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Amethyst

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I've thought about this for months and I'm finally ready to open up commisions for writing short stories for people. It'll start at $5 for 500 words and go up an additional $1 for every hundred words over that. If you're interested, DM me and we can work something out.

Serious inqueries only. I will write most topics but reserve the right to shut down anyone who makes me uncomfortable or if you're rude.

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you know i have never heard a convincing arguement as to why AO3 should not moderate the content that is posted to their website and i think a lot of the arguement against moderation on AO3 boils down to, terminally online people thinks community moderation is the same as government censorship and personally sending the cops to someoneā€™s house to arrest them irl/

Just because you donā€™t agree with an argument doesnā€™t mean itā€™s a bad one. When it was founded the people made a promise to its users. ā€œWe will host all transformational works(fanfic) allowed by US law.ā€ This promise came about after other sites had routinely purged fanworks without warning. Not just the same things people call for moderation on now but far more reaching and random. Like FF.net purged ALL mature/NC17 fics from their site, they also purged and banned the ENTIRE genre of songfics(written equivalent of fan made music videos made by putting song lyrics between paragraphs of story prose)

Ao3 bringing in any sort of content moderation or limits on what fics they will host would be breaking that initial promise to their users.

I guess if youā€™ve never woken up and found chunks of your fave fandom, some fanworks you yourself created just gone, because whoever was hosting it decided to change the rules on you, you wouldnā€™t understand. And unless you primarily read fics at sites other than Ao3 because of their determination to keep that promise you wonā€™t have to.

see that is the thing that i really do not get, Like the thing that i cannot understand about this arguement is that bad moderation means no moderation should be allowed? Itā€™s ok for AO3 to host racist fanfics and child porn, because the alternative is just random deletions? Like why is the alternative to no moderation bad moderation? Why do AO3 defenders keep on acting like the only options are either no moderations at all, or else it will be fanfics deleted without rhyme or reason? Like why is the argument always in black and white extremes?

One. Ao3 does not host child porn. You can stop with that lie right the fuck now. Child porn(or the more correct term Child Sexual Abuse/Exploitation Material) is when someone has a child under their control and forces them to perform sexual acts and either photographs or films it. It is a recorded documentation of abuse and is in fact illegal(and therefore not allowed to be hosted on Ao3) It is wrong, immoral, and illegal because a real live, breathing child with thoughts, and feelings is being hurt and will have to live with the memory of their abuse for the rest of their lives.The term does not apply to non-photorealistic fanart, or to written words depicting events that did not actually happen(meaning there is no victim and no-one has to live with the memory of the events).Ā  Treating either fanart or fanfic as the same asĀ  real life abuse is an insult and dis-service to every single child that has ever been sexually exploited because you think their suffering is equivalents to lines on paper.Ā  That you think the immorality of CSEM is because it makes you feel ā€œickyā€ and not because they were being hurt and exploited.Ā  People writing fanfic of two teenage characters making out is in no way equivalent to a real life child having their rape recorded, but I routinely see people calling for moderation on Ao3 acting like it is.

Two. As for the racist(and every other kind of bigotry that can be depicted) Iā€™m going to be honest. I donā€™t trust the various fandom communities to make a set of standards that arenā€™t just one group of fans forcing their will and preferences onto the rest of fans. I donā€™t know what fandoms youā€™ve been in, but Iā€™ve seen fandoms with interracial ships where if you have the black character top youā€™re being racist because itā€™s playing into racist mandrigo tropes. But at the same time you would have people claiming that having the black character bottom youā€™re also being racist for making the black man submissive. So are both depictions/options racist, are neither of them, or are people just trying to make their personal fic preferences/interpretations some sort of moral issue and force people to cater to them?Ā  Iā€™ve been in fandom communities where the admin/moderators refused to let anyone post fics that didnā€™t match their preferences(despite claiming to be friendly to all fics) So itā€™s very much coming from a place of experience that says trying moderate Ao3 based on racism, or any other problematic metric/rubric you want to use will just end up being used to silence people(including other fans of color)

Racism exists in fandom because we live in a racist society and that will filter into ALL media, including fanfic. Trying to remove so called racist fanfic wonā€™t make society any less racist. All it does is give a tool for bullies to try to control and harass people. Everyone has their own personal biases some conscious, some only in their subconscious that they havenā€™t bothered to unpackĀ  Trying to moderate content based on standards like racism, homophobia, xenophobia, etcā€¦ will inevitably lead to the moderators own personal biases leaking through resulting in uneven, inconsistent moderation resulting nothing but hurt feelings and fighting.Ā 

Third. I would just like to mention just how heartless and unempathic you sounds when you act like random mass deletions and purges are no big deal. You have no idea how much it hurts to wake up and find something you created just gone. To find large swaths of fics that you enjoyed again and again, that you found comfort in, deleted never to be recovered. To say nothing of when Livejournal caved to a bunch of right-wing christian evangelical trolls and deleted a bunch of users and communities. People were devastated. people lost support communities and were frantically trying to find the friends they had made in those communities.

I know it may be hard to believe but fiction and art do not cause harm just by existing. A story that may be upsetting and triggering for one person, may bring healing and comfort to another, because everyone brings their own set of experiences and persepctives into every story they read, and therefore each takes something slightly different from it.Ā  But you and every other person calling for moderation on Ao3 act a story causes harm to everyone, again just by existing.Ā  Itā€™s an insane perspective that makes no sense to me. A story I am not forced to read canā€™t hurt me any more than someone practicing a different religion can hurt me.

There are several ways that you can moderate AO3.

  1. Use filter tags to browse for tags you want to see, and exclude tags you donā€™t want to see.
  2. Use blocking functions to hide authors you donā€™t like so you donā€™t have to read them.
  3. Make your own curated collection of works that you want to share with others as stories that have passed your personal editorial standards for good writing, appropriate character being on top/bottom, etc. Or you can use your Tumblr blog or other spaces to make recommendations!
  4. Use bookmarks to mark works you like.
  5. Subscribe to works you like.

If you read a story and have strong opinions on it, e.g. you think itā€™s racist to write Adeline as a bully when sheā€™s such an amazing hero character in the source material or you think that author CerseiFan69 writes such creepy stories that you never want to interact with them ever, itā€™s great that youā€™re thinking for yourself and trying to do some critical analysis.

You deserve the power to control your own reading experience, which AO3 gives you. However, I donā€™t trust you to tell the difference between a badly written story by a young writer who is black and wrote Adeline as a bully because Adelineā€™s accent reminds her of her real life high school bully, versus a badly written story by a writer whoā€™s actually horrible. Likewise, you shouldnā€™t trust me to tell you which authors you should read as spine-chillingly excellent takes on dark content versus authors who make you want to scrub out your brain with steel wool.

I love the freedom of AO3, where I might write a bad story but at least I know that some moderator wonā€™t judge me harshly and take it down.

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elismor

Listen. The 11th Commandment is not ā€œThine beliefs are codified and justā€. Itā€™s ā€œDonā€™t like, donā€™t read.ā€

You have no right to censorship. Period.

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no piece of teen media has ever accurately depicted the quiet psychological warfare of bullying. bullies on TV are always dumb brutes and not the evil geniuses of emotional manipulation that they are in real life. being given a wedgie and having your lunch money stolen is nothing in comparison to a classmate quietly creating a taboo against speaking to you that they intend to enforce against all the other kids. itā€™s nothing like continuous cutting comments from people you thought were being nice to you. that way that the work of one kid can make you feel like every person on earth silently hates you and that you are dirty, disgusting, worthless, creepy and useless. that you can have friends but many of them will not speak to you at school for fear of the social consequences on their end. how that damage lasts in any social setting for the rest of your life

you canā€™t even ā€œtell a trusted adultā€ because you cannot begin to articulate the thousands of small transgressions youā€™ve experienced building to the horror of knowing your peers would like you dead. they donā€™t have to say it or hurt you physically. they have other ways of letting you know theyā€™d prefer if you were worn fuel

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nickelodeon: zim cant hit people with his fist his hand has to be open. no punching. the children.
nickelodeon: dark harvest is allowed
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crtter

If you were wondering: the thing that the studio doesnā€™t want depicted are unsafe activities a young child whose impulse control hasnā€™t grown in yet watching the show could feasibility imitate- not wearing a seatbelt, jumping off the garage roof with a pair of cardboard wings, throwing a proper punch at a peer etc. Because kids do imitate what they see around them as part of learning, so you donā€™t want to teach them something that could hurt someone or themselves until a bit more brain grows in.

Unsafe activities that are not within the scope of an elementary school student are fine- whereā€™s a six year old going to get a missle launcher?

That genuinely answers a lot of questions I had about why kid-friendly media is as wonky as it is, and I love it.

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are y'all like. are you well.

this is roughly the equivalent of crawling around on the floor of a mcdonalds sucking up crumbs. through a straw.

like this is the funniest thing I've ever read but it's also pathetic just listen to music by an actual dyke???

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cryptotheism

This is conspiracy thought.

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lesbianchai

Janelle MonĆ”e has a whole song about eating pussy. We donā€™t gotta do this anymore.

Please please please stop saying that straight people are queer icons

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kinanabinks

jealousy & flirtation

10: FLAMING JUNE

18+

You and Wren confront Juniper in a showdown, but some shocking truths are brought to light.

Content Warning: Frat!Bucky x Fem!Reader, mature themes, dark themes, violence, strangling, injury.

"You're really pretty when you're concentrating."

Thor looks up at Steve with narrow eyes. "Do you mind? I'm working under a time constraint, here," He says sternly.

"Oh, please, all you're doing is hooking a recorder up to a microphone," Steve says with an eye roll, before sitting down next to Thor on the bed and leaning in close. "Do you want me to do what I did to you in the car again?"

His jaw clenches, but Thor just lets out a sigh and utters, "Later."

Steve grins and squeezes Thor's bicep before getting up and leaving him alone with some peace. He walks into the living room where you and the girls are sitting around the coffee table.

"It makes sense for you to come with me," Wren is saying to you as Steve joins. "It'll probably scare Juniper even more to know we've joined forces."

You nod, but your mind is elsewhere. Sure, you want to give Juniper a taste of her own medicine, but you'd much rather explain yourself to Bucky instead. He's left you multiple voicemails since you left him at the diner, wanting to talk, but Wren told you to keep him on the back burner while you deal with his crazy best friend.

"I'll tell Juniper that I need to speak to her at the old student union building," Wanda suggests, taking out her phone. "She still doesn't know Steve and I are involved so she won't think anything of it, and the old union building is practically abandoned. There'll be no interruptions."

"Do we feel safe being alone with her there?" You wonder with a raised brow.

"We can take weapons," Wren suggests, causing everyone to give her a look before she lets out a dry laugh. "For self-defence."

...well...that's not what I expected. This was a wild turn but I had a feeling that Wren's a crazy bitch too. Glad to see that was confirmed. I needs to know more about exactly why Juniper decided to help us though. I'm excited for chapter eleven and I hope it's from Bucky's POV

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NINE: SAUDADE

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Juniper's threat looms in your mind, your time with Bucky slowly running out. An old face returns to campus, and she's looking for revenge.

Content Warning: Frat!Bucky x Fem!Reader, mature themes, blackmail, Juniper continues to be a horrific person, still a lot of angst but things are looking up I swear

"Saudade. The love that remains. A desire for that which cannot or no longer exists. Memories of the beach you played on as a child. A friend no longer living. A lost lover. Saudade."

Grant steps to the side after his short speech, revealing the finished painting to Professor Linum and the rest of the class. You sit firmly in your seat, trying to ignore Bucky's hand clasping yours.

The painting is beautiful, you have to admit. Something of a semi-abstract landscape of a cliff overlooking the ocean. In Maria's bottom right corner, an unused lighthouse. Grant's top left of the cliff shows a broken gravestone. Bucky's top right is a gorgeous blend of dull blues; the ocean with a wave reaching out to an empty beach. Your bottom left corner; a lonely dove in the foreground reaching out to nothing, though its white wing looks to be reaching for the blue waves.

The light applause from the class is accompanied by a small smile and nod from Linum. Knowing how hard he is to please, you know to take his reaction as a glowing review. That's one less thing to worry about as your final semester comes to a close.

"Hey, you with me?"

Bucky's words pull you from your thoughts, and you realize you're the last two left in the room. Looking up at him, you give him a small smile.

"Hungry?" He asks while packing up your bag for you. "Let me take you for lunch. It's about time I took you on a real date."

WEEEEE. FUCKING FINALLY. Finally Bucky is starting to see how crazy twatwaffle is. Oh. This was such a good chapter. I'm also relieved that Bucky stood up for Flora while twatwaffle tried to change tactics and act all remirseful even though we all know she isn't capable of feeling that. Plus knowing Thor and Yelena both know about Flora's past and still love her made me soft. I'm excited to see how this all ends and blows up in twatwaffle's face. Another beautiful chapter from our Mistress KinnyšŸ„°

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Never use Surfshark VPN

I just wanted to make this post to warn yall about it, I am not a tech genius but I wanted to get a vpn and surfshark was one I knew about so i subscribed to them because it seemed ok, that was where I fucked up.

fast forward a year and now I am trying to cancel my yearly auto-renewing subscription which costs 70 fuckin bucks, didnt find much use in surfshark as it was too laggy when using its vpn services so i go to billing and try to cancel.

there was no cancel button so that was odd, and you cant turn off auto-renew so i figure ill just get rid of my card info so it cant charge me.

i cant or at least i cant figure out how.

I go to help and find the cancellation area after scrolling past why you should keep the subscription and it tells me to contact their live support to cancel, It requires my name and gmail, I know for a fact my gmail is correct but it says its wrong and that my name is wrong no matter how many ways I enter it and I cant find a possible username anywhere on the site i could use. Its for all practical reasons impossible for me to cancel, not just the fact I cant even talk to customer support, but the people on reddit that do, talk to a bot and then the agents take months to actually turn off the subscription so it charges again and there is no refunds.

dont use surfshark VPN

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EIGHT: YOU'RE ONLY PLAYING DRESS-UP

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Thor, Steve, Yelena, and Wanda continue learning the truth about Wren's quick exit. Meanwhile, Juniper decides enough is enough and it's time to take you out of Bucky's life forever.

Content Warning: Frat!Bucky x F!Reader, mature themes, mention of self harm/violence/injury, mention of murder, angst, blackmail.

"I'm sorry - you said yes?" Wanda asks Wren incredulously. "After everything his best friend put you through, you said yes?"

Wren shrugs. "I guess I thought we'd elope and leave the world behind," She says, laughing dryly at her naivety. "I'm not claiming to have been smart back then. He was all I cared about, and I'd have put up with ten Junipers for him."

"Damn, his dick must be amazing," Yelena mutters, in disbelief that Bucky could be worth the hassle.

"It's pretty good," Wanda confirms, to which everyone frowns at her. "What? After Steve, I wanted to make double sure that I was a lesbian and not just disgusted by him. Turned out I am a lesbian, but Bucky's a little less disgusting."

"Mean," Steve says with narrow eyes. "My dick's just as good as his."

"Anyway," Thor interjects pointedly. "How did the fight start between you and Juniper?"

....What the actual fuck. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK????Holy shit. Okay. Okay. So this chapter did not go the way I was expecting. I really fucking hope that The Dream Team (Yelena, Steve, Wanda, Thor, and Wren) can figure out a way to take the mega cunt down. I'm tired of her and she just keeps getting worse. I didn't think anyone could be worse than fucking Bibi (or Sharon in His Koala Bear) and I can't believe I was wrong. Twatwaffle better count her fucking days.

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SEVEN: SHE'S CRAZIER THAN I THOUGHT

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No matter how much you may hate him right now, Bucky reminds you of all the reasons you were so attracted to him in the first place. Steve and Thor go on a road trip, unknowingly joined by two others with similar motives.

Content Warning: Frat!Bucky x F!Reader, mature themes, sexual tension, smut, penetrative sex, dom!bucky, degredation kink, angst, crying, insecurities, self-doubt, hurt/comfort, softdom!bucky, aftercare.

Grant places the fourth glass of red wine on the coffee table with a clink, standing up proudly with his hands on his hips as he grins at you, Maria, and Bucky. The three of you sitting on the couch in that order, looking up at Grant expectantly.

"There's nothing quite like a Sauvignon to awaken the artist," He claims, picking up one of the glasses and taking a sip before closing his eyes and sighing. "Mm." When nobody says anything, he opens his eyes again and smiles. "Don't be shy, have some!"

Bucky's the first to bite. He takes one of the glasses and has a sip, Maria following suit soon after. Not wanting to be the odd one out, you take the last glass left.

"Now, we're ready to create," Grant decides. "We only have two weeks left before the deadline, so I'd prefer for us to have most of it done by this Sunday. The final week can be for minor tweaks."

"Who put him in charge?" Maria mutters bitterly.

"Maria- you and I are at opposite corners, so we'll go first," Grant says. "Let's go to my atelier."

"Why do we have to do this together?" Maria asks with a groan. "Couldn't we just each have the canvas for a couple of days?"

Grant looks appalled at her words. "This is an artistic collaboration. If we aren't in sync, there will be no meaning to this piece. We may be painting individually, but there needs to be synergy," He explains.

"Alright, alright," She mumbles, standing up with her tools and walking out of the room with him, leaving you on the couch with Bucky.

The silence lasts for a full five minutes before you finally get bored enough to swallow your pride and speak first.

Me after that ending.

However, I'm excited to see that mega bitch Juniper get her karmic justice, finally.

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6: INVESTIGATION LAUNCHED

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After being told by Juniper about Bucky's betrayal, you do everything in your power to distract yourself. Wanda makes a discovery, and Steve and Thor realize they need to up their ante if they're ever going to fix things.

Content Warning: Frat!Bucky x F!Reader, mature themes, angst, mention of sex, mention of hard drug usage, reader is self-destructive.

His hands are all over you, but you can barely feel them. You're too lost in the kiss to know which parts of your body he's groping, but you do know it feels good to be focusing on something physical rather than floating in your mind. "Shall we head back to my place?" He mumbles, pulling his lips away from yours for just enough time to spill out the question.

You pull his head down, resuming the kiss and ignoring his query. It isn't until someone clears their throat beside you and bursts your bubble that you finally pull away. Turning your head to the side, you see Thor, semi-healed bruises adorning his chin and cheek, and he doesn't look happy.

"What are you doing?" Thor asks, shooting a cold look at the man who still has his hands on your ass.

"What?" You respond blankly, shrugging your shoulders.

"We're in public, you know," Thor says lowly, glancing around the diner. "And that's Tony. You know, your ex? The asshole you swore never to go back to, ever again?"

Hello, Mistress Kinny? Yes, I'm sharpening my knives to very painfully and slowly yank out Juniper's teeth, one by one. I hate this bitch so much. Like WAAAAAAY more than I hated Beryl.

Shout out to Thor, Steve, and Yelena for being the best friends a gal could ask for though. Love those beansšŸ„°

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Sharing this for everyone who stumbles on this post!! Please be safe y'all, def use gloves, mask, and make sure to have good ventilation! Always check the ingredients of your cleaning products before using them together! Please share this so more folks are aware, they literally don't be teaching us important stuff like this to prepare for the Adult Worldā„¢

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