My hands were sweaty,

Holding yours.

My hands are dry now,

I never thought I'd prefer the former.

These days I find it hard to get out of bed.

I'm not tired or sluggish. I'm actually the happiest I've ever been. With your head on my chest. You make it hard to get out of bed.

These days I find it hard to get out of bed.

I long for the day where I can hold you when you cry. I long for the day you'll wipe my tears with a smile.

It remains many months, maybe years away, but I know it'll happen. But by God I wish that day could've been today.

I never thought I'd find another's eyes more comfortable to look at than nothing.

Yet, I sit here looking at nothing, wishing nothing to be her eyes.

Each day I wake up to you.

Each morning I actually look forward to.

My fridge is stocked with breakfast food.

Lunch was my first meal before I knew you.

Now I stand scrambling eggs for you.

I dream of you. Day and night.

The curve of your hip, the dip of your lips.

The crook of your smile, how you make life feel worthwhile.

You touch my arm, my shoulder really to steady me in the storm. I can't see the road ahead and I won't peel my eyes from the road. Just know though I look at the road, its with you in my mind. Keeping you safe through my storm, through our storm.

She's the warmth in my heart.

The hand in my hand.

The smile on my face.

The reason for my laugh.

The light of my life.

She's golden.

She's sun.

And by God am I lucky she's mine.

I thought seeing you would hurt.

Yet all I can feel is happiness.

You look so carefree.

You look so happy.

You look well.

Everytime I see you,

Confirms it for me.

We were meant to love,

But we weren't meant to be.

I wish you well.

Nothing but the best.

I'll be watching through friends,

Watching from a distance.

I'll never be in love with you again.

For which I am so thankful.

I'll love you as one loves an old friend.

I'll see you smile in pictures.

More than we ever did together.

I wish you nothing but the best.

Goodbye.

I've never been the type,

to have someone occupy my mind.

Yet day in and day out,

It's only you there, I find.

My heart feels like it's bursting,

Along all the previously broken seams.

You make me feel things I've never felt.

You make my heart feel like it was never broken.

You make me feel.

You make me feel again.

Your arms around my waist,

My arms around yours.

Your hand in mine.

My hand in yours.

My thoughts as I fall asleep always drift to you.

I can't wait to sleep these days.

Cause then I get to see you.

I got off a plane today.

No one was waiting.

Part of me expected you to be there, smiling.

I got off a plane today.

I knew you wouldn't be waiting.

But God I hoped you would be.

a countdown.

we've reached the end.

only hours now.

till I see you again.

I'm excited again. I'm excited to love again. I'm excited to love you.

you were my favourite person, but you were also yours.