“Stop pitying yourself. Pity yourself, and your life becomes an endless nightmare.”
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"you're so scary, scaramouche. feels like your gaze is scarring my skin."
scaramouche looked at you with siren eyes, rolling them at your obvious observation. he watched as you fiddled with the ropes and fabrics on his chest, looking at him with faux innocence in your eyes. "i'm the shogun's puppet and a harbinger. what did you expect, a boy filled with puppies and rainbows?"
"well, no," you giggled and cupped his cheeks, your cheshire grin growing as he leaned further into your palms and squinted his eyes. "but i do expect some smiles. c'mon, it's not too hard!"
you pinched his cheeks and pulled at them, stretching his lips to form a distorted smile. he would kill anybody who dared to be within arm distance, but he allowed you. of course he would allow you.
you're the one person who makes the hidden heart in his void of a chest beat: you make him complete, human.
he grumbled delirious vulgar insults and empty threats, coherence an afterthought. your hands fell to his chest as laughter bubbled up and escaped your throat.
he watched you for a second, analysing how your eyes crinkled up when you laughed, how your fingers were so delicately placed upon his chest as if you trusted him more than anything ever, how your pupils were so dilated and full of love and happiness and...
oh.
when did he become so weak?
when did he become so fragile, for a human no less? whenever you are around him, there is a longing, trembling feeling in his bones he cannot shake. he doesn't think he'll ever be able to shake it off.
in his eyes, you are a saint. no matter how many times you may have had blood stain your hands, or how many times you have glared upon others with slit eyes like his (he had never seen you do either, he never will. you're an angel, his angel): he is the sinner in this game of life the two of you play.
should i tell you? he wonders. should i tell you how your name haunts my every waking movement? i lie awake with nothing but your name plaguing my thoughts, oh what a name it is. you are something more honest than love. and perhaps you're more hollow than pure joy.
"i love you." is what he says when your giggles quiet down ever so slightly, your fingertips gently scratching his scalp as his eyes fluttered to a halt.
because what else is there to say than that?
he will be sure to thank the moon tonight, for whatever fate or luck or pure coincidence to have him being led to you. bless the moon, the stars, and whatever the fuck else is up there.
inexperienced boyfriend! xiao who can't help but fall in love with you no matter how much he tried to convince himself that he should spare the both of you from pain if anything were to ever happen between the two of you guys.
inexperienced boyfriend! xiao who eventually falls head over heels for you as time goes on, how can he not when you look at him like he's given you the world with his own hands? like he's your world? please catch him and don't let him fall to the ground :[
inexperienced boyfriend! xiao who's eyes sparkle with curiosity and interest when you invite him to cook a meal with you (he feels himself falling in love with you and your cooking but he'll never tell you that no matter what)
inexperienced boyfriend! xiao who loves watching you fall asleep in his bed as he feels himself slowly become vulnerable around you, your arms wrapped around his body as he nuzzles his face deep into your neck, his body language asking you to please protect him and his heart :(<3 (take good care of them okay?)
inexperienced boyfriend! xiao who the moment he realizes that he actually loves you doesn't hesitate to run to where you are, heart pumping as he looked all over liyue to find where you were, the feeling of desperation running through his veins; and there he finds you, talking with yanfei as the girl notices him behind you, leaving the two of you be.
inexperienced boyfriend! xiao who gulps and tries to calm himself as your questions of 'are you okay?' and 'what happened' go through one ear then another— everything's okay right? so why was he so nervous and anxious?
inexperienced boyfriend! xiao who eventually just let's his mouth do the talking, closing his eyes, and clenching his fists as he hopes for the best; yet the two of you could only focus on one phrase he's said, a phrase so sweet and heartstopping, a phrase that rolls off his tongue rather nicely, and a phrase that warmed both of your guys heart for how long have the two of you been waiting for this moment to come?— “i love you,” he says with his heart oh-so full of love for you.
how they goofed up their confession - part two
feat. Diluc, Kaeya, Kazuha, Scaramouche
part one
DILUC
waking up next to you
feat. Diluc, Kaeya, Ayato, Scaramouche
note: not dating yet in kaeya’s!!
DILUC
Diluc is a natural early riser, waking up just as the sun begins to rise. As his eyes open, they find themselves looking around the different parts of your bedroom. He’s always liked your bedroom. It always felt so warm and comforting being in here- though maybe it’s because everything reminds him of you.
He watches as the sun begins peaking through the cracks of the curtain, illuminating the room. His eyes soon find you, peacefully asleep. No matter how many times he’s witnessed this, he still feels his heart fluttering at the sight.
It was normal of him to sleep over in your apartment so often- you were still a bit wary being in his manor when you knew there would be servants at your beck and call. You felt guilty you couldn’t be comfortable staying over at your boyfriend’s house- but Diluc didn’t mind one bit. He took your concerns into account and decided that he could just be over at your place when the two of you wanted to spend time together in a more domestic setting.
Diluc nearly freezes when he feels you moving about. Since waking up, he hasn’t moved a muscle yet he’s somehow worried that he’s done something to disturb your sleep. But instead you curl up closer to him, snuggling into his side as you continue sleeping.
You wouldn’t be awake for another few hours, especially since it was a weekend. Diluc smiles to himself before shutting his eyes once more.
He could wake up like this until the end of time.
Pov you've just watched the bsd season 4 trailer
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I STILL HAVE CHILLS FROM THAT TRAILER DIBFSIDUNEHCBF
Could you do a fic or headcanons with Chuuya and/or Akutagwa with a female s/o who plays the piano and is pretty good at it? Like at midnight they just play the piano and plays stuff like Beethoven symphony number 5 💀
◊ characters. chuuya, akutagawa, gn!reader
◊ genre. fluff
— 𝐂𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 𝐍𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚
— 𝐑𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐞 𝐀𝐤𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐰𝐚
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𝐇𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐁𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐂𝐫𝐲 — 𝐁𝐒𝐃 𝐄𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧
◊ characters. akutagawa, oda, dazai, gn!reader
◊ genre. angst to fluff?
— 𝐑𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐞 𝐀𝐤𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐰𝐚
he swears it’s fine. the world beneath doesn’t feel like it’s crumbling at all and he swears his stomach his churning wildly. he can’t remember the last time he ate something substantial. akutagawa struggles to come to his senses and for a moment he pretends he isn’t about to collapse both mentally and physically.
you watch him carefully, staring at him as if he were ab immortalized art piece in a museum. “ryuu… you’re gonna be okay,” you murmured, reaching over to caress his misshapen hair and stroke his face.
akutagawa stares at you with wide eyes before, and for a very small second, you see glistening tears creeping into his tired eyes. and the next thing you know, he’s in your arms. you hold him tightly and promise not to let go. you can’t tell whether or not he’s crying anymore but you hug him as tight as he’ll allow.
bungou stray dogs | G | 578 words nakahara chuuya x reader/oc
not everyone was taught how to ride a bike as a young child.
“how do you not know how to ride a bike?”
“how do you not know how to make onigiri?”
“okay, fine, you win.”
bungou stray dogs AU | G | 710 words nakahara chuuya x reader/OC
chuuya’s always dreamt of a life bigger than anything he’s ever seen. when his world goes small, though… it’s even better.
“sweetheart, can ya please do my hair today?”
chuuya calls, standing in front of the mirror in the living area, where sunlight cascades its beautiful, golden morning light. you look up from the coffee you’re sipping in the kitchen, turning to your beloved partner. he’s combing his long hair with his hands, looking distracted.
“of course! be there in a min!”
어둠 속 한 줄기 빛처럼
손잡아 준 너를 따라가
the discarded puppet of the electro archon never expected to find someone willing to teach him about the tears he cried at night, nor the pounding in his chest when the sound of thunder echoed throughout his mind. yet, when drifting along the endless plains of inazuma, a fellow wanderer came along and gave him a home, even if they never stopped traveling across the land of eternity.
note: lowercase intended, slight name spoilers, scaramouche is nice
bungou stray dogs | G | 736 words
nakahara chuuya x reader/oc
despite nightmares plaguing your sleep, there’s always someone warm to wake up to.
the nightmare is something else. there’s someone chasing you with a knife first, before the scene shifts and instead you’re faced with something more threateningly personal. it twists and turns into a horror show and the you in the dream can only duck and hide or run. except there’s only so many places to hide in or go.
“-by. hey.”
the monster lurks in the corner of your eye, and you’re sure this time it’s going to get you. you can almost feel it’s slimy limbs encircling your wrist, and just the thought of it sends a shiver down your spine.
“-ke up. baby.”
the floor creaks underneath the monster’s weight and you close your eyes, accepting your fate. you hear its breath hovering so close to you. and just as it’s about to open its cavernous mouth-
“baby. hey. come on, wake up.”
𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐎𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐖𝐞 𝐊𝐧𝐨𝐰 — 𝐂𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 𝐍𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚
◊ a/n: i rlly wanted an excuse to write heterochromia chuuya but then i listened to somewhere only we know by keane soo...
◊ wc: 0.9k
Chuuya prided himself on his heightened senses and excellent manner of sight and sound. He was a mafioso; a man of pride and loyalty as well as confidence and luxury. He saw the world as do most people. Though maybe his view of the universe was a little skewed. Who knows what Chuuya Nakahara thought of the world around him?
Staring up at the midnight stars, you paused to take in the fresh moon-infused air. From behind, you could hear Chuuya shuffling along behind you. He sounded lethargic and perhaps weary. You chalked it up to the activity of the day.
“Chuuya, hurry up. You look like you’re going to pass out any minute.”
The mafioso blinked at you tiredly, his pacing picking up by only a little bit. He rubbed the back of his neck, stretching his limbs and managing to catch up to your side.
“What’s the hurry?” he grumbled, slipping a gloved hand into yours and raising it up to give the back of it a chaste kiss.
“No hurry, I suppose. I just want to lay down soon. My feet are killing me,” you said, acknowledging the kiss with a coy smile.
Tagged by @bdeblueyes sorry I’m getting to this so late, I was focused on work and drawing!
Last Song: Not counting the soundtrack to the movie I’m watching, the last song I listened to on Spotify was “Snow Fairy” (the first opening theme to Fairy Tail). The one before that has been stuck in my head though. It’s this song from ‘given’ that I don’t know the translation for.
Last TV Show: given. And I cried just as much as I did the first time I watched it
Currently watching/listening to: Aladdin. It’s a familiar movie that I can easily fall asleep to, and it’s also sentimental
Currently reading: I also am reading a lot of fics, but I am also reading a lot of webtoons, and Dracula.
Current obsession: Yes. Take your pic from any one of my hyperfixations. In a very broad scope, though, bl anime. The stories are just so good and the boys are so pretty to draw.
thanks for the tag ficcc <3
last song: NVMD by Denise Julia
last show: Jobless Reincarnation
currently watching: Ouran Highschool Host Club
currently reading: One Of Us is Lying by Karen M. McManus
current obsession: true crime podcasts specifically Morbid and Rotten Mango atm 🫣💞
tagging: @honeydazai @snowbits @todorokichills @jessbeinme15 @starglow-xx + anyone else~
ty for the tag ari! i miss talking with you!!<3
last song: Sensi by Greentea Peng
last tv show: stranger things
currently watching (or atleast trying to get myself to finish 🥲): It’s Okay To Not Be Okay
currently reading: The Setting Sun by Osamu Dazai
tagging: anyone!
bitches just want to be someone’s favourite person. i’m bitches
Hi! Since requests are open, I was wondering if I could get a drabble of Chuuya with a gn!s/o who’s a writer. I can just see Chuuya always being excited to read one of their works and sometimes a little worried about how big their notebook hoard is getting. I hope you have a good day/night!
𝟏𝟎:𝟒𝟎 𝐩𝐦 — 𝐂𝐡𝐮𝐮𝐲𝐚 𝐍𝐚𝐤𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚
A mirage of loose papers and a messily strewn desk was common in Chuuya's place. Not that he wanted the estranged mess, he just accepted that he had to live with it. They would get organized eventually.
After living with you for so long, Chuuya knew how you operated. He recognized when you were in a writing zone or when you were in a slump.
A loud groan erupted from the other room and Chuuya picked up the warm mug on the counter. Your slouched figure on the couch gave off a familiar air of frustration.
"Another writer's block?" Chuuya asked, setting the mug on the coffee table.
You stared at the steamy liquid, noting it to be your favorite drink during long evenings. "I hate dialogue," you groaned, "I just wanna-"
You cut yourself off to make a strangled noise of frustration. Chuuya chuckled lightly at the unearthly sound, taking a glance at the scribbles on notebook paper and the bright glare of your laptop.
Picking up one of the loose-leaf pages, the man quietly stared at the writing. He ignored your quiet mumbles about it not being done yet and whatever other excuse he was used to hearing about your own work.
"Oh it's this one," he said matter-of-factly. Then a quiet silence filled the room and he put the paper down to look for what seemed to be the continuing part.
"Where the hell's the next part?" Chuuya asked with an unusual look of desperation in his eyes.
"The next part? I haven't finished it yet."
Chuuya stared at you anxiously. "But you're writing it soon, right? That's a whole fucking cliffhanger you just left me on!"
You laughed at the anguished gaze he gave you. "You'll get it when I finish it!"
It was his turn to let out a groan, flopping over and onto your lap begging you to relieve him of this deprivation. And your amusement for his rather childish demeanor washed away the frustration of the evening.
"Then finish it faster!"
"I'll finish it when I finish it!"
"Then finish it tomorrow!"
"If you get off me I will!"
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