Welcome to Wonderland

Grieving, grieving, constantly grieving. I mourn what could have been, what should have been, what will not be, what I cannot save.

showing real signs of mental illness lately but im still cool right

I’m sorry!!! I’m sorry that we can’t go back!!! And for all the things we can’t remember. But I’m glad we did it!! The love will always be there!

every so often im reminded that i really am completely alone in this

changing every “i should have known better” to “i know better now”. i will not judge past versions of me through the lens of who i am now.

Me everyday with a chronic illness:

Hmm...I don't feel well. Is it my chronic illness? Is it a cold? Is it covid? Is it the weather? Is it because I'm tense? Is it because I went for a walk yesterday? Is it because I went for a walk today? Is it because I slept wrong? Is it because I sat wrong? Is it a new illness? Is it an old symptom coming back? Is it a flare? Is it...

a man who updates you because he knows how you overthink while waiting for him is top tier green flag energy

im like no worries & then feel so upset i get chest pains

cant wait to start feeling normal again I think to myself knowing that i have not once felt normal not at all my whole life not ever

forgive your disabled friends for always being angry with the world. but don’t feel pity for us

need u to want me like plankton wanted that fvcking formula

You are not a bad person for struggling with jealousy, hatred, disgust, or any other emotions we perceive as ugly. You are allowed to feel. 

Time heals all things…..except chronic illness.  That shit’s here to stay, yo!

just a friendly reminder that you don't deserve pain. sometimes we think we deserve to be hurt and sad, but that's not true. there is no reason to hold on to our pain or justify it. we shouldn't be hard on ourselves. we are worth healing.

I will not beg you for your time or try to convince you to choose me, the world is too big and I have too much to offer.

honestly. honestly!!!!! fuck you for making me feel so hard to love