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Touching his WRIST: Fear of losing you

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Any and every verse. 

There was something about a rainy afternoon. Something about the way the blanket of rain tucked in the world for a nap that balmed Bellamy’s hectic soul. Made him feel like he was allowed to be unproductive. Allowed to take some time for himself. 

And there was no one he’d rather spend that time with than Brett. They hadn’t seen each other in what felt like an unbearably long time, between work and school and responsibilities they just hadn’t had the time. Being without Brett for so long had Bellamy feeling like he’d been missing something vital. Some kind of phantom limb. 

Now, dozing side by side in Bellamy’s room, he didn’t feel like anything was missing. Brett had been in and out of light sleeps, but Bellamy had been letting his mind wander. Head on Brett’s chest, he’d been zoning out to the drum of Brett’s heart, letting his fingers trace over collar bones and ribs. 

There was this nagging pain in his chest where doubt had dug in its spindly appendages, whispering to him that their stretches of time apart would grow longer and longer until they just never saw each other again. Bellamy squeezes his eyes shut and holds his breath, squashing that horrid idea back into the dark. 

He couldn’t handle that. He couldn’t let that happen. He couldn’t go back to a life without Brett Talbot. He didn’t even want to try. Bellamy always wanted to wake up with Brett in his arms, always wanted to hear his laugh and see that grin on his face. Always, always wants to have those fingers intertwined with his own. 

“You okay, Bell?”

Brett’s sleepy voice is achingly soft as it pierces through his jumbled mind like the sun peeking behind rain clouds. Fingers carefully, affectionately, tuck brown curls behind Bellamy’s ear and he looks up to find those opalescent eyes. 

“Yes.” Bellamy answers, and he means it.

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“nothin’s gonna harm you, not while i’m around.”

The August heat is merciless, caressing the captain’s bare shoulders with scalding palms, placing blistering kisses upon freckled cheeks. Bellamy loves it. He doesn’t seek shade, instead he stands under the rays and closes his eyes. Breathing in the weather, listening to the waves gurgle. The sea is at peace today, sloshing gently against the shore. It’d been quite a while since they’d last made port (If the captain’s stubble was anything to go by) and the crew was eager to break for land. In the absence Helianthus creaks quietly. Out of the a few that did not go ashore, at the forefront of his mind is his noble. Over the last few weeks Brett’s buried himself in research, keeping to himself, mind turned inward.

 Bellamy’d wanted Brett to have purpose, but what he hadn’t expected was this obsession. This fixation on revenge. Part of him knows this isn’t healthy. Part of him knows he’d do the same. 

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The man’s voice is so low and quiet Brett would’ve missed it if his heartbeat was any louder. There is no reason for the grounder to be nervous, here within the safety of his home. The sky boy is built and strong but he display more caution than aggression. On top of that, his eyes are a warm shade of earth with clarity of a shining sun. Brett finds no threat in his curious gaze.
                         “Bell.”
The single syllable sets on Brett’s tongue naturally though a bit too short for savouring. “Bell,” he says again, like he is practicing and trying the texture of this sound, then he looks at the man with an thoughtful stare.
To explain WHY he interfered of nature’s course will take more than two or three words, and that is all too many for the grounder already. Gonasleng isn’t as hard on the head as it is on the heart – the orders might be mixed up but the meaning always got through.
            ( All the Mountain does is take and take and take and take. Whatever they say, it’s about more and more and more taking. Their words are warnings. Their sirens bring killing mists. Their bullets, their guns, their people– )
“…You would have died,” Brett isn’t sure how to clarify his intentions better, so he lets out each syllable with an apology. The grounder drops his gaze and continues to peel at the patch until it is completely off. Discarding the old patch on the ground, Brett carefully holds up a clean cloth and wets it briefly. Then, he looks up at Bell again. “Greini taught me to heal. So I healed you.”
Still, Brett waits for a nod before he moves on to clean the wound.

The grounder echos his name as if it is worth repeating, looking at him thoughtfully as if he is something to be remembered. It leaves a foreign, seen feeling rippling across Bellamy’s skin and he’s not yet sure if it’s an emotion he wants to approach or shy away from. 

Brett’s response is so simply put it makes the answer seem obvious. As if leaving this stranger from the sky to bleed out into the earth was even an option. It makes Bellamy wonder what he would have done had the roles been reversed. Until this moment he’d been certain the natives wanted nothing to do with the well being of his people, quite the opposite in fact. The image of a wooden spear sinking into Jasper’s chest flashes through his mind and Bellamy drops his eyes. 

Maybe there are different clans, Bellamy thinks as he glances up at the dark paint smeared across Brett’s fair skin. He wants to know what it meas. What it all means. He’d read every book in the limited, censored library on the Ark. He’d always been told in school that there were no people left on earth, no animals, no plants, no life. 

How wrong those ancient books had been. There was an abundance of life left on earth. An overwhelming magnitude of thriving new life at that. Bellamy wants to see it, wants to smell it, wants to touch it. Remembers vividly that need he’d had as a child to reach into the pages of his books and feel more than the cold metallic skin of the Ark. 

He feels that flare of childlike curiosity and tries to tuck it safely away back into the untouched corners of his heart. Surely the only thing those questions will get him is killed. 

So he averts his attention back to the grounder, watching Brett’s hands as they wet and wring the water from the cloth. Nodding when Brett seems to ask for it. Greini, fiya, Bellamy wonders what these words mean. For the umpteenth time, he glances over to the elderly woman quietly doing her own thing in the corner. He’d have to squint to try and make out her face with just the candle light, but he wants to ask if she is the teacher he mentioned. The healer. She certainly has the aura; quiet, honest. The same perception he’s beginning to have about Brett.

Dark, genuine eyes search out lighter ones, “Thank you.” he whispers.

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Little do they know the soul crushing chapters ahead.
Right now, in this small grounder hut, there is a young earthling sitting across a skyborn, a bowl of water in his steady hand. Brown eyes are common in his clan but Brett has never seen such clarity in anyone else’s gaze. There is fear and doubt, beneath which is the flight-or-fight survival instinct, and for a moment Brett worries his careless interference will bring them both trouble.
His hand stops when the man flinches, his breath hitched in a silent stare. Greini doesn’t ask Brett for narration. She calls her grandchild’s name like a mentor before family, composed in her volume as well as tone. Brett holds his gaze still and answers with a curt sound, something expressing understanding.
Brett has always been good with animals, be it quadrupedal or feathered. There is a certain stillness in his presence that comforts injured critters, and Brett prays to the stars above this works the same with humans from above. 
Wordlessly, the man offers permission with a nod. The universal gesture eases some tension in Brett’s body and he nods in return, pursing his lips quietly before he focuses on the man’s wound.
The candle barely provides enough light but grounders are used to such natural constraints. While still not as developed as nocturnals, Brett’s eyes are well accustomed to dimly lit environments. Regardless, his touch remains reserved and light lest he further irritates the wound.
Pale fingers tug at the peeling corner and the patch slowly falls away from feverish skin. Brett pauses briefly, glancing up at the man as if the check whether it caused any pain. Setting the bowl of water on the bed, he now holds the corner in one hand while slipping a finger from the other hand in between skin and fabric.
( He tries not to notice the warmth brushing against the side of his finger. He tries not to notice the rise and fall of chest. )
So cautious with his hands, Brett becames incredibly conscious of the suffocating silence in the room. Greini has stopped humming now, probably quiet just so she can figure out what the other two is doing from the slightest of sounds. Brett glances up at the skyboy once more, and this time he speaks, voice quiet and almost reluctant until he manages the eventual apology.
“…Brett. My name. Fiya.

The blond man mirrors his nod and Bellamy holds his breath, jaw clenching and eyes squinting, bracing himself. Waiting for that tearing yank of whatever is pressed into his wound. Waiting for that flood of hurt. 

But it doesn’t come. Instead, the grounders touch is startlingly tender. Peeling back the herb patch with careful fingers. It’s a foreign sensation, he doesn’t know how to describe it, doesn’t know how to feel about it. He can’t remember hands ever being this gentle against his skin. 

An unfamiliar fluttering is just poking at the cage of his ribs when those blue eyes rise to find his. It wasn’t till this moment that Bellamy realizes he is staring. He turns his gaze quickly, finally releasing that held breath. The tension remains in his body, flaring at the sting of air against his wound, glowing at the brush of fingers. He tries his best to focus on the pain.

                         Brett.

Cinnamon eyes return to meet skyline blues at the utterance. The grounder’s voice as soft as his touch. Bellamy feels a swell of relief with the sound of his own language. Not for the first time he considers distantly how unprepared he is for the earth. How overwhelming it is, and how much it seems to not want the Arkers here.

Quietly, Bellamy mouths the name. Brett. He looks over what features of the grounder he can make out in the candle light, decides it suits him. “I’m um..” His voice sounds off to his own ears. Rough, reserved. “..Bell.” 

He couldn’t explain why he dodges any eye contact at this point. The rising feeling of being so vulnerable, so defenseless in this moment, has him on edge. A thank you catches in his throat, his words coming out more defensive than he’d intended, “Why’d you do this?” immediately he scolds himself; By this do you mean saving your ass? for fucks sake, Bell.

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He sneezed. Brett cannot help but look up at the sky person for the eleventh time in the past hour. The ship fell from the sky like a comet, but this one with people. Do people live on stars? He thought stars were people they lost, but perhaps they are more than that.
The grounder watches his guest with caution, an axe balancing by the handle in his palm. He has been watching them, watching him, this man who appears to lead the skylings, this man who sheds his bravado once he is alone, but picks it up once it is time to go back. The man with a tiny axe who has no idea what to do with an aggressive panther.
The man speaks, and Brett rests the axe on his lap like a small sleeping animal. The moment of change flickers over that freckled face, and Brett wonders what is going on in his head. His curiosity bleeds all over the floor and even his blind Greini can see the spark in sky blue eyes. She huffs, making her quiet presence known to both of them, her head tilted towards her grandson with a mouthed word. Talk.
Brett considers his options. He shouldn’t expose his location to a stranger, but then he already did the most idiotic thing one could do. All is left is damage control right now. Gonasleng has always come reluctant on his tongue, but he tries. Nothing comes out. He opens his mouth as though contemplating again, but a frown squeezed out the light.
He gets up, his bulk blocking the candle light for a moment, casting a long shadow over to the other side of the room. The silver-haired elder begins to hum, muttering something beneath her breath, something sly and silken. Something that ignites a defensive spark in the young one. Brett picks up a wide oval container which is filled with water, and he grabs the cloth that looks the cleanest from the wall.
Then he settles on the floor next to the man, quiet eyes looking straight at him, unafraid and enquiring. Tentatively, he reaches for the stingy patch, trying to catch it by the peeling corner. He doesn’t move further until he gets some sort of permission though.

His own axe in unfamiliar hands demands his attention but his eyes continue to sweep the room. Focus not lingering for more than a few moments on each foreign bauble and instrument. Stalks of grasses and flowers parceled together hang upside down from the ceiling, furs with patterns he couldn’t have fathomed draped across hand made wooden furniture, so many textures and patterns and smells in one small, dimly lit room and Bellamy can’t help his overwhelming curiosity for it all.

A sigh from the corner of the room has the sky boy snapping back to the gravity of his situation, but his held breath filters out gently when he sources the murmur to the elderly woman sitting at a low table. He silently chides himself for writing this granny off as a non-threat, reminds himself that he doesn’t know these people, doesn’t know their intentions, and most of all- brown eyes slide suspiciously back to the young grounder- why this man saved him. If perhaps he wants something in return. A small laugh bubbles and dies in Bellamy’s throat, there’s nothing he has to give. Nothing but my life, He thinks distantly, not much value there.

The blond opens his mouth as if to respond, but decides against it. Bellamy frowns, acknowledging the entirely probable possibility that these folk do not speak his tongue.

“Fuck..” he whispers lowly to himself, one hand sweeping his bangs from his face and the other reaching to tentatively touch at his aching side, trying to feel out the expanse of the wound. He can’t remember anything but red red red. Brimming through his shirt and running down his wrist. It’s difficult to approximate with all of the sharply pungent foliage they’d packed into and around it. Bellamy finds himself sniffling, fighting congestion at the onslaught of wet spice on his senses. Vaguely he wonders if this is on purpose, if the grounder hadn’t saved him at all, if he’s just prolonging his life for some kind of ritualistic-

The tall earth boy stands, effectively distracting Bellamy from his line of ridiculous speculation and turning his attention on the quickly closing distance between them. Bellamy’s head screams at him to move, but his body whimpers in protest at the slightest attempt to get up. His legs don’t respond immediately and he fumbles in his movements, ending up doing nothing more than scooting himself back against the wall.

Bellamy bites down a grunt of pain his side rewards him with for his unproductive shifting of position, a shiver of useless adrenaline running up his spine when the grounder sits before him. Bellamy holds those calm blue eyes with his own steely gaze, some act of defiance in his mind (like he hadn’t just cornered himself against the wall). He can make out only the lines of the boy’s features in this shadowing, but not the finer details.

The grounder reaches out and Bellamy flinches, muscles going rigid and pulse bounding. Bellamy spares a glance down, sees the man’s fingers snag some raised corner of the muddy patch and still there. When Bellamy looks back up to meet those light eyes, there’s something in them. A reflection of his own buried curiosity, and a question.

Bellamy thinks he understands, and figuring that he hasn’t anything to lose, braces himself for that tug with a clenched jaw and a slight nod.

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Ah, Sun-flower.

@bretttal v: my cathedral is the badlands

The tile of Octavia’s manor is frigid beneath Bellamy’s bare feet as he walks the corridor. It’s a grounding bite of sensation that he finds himself appreciating. Contrasting it to the warmth seeping up from the wood of Helianthus’ skin. 

The mere thought of his ship has a pang of yearning tugging at the captain’s ribs, it’d been a long while since they’d been at port for so long. But there wasn’t much of a choice; one wretched, unexpected storm and a loose sail had drove the tabacco ship directly into a fence of coast rocks.

His sister’s hospitality has been more than generous. Welcoming the entire crew into her home indefinitely, warm baths and soft beds for the lot, and yet Bellamy can’t help his restlessness. Can’t see the coastline, Can’t even hear the ocean from the window this far inland. He wants to be able to just settle, reminds himself that everything that is really important is under this roof with him. His crew, his sister, Brett

Brett seemed to be enjoying the break from the sea. Perusing through the well stocked library, reading in the gardens, and helping the kitchen staff prepare dinner in a fully equipped kitchen. Bellamy loves to see him like this. Desperately wants for his best friend to reach for any bits of happiness and peace he can. 

Bellamy opens the door to their shared space, quietly shutting it behind him, remembering the fact that Brett had been dozing before he’d left for a stroll earlier in the afternoon. The room is cozy, stone walled with a small oak desk, a spacious bed, and a large window overlooking the fragrant blossom trees. But above all else it’s just theirs

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Just Cause

It’s two in the afternoon and it’s beautiful outside. Cotton clouds rippled across a blue sky as if they were painted in place, the wind just strong enough to ruffle the long grass and kiss your cheeks. 

They have absolutely no excuse to be curled up on the couch. The curtains are drawn in the living room, the only light coming from the fourth movie they’ve watched today. This one is Bellamy’s pick; some lame romance they’d stumbled across on Netflix. It was remarkably bad, but neither were complaining. Happy to just spend their day off together.

Bellamy honestly couldn’t think of a better way to spend such a gorgeous day, he’d woken up in Brett’s arms and he hadn’t left them since. They showered languidly, but they’d redressed in pajamas. Reflecting on it has Bellamy giggling to himself, realizing that all this time he’s been wearing just one sock. Having completely forgotten the other at the time in favor of kissing up Brett’s bare thighs. 

“What?” Brett rumbles against the back of his ear, voice low with disuse.  Bellamy presses against his chest, wonders for the umpteenth time if its even physically possible to be as close to Brett as he wants to be. Needs to be. “Nothin’, just thinking about earlier.”  Bellamy feels rather than hears Brett laugh, “You’re insatiable.” The blond says, ducking down to press kisses into Bellamy’s freckled shoulder line. “Well,” Bellamy purrs, turning his head to plant his own kiss against Brett’s cheek, “We both know thats not true.” 

And then Brett is smiling that smile, that loose content grin that Bellamy would do exactly anything to keep spread across his best friend’s face.

Theres a familiar ache bubbling in his chest, an ache that took him a long time to explain. An ache he’d thought would go away when Brett finally, finally took his hand, kissed his lips, touched his soul. But no, it’s grown more intense over the years. An ache Bellamy can only describe as a full heart. 

It’s an ache that has him turning in Brett’s arms, pressing his face into the blond’s chest, fingers curling into the cotton of his shirt, holding him as close as this world will allow him. 

“Are you watching?” Brett asks. “Yes.” Bellamy responds, voice muffled. “Liar,” Brett laughs, and Bellamy can only smile. 

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Headcanon thing for Bellamy E. Blake~

  • What they smell like: I really really love earthy tones for Bellamy. Like I think Lavender works well for him because its floral but not FLORAL yknow what i mean? Soft and light. But I really do love Sage and Citrus for him aswell, Sharp but warm and just? idk suits him i think
  • How they sleep (sleeping position, schedule, etc):  More often than not he’d sleep on his stomach, hugging the pillow and burying his face lmao
  • What music they enjoy:  I think Bellamy’d like drifty music if you know what i mean? music where you can just lay on your bed and stare up at your ceiling and close your eyes and just drift. Stolen Dance -Milky chance, Gooey- glass animals , Just Once - Shura, Hypnotic by Zella day, young summer’s waves that rolled you under and so on
  • How much time they spend getting ready every morning:  I think it varies a lot really! cause I think sometimes he gets self conscious of how he looks? like i can see him spending a little extra time frowning at his wild curls and trying to work an antifrizz serum into them. other days I dont think he’d care at all, button up a shirt and surely gravitate more towards dark washed denim and he’s ready. 
  • Their favorite thing to collect:  Brett’s shirts lmao but really I can see him idly collecting things yknow? Like he’s just walking along and sees a leaf on the ground thats a cool color, vibrant red or yellow, or maybe its just a cool design i think he’d just stuff it in his pocket.
  • Left or right handed:   Right I’d say? 
  • Religion (if any): Raised Jewish, still holds onto the culture and celebrations, utters a kaddish now and then, but isn’t practicing religiously. 
  • Favorite sport: Can definitely see him playing soccer or basketball but i WANNA see him play volleyball ayyyyyy
  • Favorite touristy thing to do when traveling (museums, local food, sightseeing, etc): Museums for SURE, trying new foods is only really fun for him when he’s with Brett or Octavia. 
  • Favorite kind of weather: Bellamy Elijah Blake loves to wake up to a rainy morning let me TELL YA. Like lbr he’s such a stressed out person? waking up to soft blue morning light and the sound of the downpour and distant thunder like ??? lullaby for him tbh, stays in bed as long as he can on these mornings.
  • A weird/obscure fear they have: Intimacy lMAO KILL ME 
  • The carnival/arcade game they always win without fail: That dart game with the balloons? Bell WRECKS IT
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Hand OVER THE HEART: "I love you."

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The purr of distant thunder has the captain stirring from sleep before it is truly time. Rain drizzles outside, can hear it tip tippy tapping on the water’s surface below their window. Bellamy closes his eyes on a long inhale, adores the smell of rain, loves that earthy scent it drags from the wood of his ship.  

There’s a sharper note in the air too, and it has him rolling on his side to face his best friend. Brett’s breaths are as soft as the blue hued morning sun dripping down his shoulders. He smells of soap, the thrice milled oatmeal soap Sophie had made for them, Bellamy remembers that overflowing gratitude in Brett’s eyes with a fond smile. 

Arms over his head, the captain stretches with a pleased sigh, he has a lightness about him that he doesn’t quite know how to describe. He’s happy, he knows that, but there is something more, relief maybe. That feeling of peace stitching along his heart in flawless seam. 

The rains picking up, but Bellamy isn’t worried, not while Helianthus rocks gently in the calm waters of port, sails secured and anchored. In fact; he’s not worried about anything right now, right now is perfect, and he wants to revel in this moment of tranquility. So he reaches an arm over Brett’s middle, sneaks chilly fingers up Brett’s shirt, till he can place his palm flat against the warmth of Brett’s chest, feeling that rhythm against skin to skin. 

Brett stirs with a hum, legs shifting under the heavy quilt, “Morning..” He drawls, and Bellamy can’t help but smile, he loves Brett’s voice like this, thick with sleep and coarse with disuse. He curls against him, pressing chest to back, dropping a kiss against his shoulder and nuzzling into the side of his best friend’s neck. “Not yet.”

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Only me

it’d started off as their regular Friday night; curling up on the couch in the Blake’s living room and settling in for some Netflix. Knees leaning against one another under the worn knit blanket haphazardly draped over their laps. Bottles of dark ale held loose in sleepy fingers. Just detoxing from their weeks. 

Sometimes they talked endlessly, sometimes they just lean into each other’s gravity and sat quietly but comfortably. Today they’d been discussing which Great Gatsby was truly the best, Luhrmann’s or Markowitz’s. 

“That’s my problem B, it’s all about Nick. Nick makes or breaks it and my heart is divided between Toby Meguire and Paul Rudd. They’re both perfectly awkward and-”

“Lets watch them both.”

Bellamy couldn’t help but smile broadly at Brett’s suggestion.

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