that’s not a good sign,” I joked. No, it was. She said I had an amazing resume and that my managers said good things about me. She said I was intelligent, hardworking, and a perfect candidate for the position (technology and data analytics). I was offered an interview, but I had to decline because of my graduation date. They told me to reapply next year and have kept me in their system.
It really made my day. Before that call, I was unsure of my performance and how my managers perceived me and my quality of work. I am too critical of myself at times. Calm...like Chamomile tea ok? Nobody is mad at you or thinks you’re stupid. Nobody is as harsh on me as myself. Stop it with the imposter syndrome, clearly I am doing something write. Then, my thoughts shape my actions and in turn can lead to miscommunication. I tend to be more anxious and shy in the workplace, though I am generally a warm and friendly person.
It made me happy. I just wanted to call up my mom and tell her the good news, but I had homework, an exam, and discussion post to start and finish for French before midnight. So I worked from 7 last evening until 11:30 after my host family and I got dinner at Outback Steakhouse. Also I found out that my blood type was A+ LOL. As Erick put it, I even overachieved on a blood test.
I’m all over the place, but my childhood friend just happens to come to Oregon in August. Eugene specifically, but he said it was a game changer that I was still here and wanted to see me. Our grandmas were best friends in Hong Kong when they were still alive and we’ve known each other since we were babies. What’s up Justin. Long long post and I’ll write up part 2, which will mostly be scattered thoughts and post graduation anxiety.