boyfriend! mitsuhide
- when you first assumed your role and duty of chatelaine, you were receiving orders from mainly nobunaga and the other warlords
- the jobs, ranging from serious to absurd, would always be completed by you at the end of the day, no matter how ridiculous it was
- none of those were really dangerous, because those were left to the vassals and even the warlords themselves to settle
- however, this— this was peculiar
- this particular request from masamune and hideyoshi combined had certainly piqued your interest
- after receiving a neatly wrapped multi-layer lunch box, you went over to mitsuhide’s manor and into his room
- you weren’t so comfortable around him compared to the others, and reasonably so, since history in your time had recorded him as the mastermind behind nobunaga’s supposed death
- and he just gave an aura of general… sketchiness
- even as he sat down, in front of his messy desk strewn with books and papers, his eyes skimming through a few documents, it sent a chill down your spine
- he had an effect on you, for sure, it just wasn’t a pleasant one
- “hello. what brings you here?”
- the next thing you knew, those sharp amber eyes bore right into you, a thin smile spreading across his face
- “uh, masamune told me to deliver this.”
- you unwrapped the cobalt blue fabric and set the lunch box in front of him, before automatically going about to rearrange his things into a few neat piles on the mat
- “insisting on trivial things as always, i see.”
- despite those words, you could sense a hint of fondness in his voice, and as frightening and unapproachable mitsuhide was, you had to admit that you partly accepting this request because you wanted to know him better
- (and also because masamune wouldn’t accept a “no” as an answer)
- you watched as you sat opposite him, perched somewhat worriedly and curiously, as he picked up one of the layers of the lunch box, containing a few vegetables, and attempted to dump the contents into another layer with curry—
- “sorry, i meant no, don’t do that. you’ll ruin the flavour.”
- mitsuhide stared you for a moment, before smirking and putting the vegetables back down on the desk
- “it doesn’t matter to me, but i’ll stop, since it seems to disturb you.”
- “i mean, the curry’s sweet and watery. the vegetables are crisp and salty. they just don’t mix together well, no?”
- “no. flavour doesn’t exist for me.”
- that sentence hit you pretty hard, and you had to ask hideyoshi when you ran into him in the corridors
- as you suspected, mitsuhide can’t distinguish flavours, and to your horror, you were also informed that he didn’t take good care of his health
- he’s basically no better than mitsunari, just not that extreme, but still pretty bad
- and that set a flame in you to take care of him— pretty contradictory to your initial behaviour, but you couldn’t help it
- since then, you’ve always made time to head to mitsuhide’s manor; and every time, without fail, you bring a lunch box with you, and make sure mitsuhide doesn’t crush everything up and eat it
- but he wasn’t there all the time, and frequently went missing for a day or two before returning
- upon your inquiries, he would simply smile and say he made a little “business trip” to meet someone and do something
- and it really worried you, because you knew mitsuhide was a nice person, at least under the cover of a big bad wolf
- he’s just too smart and scheming and that made people say… certain things about him, that made your mouth taste sour afterwards
- you wish you could prove to them how kind he actually was, but when you think about it, you were, too, once someone who didn’t know any better and assumed mitsuhide’s personality right off the bat
- and you were sure that he was like this for a reason, though he never let you in on anything private
- you dismissed it as something required for the nature of his job, which was partially right, but still, you wished he could let his guard down a little around you
- you expressed this wish to him, and he returned it with a teasing smile and promised to do so
- honestly, mitsuhide doesn’t know why he did that, and did the weird pinky thing (you called it “pinky swearing”) but he knew that you cared a lot for him
- he’s a little amazed and amused by how innocent you were, trusting him without any questions whatsoever; he’s used to being treated like the opposite, and people either suspected him, feared him, or hated him, save for a few people here and there
- as innocent as you were, some people would call you foolish, and mitsuhide knows he would’ve normally, but you were so strong and this dogged determination of yours, as well as your optimism to try again and again really struck something in him
- he just couldn’t bear to see your expression if he ever called you nasty names
- but he hasn’t ever held back like this— with other people, he doesn’t twitch when questioning them, torturing them, because it’s necessary
- so why was he so weak when it came to you?
- besides, mitsuhide isn’t someone oblivious or dense; it doesn’t take him much to accept that he’s attracted towards you
- but you and him were like two different ends of a whole spectrum; you were opposed to war, which you made clear to him once, and you were honest, unsuspecting, pure
- he was the opposite of all those, and you were like a white flower, bound to wilt in those hands of his
- but mitsuhide won’t stop his actions towards you, unless you like another person
- it started out as little affectionate gestures, like stroking your hair idly and patting your head whenever you went over to deliver him food
- and when he returned after going missing for a day or two, tiny forehead kisses were sometimes there
- this sudden increase of affection answered a large question that has been residing recently in your mind, and you were relieved, somewhat
- it was this period where both of you knew what was happening, but didn’t do anything to further catalyse it
- tentative was probably the word for it
- to put it in a more modern context, it was like you both harbour lovers’ feelings for each other, but none of you confirmed it, so technically you’re still friends
- you thought this was pretty pointless, so one time when you were reading in mitsuhide’s room and he was doing paperwork, you kissed him in one place none of you had before: his lips
- it was warm on yours, and unexpectedly soft, and that was all that you thought, as it was a peck on the lips
- mitsuhide didn’t move for a few seconds, and you thought he had ceased to breathe, but then he sighed and set his brush down
- “it’s going to be a lot of work.”
- “and yet, you still want this?”
- he gazed at you with a mixture of emotions— the love for you bubbling up, but also while thinking how strange of a person you were, like a moth attracted to light
- except that he didn’t know he wasn’t the fire; but the moon instead, and he had no idea how much you were going to teach him
- mitsuhide wouldn’t be someone who spends his kisses on your lips; instead, he would be kissing you everywhere else for most of the time
- forehead kisses are a norm, and for absolutely no reason at all, it just happens to take mitsuhide’s place as the number one place to kiss you
- maybe because it’s pretty convenient for him to drop one there whenever you bump into him while doing your duty, and both of you are busy
- or he loves the way your mind and thinking works so differently from him that always catches him off guard, whether or not he shows it
- when he’s back from his little trips, you would show up in his room, smile bright and eyes sparkling, and he would sweep you into his arms wordlessly and let his kisses linger on your face
- when cuddling, you’re most probably on top of him, where he can see all the small details of your expressions and the way your facial muscles work
- it sounds weird, but mitsuhide is definitely someone who would prefer seeing your expression and reactions to the things he say
- he just thinks that you’re so cute and innocent, and also because they were expressions he couldn’t ever show
- and this surge of wanting to protect you from all the dark, ugly things residing in this world just rises up from his chest
- he would hug you just a tad bit tighter, and you know he’s having these thoughts when he goes silent and doesn’t answer you, just gazing deep into your eyes
- it’s not that he’s trying to block your words out; he’s genuinely lost in his thoughts, and it takes a moment or two before he snaps back to reality
- and as merciless and teasing he is, he holds you and drowns you in his love like your a precious porcelain doll, bound to break any time possible
- it’s just so raw and tender and so gentle
- as stated before, mitsuhide does feel the constant urge to protect you
- but sometimes it occurs to him that he’s no better; he too, has stained his hands, caused many people to perish, and he’s merciless
- it strikes him that he’s that dark and ugly thing, and it terrifies him to no end, because the last thing he wanted was to drag you into all these
- he didn’t want to see that foolishly innocent soul fade away because of all these things, he wanted it to continue to burn bright among the abyss
- and sometimes, it throws him into this line of thought that you shouldn’t have fallen in love with him; he didn’t deserve it, and neither did you deserve this exposure to the darker side of humanity
- you could tell when this happens; he sort of just blocks out things whenever you talk to him, start mashing up his food all together again, and spends more time in the dungeons
- you’d have to drag him out somewhere calm and quiet, and outdoors, and silently sit by him as he processes that you’re fine and both of you are still together
- since you can’t really tell what’s going on in that mind of his, and also because you know mitsuhide would trust you enough to realise that you were strong enough to stand by him
- he just needed some time away from everything
- otherwise, mitsuhide is really well put together other times
- when you’re worried over something, or someone, such as mitsuhide himself, he would calm you by analysing how the thing you’re worrying over wasn’t even going to happen
- for example, if you’re worried that one of the warlords would be wounded in a battle, mitsuhide would tell you how the oda forces were way stronger and the chances of them being hurt were extremely low
- rather than using words to comfort you, he would try to make you weigh the facts and come to a more positive conclusion yourself
- he couldn’t lie in front of you and say everything’s fine when it isn’t, because he knows it would hurt you even more in the end if something actually happens
- in a way, it’s not what most people would like, but it’s his own way of protecting you, by making you mentally stronger and preparing you for everything
- man, mitsuhide needs someone domestic to take care of him, because we all know that’s one thing he can’t do
- or more like he doesn’t really care about it
- but when he sees you putting in so much effort to cook meals that have a more distinct flavour specially for him, he has this urge to put down his work and make time for you, which he hasn’t done before
- much like mitsunari, you would make sure to appear in between your duties as chatelaine to his manor if he was doing administrative work, and stay with him until you’ve seen him finish his food
- or you would coax him to sleep when it’s getting a little too late
- if he had to go into battle, or somewhere far away again, he would develop a habit of bringing something that belongs to you— an obi cord, a hair clip, anything
- he would look at it and silently promise that he would return to your side after it ends, and it makes him more careful than usual in order to be successful in the operation
- and when you return, you would pester him in hugs and little kisses and all, while asking if he needs anything
- he tells you every single time that seeing your happy face was more than enough for him, but you aren’t convinced anyways
- but that’s the truth, and you were his motivation to return alive and well everytime, and if mitsuhide was being honest with himself, he didn’t care if you didn’t love him back— just seeing you happy and smiling was enough for him
- all in all, this relationship is somewhat fragile, but not at the same time, if you understand. there are insecurities, but there’s the unconditional love and the amount both of you are willing to sacrifice for each other is amazing
