Sasha enjoying a warm winter afternoon sunbeam.

city man is different

a picture siwan's face paints a thousand words (a.k.a. dae beom, your love is showing)

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What the past couple days have felt like

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The Forbidden Marriage Episode 1 - Crown prince Heon & Crown princess Ja Yeon

I made a baby blanket for a pregnant woman at work and I went back and forth about it like “is this weird? To like hand make something for someone when we’re like friendly acquaintances not like bffs. God why are you so fucking awkward.” Anyway I gave it to her and she said she loved it and in the back of my head I’m like yea she’s nice and probably just humoring the weirdo. Well she texted me a picture this weekend of a scrunchy faced newborn at the hospital wrapped in the blanket I made her. And I’m like. Wow. She loved it so much she took it with her! To the hospital! To give birth! She wrapped her newborn it! I am just so filled with love and joy right now.

People will love the things you make them. Because you thought of them and you cared.

I made a quilt for one of my college professors once. He and his wife had some trouble with the pregnancy and she was on bed rest for a while. He’d mentioned it to us because he might have to leave in the middle of class if something drastic happened. Nothing did happen in the end, but I knew this was a big deal for them so I made a quilt. The first real one I’d ever made.

It was an bilingual alphabet quilt. Both the dad and mom spoke Japanese and that was a big part of their lives so I made a quilt with the English alphabet and a hand embroidered picture of something that matched the letter with both the English and Japanese word for it. I appliquéd the letters and designed all the embroideries myself. It was a lot of work but when I found my professor to give it to him he almost cried when I showed him. They sent me a picture of the baby on the quilt that I still have even though the baby is I think 12 now. For a while they had it hung on the kid’s bedroom wall and they said he would bow to it in the morning to show his gratitude and respect for the work put into it.

If you think someone is worth making something for you should do it! It’s an act of love and care in a world that is so often bereft of it.

i, too, would embarrass myself in front of a cute librarian

At first I figured that the library Noona was going to be a thorn in my side, but after that convo with Yeo Reum, she is genuinely pissing me off. She is acting like Yoo reum is taking advantage of Dae Beom, when in reality she has never asked anything of him. In some cases he has actively asked to help and in other cases he helped with her knowledge. And for the instances that she is aware of her help she has always been extremely appreciative and has also tried to return the favor (although clumsily).

All this bullshit she’s spewing isn’t even for Dae Beom’s sake, it’s drenched in her jealousy. And that became obvious when she claimed that she could “take responsibility” for him. Which is honestly just laughable because she can’t.

Here’s the thing, Dae Beom’s past is full of back to back turmoil and trauma which he hasn’t healed from. It appears that in one point in his life he tried to fight through it and went to university, but he must have gotten burnt out and then everything caught back up to him and he had a mental breakdown (I’m assuming, from the scene we saw of him melting down in class). From there he probably realized that what he was doing wasn’t working so he returned back to his small hometown to work in that library and to relatively recover. And from what we can tell, he is happy there! He likes what he’s doing and he feels comfortable in it. As said before, he still hasn’t healed from his trauma and grief, but he seems to be in a better place, mentally.

So when she looks at Dae Beom she doesn’t see that he is content with his quiet life, instead she sees the gap between what he is and what she thinks he could be. She’s in love with potential Dae Beom, not current Dae Beom. And so she ignores his feelings, wishes, and comfort zone to try to push him towards a future that she thinks he should have all while under the guise that she’s doing it for him. That’s why I said earlier that her claiming she can take responsibility for Dae Beom is laughable. You can’t take care of someone (or love someone) if you are actively ignoring their wants and needs.

And this is exactly why she can’t understand why Dae Beom is so enchanted by Yeo Reum. Yeo Reum is the opposite of library Noona. She accepts people for where they are at. She listens to them without judgement and empathizes with them. She is content with the small things in life. She has a kindness and softness that draws Dae Beom in. After all this trauma and stress she must seem like spring after a harsh winter to him. I think he can tell she is a safe place for him to just be, and so it’s no wonder why he wants to be around her and to make her happy. Because she makes him happy.

joongki absolutely CAKING the staff in the face then running away