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A Fair(y) Crime

➜ Words: 22k

➜ Genres: 50% Fluff, 45% Crack, 5% Angst

➜ Summary: While you might hate fairytales, it doesn’t change the fact that you are the descendent of the fairy godmother. With a wand in your hand and magic running through your veins, you have to search for your Cinderella and grant them their happily ever after….but things might be a bit more complicated than that when you find out your little Cinderella comes in the form of troublemaker Kim Taehyung.

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EXTEMPORANEOUS: MASTERLIST

{?} x reader

Reader is finally escaping community college and jumping into grad school, deciding on California Institute of the Arts with her best friend Taehyung, who she hasn’t yet met in person. While the idea of meeting new people, living in a big city, and pursuing what she loves is all appealing, Reader still is terrified of the unknown lying ahead.

tags; taehyung x reader, jungkook x reader, Actor!Taehyung, Filmmaker!Jungkook, Actor!Reader, College AU, fluff, angst. Existential Crisis, unemployment, avoidance of feelings, miscommunication and assumptions. Unrequited love. 

BOOK ONE

Prologue: Time Is Ticking

Tae convinces you to apply for CalArts, your dream school.
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Scars

summary: It’s hot outside and you’re still wearing long sleeves, but you finally tell Jimin why.

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tw: scars, mentions of self harm, anxiety, self hatred, depression, paranoia

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“y/nie isn’t it too hot for long sleeves, my love?” Jimin asked, trailing his fingers gently against your long sleeved shirt. He looked at you with worry in his eyes, more concerned with your well being than your sense of fashion.

Your heart suddenly crawled into your throat, and you weren’t sweating from the heat anymore. Your heart began hammering in your chest and you fidgeted with the loose thread on your left sleeve.

“Nah, Jiminie I’m okay.” you said, throwing on a half assed grin and tried to convince your boyfriend you were fine. It was really hot. But you didn’t want him to see your arms. You were concerned with what he would think about the scars on your skin, worried about what he would think about the marks you made. Realistically, Jimin would never judge or belittle you for anything, especially self harming, but your anxiety couldn’t prevent you from getting paranoid.

Would your perfect boyfriend really love you with such deformities?

Jimin snapped you out of your thoughts by grabbing your fidgeting hand and lacing your fingers together, drawing your attention to him. He could very obviously see the panic on your face and was quickly getting worried. Did he do something?

“Baby, are you okay? Talk to me, what’s wrong?” he asked softly, his other hand gently trailing the backs of his fingers against your cheek.

You stayed silent, trying to find the right words. You panicked more, not sure if you wanted to tell him the truth or come up with a lie. Fortunately for you, you got together in the fall so long sleeves were common for months. Unfortunately for you, it was now summer and you couldn’t stay in long sleeves forever. Through the cold season you managed to stay hidden in dim lighting, long sleeves or blankets so Jimin hadn’t seen your scars yet, but he was getting suspicious now. What would you do? Would he hate you? Especially for keeping something so serious from him?

You didn’t notice you had begun to slightly hyperventilate until he grabbed your cheeks with both of his hands and had you look at him.

“Baby, please talk to me, I’m worried. What’s the matter?” Jimin asked you, his eyebrows furrowed in distress. He gently pulled you to the couch, your lunch with the boys forgotten.

You pulled your sleeves down further unconsciously, but the movement didn’t go unnoticed by Jimin. He waited for you to speak.

He held one of your hands with both of his, running his thumb against the back of your hand to try and keep your focus on him and to help you not panic anymore.

You took a deep breath. You couldn’t avoid it forever, right? You could only hope that he wouldn’t despise you for keeping the truth from him.

“Jiminie... I...”

You wanted to cry. You hated your arms, all the scars you caused, all the terrible memories tied to them. You hated it. And you hated yourself for keeping the truth from Jimin for so long.

“Baby, I.. I have a lot of.. scars... on my arms.. And I’m really ashamed of them, I hate them so so much, I was in a really bad place mentally when I did it and I probably should have told you sooner but I’m a piece of shit and-“

Your words started off slow and began snowballing as your confession gained momentum, but Jimin interrupted you before you could belittle yourself anymore.

“Hey, do not talk about yourself that way, my love. You’re not a piece of shit. I am a little sad you felt you couldn’t tell me, but I understand. It’s a heavy topic and I never want you to feel forced to tell me anything. But I do want you to know that I don’t think any less of you, we all have our struggles and we all deal with them differently. I still love you just as much, you’re still my angel. Nothing’s changed. Except now I know a little more about you. Please don’t be worried baby, I promise everything is alright. Thank you for finally telling me, okay? I love you.”

In the middle of Jimin’s speech he pulled you into a hug when he saw the tears in your eyes. He rubbed your back soothingly and let you cry into his shoulder.

He was so sweet. You couldn’t believe yourself. Of course Jimin wouldn’t think any less of you. Jimin was amazing and understanding. You felt silly for being so adamant about keeping your secret from him for so long.

You held Jimin tight while you cried, and kissed his shoulder and collar bones after you calmed down. You pulled apart, quickly wiping your eyes before taking a deep breath.

“I’m sorry Jiminie. You’ve done nothing to make me feel scared of sharing that with you, I just.. I’m used to people being disgusted by them, and it was my worst fear for you to feel that way too. I knew in my heart you would never do that to me but.. it scared me too much..” you held his hands tight, squeezing when you thought about the perturbed scowl on Jimin’s face if he found out about your scars, a scowl on you’ve seen on many other faces before.

Jimin couldn’t help but giggle, “You silly goose, I told you I would love you no matter what. A few scars aren’t going to change that. But I hope they’re all old scars. If you ever feel like making new ones, you know to come to me first, yeah? Whenever you need me, I don’t care when it is. I want my baby safe.” he comforted you, kissing your arm through your sleeve.

You smiled at him, nodding in confirmation. You pulled your arms from him and took in a breath, rolling up your sleeve so he could finally see. All the parallel marks on your arm were now in full view, and you couldn’t help your heart still pounding in your chest.

Jimin looked at your scars sadly, gently running his fingers over the old discolored bumps. He sighed and kissed each arm, before pulling you into a spine breaking hug.

“I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry you ever felt the need to hurt yourself to ease your pain. I’m sorry. I love you. I love you so much, my angel.” Jimin cried into your neck, and you felt some tears of his own on your skin. You held him close, murmuring “I love you”s and “I’m sorry”s back and forth until Taehyung’s incessant phone calls parted you. You giggled at each other, wiping away your tears before answering the call.

You two went to lunch, with you in a tank top and a cardigan just in case you needed the extra cover. You felt lighter than ever with your secret off your chest. Jimin really is the best.

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d-do you do sfw only hc/s? Dkdnd How would they react to their short SO coming back home in tears and clearly needing some affection? Tobirama, Pain and Kisame

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aww of course!! ill write pretty much anything to be honest lol i hope you enjoy cutie🥰 ps i made the mc a civilian because i feel like it fits more, i hope that’s okay since it wasnt specified :-)

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Tobirama Senju

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- He knew you were taking a little longer than you should to get a few extra groceries for dinner but he didn’t think much of it until you came home, trying to be silent with your sniffles and sobs. As soon as he heard your muffled cries he went to you, saying nothing as he held your face up to look at him. Your lip was quivering and your cheeks were covered with drying and still wet tears. He could feel his heart drop.

- Tobirama went through a flurry of emotions quickly, the first being sadness at seeing his love cry, the second anger at the person/people that made you cry, and the third was the need to protect you. He wiped away the fresh tears and pulled your shorter frame into his chest, holding your head close to him with one hand as his other arm held you close by your waist. “Who did this to you, my love?” he asked you, his voice low and gentle so as to not startle you, but still making your hair stand up on end due to the threatening tone you knew that was directed at the source of your tears.

- He let you take your time to answer and until you could, you just tugged him towards the couch and buried your face into his chest and your arms around his waist, holding him as close to you as possible. He sighed a little, bringing you closer, waiting for you as patiently as he could while you continued to cry and hold him. He played with your hair, rubbing your back gently with his other hand to comfort you. Tobirama knew he would have their head once he found the source of his lover’s tears.

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- Pain had never really seen you cry so openly before, maybe just a few tears that were quick to go here and there. So when you burst back home, immediately seeking him out with puffy eyes and tear stained cheeks, he was at a loss. You tried to keep your sobs and whimpers to a minimum, hating that you were showing such weakness to him. When he felt you holding him so tight, your small frame shaking with your sobs you’re trying so desperately to hide, he quickly got over his surprise and held you back.

- Pain isn’t the most affectionate man on the planet but he wasn’t going to turn you down when you so desperately needed comfort. He murmured a few “It’s okay..”s and “Don’t hold back, darling”s which caused you to cry more, clutching his black and red robes tighter. His heart jerked seeing you like this.

- After a few minutes of sobbing into his chest, Pain took you to your bedroom and sat down on the bed, beckoning you into his lap so you could continue to cry comfortably. He held your waist with one arm, rubbing your back soothingly while you continued to cry into his shoulder. He waited as long as you needed to, wordlessly, letting you explain your tears on your own time.

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Kisame Hoshigaki

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- Kisame was as shocked as Pain when his s/o came home sobbing, hiccuping occasionally from crying so hard. He didn’t quite know what to do since it seemed too intense for him to make a joke but he was also unsure as to how he should provide comfort. He let you approach him after he asked what was wrong, letting you take the lead and ask or show what you needed from him.

- You looked up at him after wiping away some tears, and he wiped at the fresh ones that fell before you could yourself. You tugged your tall shark boyfriend towards your room for some privacy, wordlessly asking him to get under the covers with you as you hiccuped. He obliged, letting you snuggle into his chest as he wrapped his arm around your waist.

- He tried to talk to you, to ask you what happened, why you were crying. He let you cry it out until you could answer, already planning on the ways he could murder whoever made you cry. Kisame let you cry yourself out and held you until you fell asleep, and sneakily left to take care of the problem that made you cry. He was thankful you awoke after he came back and not before, attributing your heavy sleep to your crying.

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OP IM CRYING THIS IS SO WHOLESOME AAAAA I LOVE THEMMMM

you’re so cute uwu

hehe tbh i think kisame is lowkey Soft As Hell™️ im glad you liked it :D

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d-do you do sfw only hc/s? Dkdnd How would they react to their short SO coming back home in tears and clearly needing some affection? Tobirama, Pain and Kisame

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aww of course!! ill write pretty much anything to be honest lol i hope you enjoy cutie🥰 ps i made the mc a civilian because i feel like it fits more, i hope that’s okay since it wasnt specified :-)

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Tobirama Senju

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- He knew you were taking a little longer than you should to get a few extra groceries for dinner but he didn’t think much of it until you came home, trying to be silent with your sniffles and sobs. As soon as he heard your muffled cries he went to you, saying nothing as he held your face up to look at him. Your lip was quivering and your cheeks were covered with drying and still wet tears. He could feel his heart drop.

- Tobirama went through a flurry of emotions quickly, the first being sadness at seeing his love cry, the second anger at the person/people that made you cry, and the third was the need to protect you. He wiped away the fresh tears and pulled your shorter frame into his chest, holding your head close to him with one hand as his other arm held you close by your waist. “Who did this to you, my love?” he asked you, his voice low and gentle so as to not startle you, but still making your hair stand up on end due to the threatening tone you knew that was directed at the source of your tears.

- He let you take your time to answer and until you could, you just tugged him towards the couch and buried your face into his chest and your arms around his waist, holding him as close to you as possible. He sighed a little, bringing you closer, waiting for you as patiently as he could while you continued to cry and hold him. He played with your hair, rubbing your back gently with his other hand to comfort you. Tobirama knew he would have their head once he found the source of his lover’s tears.

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- Pain had never really seen you cry so openly before, maybe just a few tears that were quick to go here and there. So when you burst back home, immediately seeking him out with puffy eyes and tear stained cheeks, he was at a loss. You tried to keep your sobs and whimpers to a minimum, hating that you were showing such weakness to him. When he felt you holding him so tight, your small frame shaking with your sobs you’re trying so desperately to hide, he quickly got over his surprise and held you back.

- Pain isn’t the most affectionate man on the planet but he wasn’t going to turn you down when you so desperately needed comfort. He murmured a few “It’s okay..”s and “Don’t hold back, darling”s which caused you to cry more, clutching his black and red robes tighter. His heart jerked seeing you like this.

- After a few minutes of sobbing into his chest, Pain took you to your bedroom and sat down on the bed, beckoning you into his lap so you could continue to cry comfortably. He held your waist with one arm, rubbing your back soothingly while you continued to cry into his shoulder. He waited as long as you needed to, wordlessly, letting you explain your tears on your own time.

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Kisame Hoshigaki

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- Kisame was as shocked as Pain when his s/o came home sobbing, hiccuping occasionally from crying so hard. He didn’t quite know what to do since it seemed too intense for him to make a joke but he was also unsure as to how he should provide comfort. He let you approach him after he asked what was wrong, letting you take the lead and ask or show what you needed from him.

- You looked up at him after wiping away some tears, and he wiped at the fresh ones that fell before you could yourself. You tugged your tall shark boyfriend towards your room for some privacy, wordlessly asking him to get under the covers with you as you hiccuped. He obliged, letting you snuggle into his chest as he wrapped his arm around your waist.

- He tried to talk to you, to ask you what happened, why you were crying. He let you cry it out until you could answer, already planning on the ways he could murder whoever made you cry. Kisame let you cry yourself out and held you until you fell asleep, and sneakily left to take care of the problem that made you cry. He was thankful you awoke after he came back and not before, attributing your heavy sleep to your crying.

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Anonymous asked:

okay so you asked for nsfw, how about this? kakashi, yamato and iruka reacting to their fem!so deepthroating them for the first time?? ;))))

this was actually another thing that i had written out and almost finished, but never got posted bc tumblr refreshed and deleted my progress 🙃🙃 so here’s round two, many weeks later skjsksks

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Kakashi Hatake

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- Honestly, he would choke on a moan in surprise. He’d gotten head from you before but you never did that and it completely caught him off guard, in the most wonderful way. Kakashi thought it was super hot, and would growl out a moan while his fingers sought out your hair.

- He loved the way your throat felt around him, the way it constricted on his cock when you gagged, causing him to hiss, gripping your hair even tighter. His hand resting in your hair was more for his stability than to guide your mouth, because you were really sucking the soul out of this man.

- It got him so close so fast honestly, not just from the feeling of being down in your throat, but from the eroticism of the situation itself as well. You were deepthroating him and fuck, he never came so hard from head before.

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- He yelped in surprise when he first felt you take him deeper than you ever had before, looking down at you in shock as your nose touched the base of his pubes. Yamato was blushing furiously, and he throbbed, causing him to swell, making you gag around him. He cried out, unintentionally bucking his hips. He absolutely loved your new technique.

- He felt high, he had never known it could feel so good, and he was in such shock that it felt that much better. Actually watching you take him down your throat was such a turn on for him, causing him to pant and gently run his fingers through your hair with shakey hands.

- It took very little time for him to cum, he tried to warn you but it came out as incoherent stutters. You could tell anyway, from the way his legs were shaking, his cock swelling and twitching in your throat, his moaning and panting growing louder and more desperate. He was embarrassed for cumming so quickly but he was also enamored that you could do such things with your mouth. He wouldn’t stop blushing.

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- Oof if you thought Yamato was loud and surprised,,, Iruka was way worse. He almost jumped from where he was sitting, his eyes going wide as he felt you take him deeper and deeper down your throat. He gasped, a silent moan forming his mouth into an ‘o’ as he watched his lover deepthroat his cock. Iruka = shook

- You had to hold his thighs down to get him to stop bucking into your mouth, which he kept apologizing for, but you didn’t mind overall. You relished the reactions you were getting out of him. His hands were on your cheeks, gently caressing them as you sucked him, occasionally meeting his eyes, causing him to mewl and moan louder, his hips moving on their own. You held him down tighter.

- He was so loud you feared half the village knew what you were up to, but you savored each and every one of his lewd noises nonetheless. When he came he gripped the sheets tightly, knuckles turning white as he rolled his hips into your mouth, as gently as he could while he savored his intense orgasm. Immediately after he came he was muttering apologies, still too high on dopamine to be fully alert. His fucked out face was really cute.

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BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award, you're supposed to paste it in the ask of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you’re beautiful inside and out! 💞

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🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 my heart beats for u i love u so much wtf😭🤧🌸💖💓💗💘💕

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Anonymous asked:

omgg woujd you write sfw and nsfw with ino with a fem s/o?? i love my wife😩💗

we love lesbean ino in this house😤

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- Ino is such an uwu girlfriend, she’s a switch in all aspects of the relationship. She loves wooing her gf and she also loves to be wooed. The two of you alternate between planning dates, though her favorite is when you two stay in and you cook for her. She loves being pampered and spoiled.

- For sure 10/10 would always bring you flowers. Forget-me-nots on your anniversary, azaleas when she’s feeling soft on any given day. Carnations, orchids and peonies as well. Sometimes she doesn’t tell you the meaning behind the flowers so you take it upon yourself to find out and you always end up blushing when you do. She didn’t explain the forget-me-nots and you spent about an hour squealing and smiling at the little bundle of flowers she gave you. Ino loved talking through her flowers.

- Ino loves PDA. She wants everyone to know you’re hers. She’ll walk around the village holding your hand, kissing your cheeks, even jumping on your back for a piggy back ride on occasion so she can wrap herself around you from behind and shower you with cheek and neck kisses as you walk her around. She loves to make you blush.

- You’re close with Shikamaru and Choji as well, the four of you sometimes going to get barbecue together to catch up. Shikamaru is always very vocal about his disgust for your PDA so for his sake you ask Ino to keep it to a minimum. But sometimes you do like to tease him, especially when Temari is in town. Choji is just happy to be there.

- Ino planned like 80% of your wedding and she even got custom, coordinating kimonos for your wedding and you cried when you saw how beautiful she was. Hers was white with lilac and baby blue floral accents, matching her style and her eyes perfectly. You wore a white kimono as well, with the matching lilac, and a light sea water green accent. The two of you first bonded over the purple and blue flowers she was working on, and you complimented the purple she was wearing too. You couldn’t believe she brought such meaningful colors from your first encounter into your wedding kimonos, you got so emotional during the ceremony. You truly loved your flower girl.

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- Ino is naughty holy shit she loves riling you up. Definitely a switch in bed, she absolutely loves taking control of you and making you blush and stutter. Especially in public she’ll stroke your inner thigh and sneak some light kisses onto your throat, nuzzling her nose against your jaw while she whispers dirty things in your ear. She loves making you flustered.

- Ino’s definitely an exhibitionist, more than a few times the two of you have gotten off in public, mostly the result of her incessant teasing. She’ll take you to the training grounds asking you to spar but half an hour later your back’s against a tree and her head is between your legs. If you moan or make any noise, she smacks the inside of your thigh, warning you to quiet down. She loves making a game out of it.

- Has a few drawers dedicated to lingerie. She loves dressing up for you, seeing the lust grow in your eyes as your eyes travel down her body, all pretty just for your eyes only. There’s so many shades of purple lingerie between the two of you.

- More often than not she’s the one in control, but doesn’t object when you want to take over. She does indeed love the things your tongue does to her. Contrary to what she says, she loves to be edged and teased. She loves the sweet torture and the expression on your face when you hold her orgasm over her head. It really turns her on.

- Ino once used a shadow clone on you while you were blindfolded and you won’t admit it out loud but you came the hardest you ever had, and she made you cum multiple times that night. One Ino is already incredibly pleasurable but two Inos? Fuck. She made you a very happy girl that night. You immediately passed out afterwards, completely fucked out. She kissed you even as you slept until she fell asleep next to you.

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Anonymous asked:

Hey! Can I please request SFW relationship hcs for Mikasa from AoT and Rukia from Bleach if possible please? Thank you, and just let me know if you can't do it! (Sorry if its hard to understand, I'm not English lol)

hey cutie! your english is perfect, no worries! and you never have to apologize to me for it, either :-) i was raised bilangual so i understand how hard it is to learn another language, especially english! but your english is perfect, no apologies necessary hun🥰 i hope you enjoy! <3

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- Mikasa wouldn’t be the type to seek out a relationship. Especially after becoming a cadet and a Scout. For Mikasa, there would definitely have to be previous history. You were from Shiganshina with her, Eren and Armin and you all grew up together, so she formed a bond with you that could never be broken. She struggled with you, she was happy with you, she was hopeful with you, she was at her lowest with you. You shared lots of precious experiences together, both terrifying and wholesome. She cherishes that bond greatly.

- So when you two finally got into a relationship, nothing really noticeable changed. She liked keeping her relationship private. There was more physical affection, but someone looking in from the outside would think you two were the same as you’d always been, except for the seldom handholding or embrace that was a few seconds too long. Mikasa isn’t a big fan of PDA.

- Speaking of PDA, she wouldn’t feel it appropriate in most situations. Mikasa prefers to keep your physical affection behind closed doors, something special for the two of you. But if you’re especially nervous or uneasy, she will hold your hand in public and sneak a kiss to your temple. She would be slightly more affectionate in public if there was a celebration, however. And she might even lean on your shoulder at dinner after a long day of training as a cadet. You always sat next to each other.

- If you stayed in the female dorms together, she would often sneak into your bed or you into hers. Especially if you or her were having nightmares. Mikasa is actually quite a big cuddler, she loves huddling with you under the covers, facing eachother, kissing your forehead, your cheeks, your nose, your lips softly. She’d hold your hands close to her, and if you were scared from your nightmares she would whisper sweet things to you, trying to calm you down. Anything to soothe you.

- Mikasa would do anything for you, like she would do anything for Eren or Armin. Especially after the two of you got together, she seemed to worry for your safety more than she used to on expeditions outside the walls. She always tried to keep close to you, to protect you. Especially if your specialty wasn’t combat, she believed she had to be next to you at all times. She couldn’t handle the thought of losing you to a titan.

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- Like Mikasa, Rukia wouldn’t be looking for or expecting to get in a relationship. She always tried to honor her clan, do her best, and she didn’t want any distractions. So when she finally came to term with her feelings for you, she kind of freaked out. She avoided you like crazy, scared of the depths of her feelings, and what they would mean for her future. She even talked to Byakuya about it, she was so unsure what to do with her love for you.

- Eventually she stopped avoiding you and confessed. Rukia was simultaneously terrified and overjoyed that you returned her feelings, deciding to follow her brother’s advice and listen to her heart. Your relationship was kind of awkward and rocky at first, due to Rukia’s inexperience, but she appreciated your patience and she was glad you were so understanding. You gradually got Rukia to open up about her thoughts and feelings, and consoled her. Reassured her that you would do whatever she needed to feel comfortable. You understood what it meant to get into a relationship with a Kuchiki. She appreciated you so much.

- Occasionally you would go out on “dates” to the land of the living together, doing the simplest things. She was proud to educate you of her knowledge of the world of the living and all their peculiar inventions. She watched you try to figure your way around a juice box like she did when she first came to the land of the living, and she laughed when you got frustrated, just like she did. Rukia thought it was incredibly adorable.

- Definitely would spar with you. Especially if you were in different squads, she would want to spend as much time with you as possible. She was always fascinated by your Zanpakuto, especially if it was a fire one, the opposite of hers. Jokes about “opposite attract” were definitely made.

- Since she was raised in a prestigious clan, she often questioned you about the things you did differently. For instance, you were once doing laundry when Rukia popped by, and she asked many questions about the process since she always had someone to do it for her. Especially cooking, she was always fascinated by your cooking since she had never done it before. She loved to learn things from you, even the most mundane things.

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I want to request a drabble where tae is with his s/o watching the nightsky and the moment is very romantic and she confesses him. I want some fluff and happy momemts

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im so mad i was almost done writing this and tumblr erased all my progress so here’s round 2😔✊🏽 sorry this turned out quite long for a drabble but i have a Lot Of Feelings™️

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You wholeheartedly expected Taehyung to say no. To tell you to try to sleep. Instead he told you to get dressed, and that he would be in front of your house in 15 minutes. It was 1:54 am, and the raspiness of his voice when you called told you he was very tired, if not asleep.

15 minutes later, there he was. Dressed in sweatpants and a hoodie, he was there for you. He knew you were struggling recently and would always come when you called, knowing how hard it was for you to admit you needed help.

You smiled at him and he smiled back, watching you step out of your building. He did a dramatic bow, “Greetings, Madame y/n, any requests for a specific location this evening?” you rolled your eyes at his theatrics as you walked up to him to give him a quick hug.

“Just away. I want to look at the stars.” you said simply, and he nodded before releasing you from the hug. Soon enough, the two of you were off to his abandoned place of choice.

Taehyung drove you a little ways out of the city. You could see the scattered lights of the city if you looked behind you, and you smiled a little. You listened to the sound of the truck driving over the gravelly road, inhaling the smell of the fields surrounding you as your hair whipped around in the wind due to the windows being down. You looked up at the sight of the stars above you, brighter now that the lights weren’t polluting the sky. Then you looked at Taehyung next to you, one hand on the wheel and the other intertwined with your fingers. He wore a beanie, probably to disguise his bedhead but he looked ethereal nonetheless, even in the darkness.

He glanced at you quickly before grinning slightly and turned his eyes back to the road, pulling into a small area to park. He turned his truck off and unbuckled his seat belt, taking his hand back from you. You did the same and hopped out of the truck. You walked towards the back, going to meet him halfway. He opened the back door first, but you couldn’t exactly see why until you saw the blankets and pillows in his arms. You could barely see his face. You grinned.

He tossed the blankets in the back and hopped up into the bed of the truck, quickly laying them out and offering you his hand to help you into the bed. You accepted, and quickly got comfortable in a close cuddle. You nuzzled your face into his chest, your arm wrapping around him in a hug. His opposite arm came to rest over yours, his thumb rubbing back and forth on your tricep.

It was quiet and peaceful for a few moments, you listening to the steady sounds of Taehyung’s breathing, his strong heartbeat a lullaby to your ears.

You felt more than you heard him chuckle beneath you. “I thought you wanted to watch the stars, not my chest, hun.”

He couldn’t see your face but you were positive you were blushing. You huffed and turned so you too, were laying on your back, your head laying on his left arm, body still facing him with your legs over his.

“Well pardon me, Mr. Comfy Pillow. You’re nice to lay on.” you retorted, gazing up at the sky nonetheless. He snickered but said nothing else.

It was peaceful. The two of you layed there for a while, pointing out the occasional shooting star or presumed planet (neither of you knew too much about astronomy). Taehyung did point out the three constellations he knew, though, following the patterns with his finger.

The two of you went back and forth, talking, making jokes under the night sky. During one particular laughing fit you opened your eyes to find him staring at you, his eyes seemingly replaced by stars, they were twinkling so much. You blushed slightly, “What’s that look for, Tae?” you asked shyly. Your heart raced. Were you finally going to tell him?

He didn’t respond, he just kept staring at you. Your heart beat harder. You saw his eyes trace over your face, taking in every feature. You’re sure you were blushing heavily by now. “Tae?” you managed to squeak out under his intense gaze. You watched his eyes flicker to your lips, lingering there for a few moments before meeting you eyes.

“y/n.”

You gasped slightly as he moved forward, his forehead gently resting against yours. His eyes left yours to focus on your lips once more as you gasped. You were positive your heart was going to beat out of your chest now.

“Can I kiss you?” he whispered.

Your eyes went wide, looking into his for any sign of a joke, to find anything to see that he wasn’t serious. Was he? The passionate look in his dark brown eyes told you he was indeed, very serious.

You nodded, and your eyelids fluttered closed as he moved closer, his warm breath brushing against your lips before meeting them softly.

Soft. So soft. His lips were so soft. Your heart was pounding and you were dizzy with affection and overwhelmed with the feeling that Taehyung was currently kissing you.

His lips moved against yours softly, carefully, his other hand coming up to hold the side of your neck, his thumb brushing your cheek affectionately. You felt your eyes grow hot with tears. He was being so sweet. Taehyung was always so sweet. The most ideal best friend, your closest confidant. But those were the forsaken words. Best friend. Did he really share your feelings?

You felt him pull back, and when you opened your eyes you saw surprise on his beautiful features. His thumb swiped at a tear on your cheek and he turned towards you completely, both of you laying on your sides.

“Hey, darling what’s wrong? Did you not want me to kiss you? You could have stopped me, you-“ “Tae, it’s not you, it’s okay. It’s me.” you interjected, stopping him from feeling guilty. Your throat closed up at your growing emotions. More tears fell down your cheeks which he quickly wiped away, growing more concerned. “What’s wrong?” he questioned again, his tone soft and patient.

You let out a small sob. He was still being so considerate. Your mind raced, with thoughts that he could never love you the way you loved him, and another half of your mind fighting and saying he was here now, he’s always been there, when he never owed you anything, he always chose you. Your thoughts grew chaotic so you took a deep breath and hugged him, burying your face into his chest and gripping his hoodie before you spoke. He immediately held you close, rubbing your back and holding your head gently.

“Tae..” you rasped, the emotion clear in your voice. “I wish I could look at you as I say this but I’m too scared.. Yet I can’t keep it in anymore. Tae, I love you. More than friend love. I love you like I want to wake up to your dorky snores every morning with Tannie at the end of our bed sleeping at our feet. I want to cook your favorite food and watch you eat enthusiastically with the stars in your eyes. I want to kiss your soft fucking lips whenever I want, I want to be the only one they kiss, I want-“

Your rant was cut short by him pulling you back slightly and pressing his lips to yours, not as gentle as the first time. It was full of passion, purpose, and emotion. One hand held your face, the other pulling you closer to him. He kissed you hard, trying to convey his emotions through actions. You tasted his salty tears when they slipped into your kiss, snapping you out of your trance.

“Tae? You’re crying?” you asked, slightly panicked. You immediately wiped them away with your thumb. A million thoughts went through your mind before he laughed lightly.

“God, who would’ve thought you were going to confess first, you dork. I.. I love you too.” Your eyes widened at his declaration. He continued.

“I want my lips to be the only lips you kiss, I want your cooking to be the only cooking I come home to... Besides Jin’s because let’s be real, man can cook.” You snorted and slapped his chest. He laughed.

“I want Tannie to be our ring bearer, I want to do everything with you, live my life with you. I love you too, you massive dork.” he said, a huge smile on his face as he held your cheek in his hand.

You couldn’t help the tears flowing from your eyes now, this time full of happiness and love. You launched foward and tackled him into a hug, his back hitting the bed with you on top of him, hugging him so tightly. He laughed and brought you close, burying his face in your hair.

The next few minutes was just the two of you repeating “I love you” back and forth, hugging and kissing wherever you could reach. When you finally parted you noticed the growing light around you, the pinks and oranges of the dawn showering you two in a soft light.

You two sat up, cuddled together as you watched the sun rise. Leaving your other hand intertwined with his, you checked your phone, a picture of Taehyung with an ice cream cone smiling at you from your screen.

5:46 am

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