Imagine having an unexpected meeting with Spencer after you broke up.
Note: This was requested as another alternate ending for this imagine. Itās also based on this and this post. Enjoy!
It had been a whole year. 8760 hours since you had seen Spencer. It hurt you to think about him, about what you had, about why you left him and how much you still cared for him.
You walked to work every day, picking up coffee at the same spot that you knew no one from the BAU knew about. Until one day, you caught a glance of brown curls at the register and your eyes went wide when you realized that you were about to come face to face with the person that had broken your heart into a million pieces. His eyes met yours and they did the same thing yours had a few seconds ago.
ā(Y/N)?ā Spencer asked, biting his lip slightly and gripping his coffee cup a little tighter.
āUm hello Spencer,ā you said softly. āIām .. Iām sorry, what are you doing here?ā
āOh uhā¦ I found this place a couple of weeks ago and Iāve been coming here since. They have a really good blend of dutch chocolate coffee hereā¦ I just usually come at around earlier, but I was running late today.ā He gave you a weak smile as you nodded. āā¦how have you been?ā
The question took you by surprise. You didnāt know how you were. Tired? Heartbroken?
āIāmā¦ okay,ā you said, softly and you started to walk towards the register. āWell, Iāll uhhā¦ Iāll let you go if youāre running late.ā
āOh uhā¦ itās fine.. um, can I buy you a coffee?ā he asked, blushing slightly. You gave him a small nod and a smile. That reminded you of the first day he talked to you when he also offered to get you a cup of coffee. That started your whole love affair. You had gotten coffee every single day after that.
After a few minutes, you were sitting in front of him and stared intently at your coffee. You couldnāt meet his eyes. ā(Y/N)?ā he asked softly and you glanced at him. āIām sorry.ā
You were taken back by his apology. You had time to think about what happened and realized that it wasnāt his fault, he was just following orders. He couldnāt tell you, even if he wanted to.
āI know Spence,ā you said softly and saw him smile. A genuine smile. āWhy are you smiling?ā
āI havenāt heard you call me that in so long ā¦ I really miss it,ā he said softly. āI miss you (Y/N).ā
You nodded and stayed quiet for a moment. At that moment all you wanted was to tell him you were sorry too and that you missed him, probably as much as he missed you. To run into his arms and kiss his soft pink lips.
You couldnāt bring yourself to reveal all of that to him. You were still really hurt by everything that had happened, with him and everyone else.
You heard his phone go off and he sighed. You knew he was probably being called to go into work. āI um.. Iām sorry,ā Spencer said, looking at his phone and texting back. āI should go but I uhh, Iād love to see you again.ā
You thought about that for a moment. āUm, sureā¦ maybe when youāre back if you have a case.ā You gave him a small smile.
It seemed like he was lingering, trying to come up with how to say goodbye. You both got up and walked towards the door. Opening it for you, he followed close behind and you could feel his eyes on you. Like he was trying to read you and maybe see what you were possibly feeling. But you got good at hiding things from people.
āUm wellā¦ let me know Spence,ā you said standing outside the door.
āI will.ā It seemed like he wanted to reach for you, to hug you. Anything. But he didnāt.
He just turned on his heel and walked away slowly. You watched him as he left, wondering if he missed your touch as much as you missed his.
After a few days of thinking about what youād say to Spencer, he texted you asking to meet at a restaurant down the street from your house. You thought you were supposed to meet for coffee and didnāt know if you were ready to get dinner. That seemed a lot more formal ā¦ and you had to admit, more serious. It sounded like he wanted to talk in a serious setting.
You stared at your phone for what seemed forever and then replied to Spencer. You set your phone down and sat down for a moment. What were you supposed to say to him? What was he going to say to you?
After a few hours, you found yourself walking to the restaurant that you agreed to meet Spencer at. You stood outside for a moment, taking a breath. You were terrified. What am I doing?
Before you could turn around and run home, you saw Spencer walking towards you. āHey, umā¦ are you alright?ā he asked, touching your shoulder. His hand was warm and his touch still like home to you.
āYeahā¦ā Your voice was soft and you met his eyes. And for a moment, you saw something in his eyes. It looked like he wanted to kiss you, to hug you, anything to be close. You had seen that look in his eyes before. Whenever you guys would fight about anything, heād give you that look and eventually you let him hold you.
And you desperately wanted him to do that at that very moment. But you werenāt going to admit that to him.
āAre you okay?ā you asked, giving him a look.
āYes, Iām justā¦ Iām happy to see you,ā Spencer said and opened the door for you. You nodded and walked inside, with him following behind you.
You walked up to the hostess and Spencer checked his reservation. āFollow me Mr and Mrs Reid,ā the blonde hostess said, and lead you inside. That made you feel butterflies in your stomach. You had thought about marrying him and getting his name. You couldnāt wait to be Mrs Reid. And then the thing with Emily happened.
You reached the table and Spencer pulled out one of the chairs for you. You sat and gave him a small smile. He sat down in front of you and gave you another small smile. It looked like he was trying to come up with what to say to you. You looked at the menu, trying to figure out why he had asked you to dinner.
āSo, how are you?ā Spencer said, glancing at his menu as well. He fiddled with his hands for a moment and he stared at you. You knew that was his tell when he had something on his mind.
āWhatās going on Spence?ā you asked, getting to the point. You didnāt want to walk on eggshells about what was going on. You knew he wanted to say something and you had to admit, you wanted to know.
āIām justā¦ Iām trying to find the words to apologize to you and I hope that you will forgive me for everything,ā he said, biting his lip. He stopped for a moment and it looked like he was trying to think of what to say carefully. āWaiting to hear from you never ended (Y/N)ā¦ I waited and waited for you. And I was sure I had lost you forever.ā
ā(Y/N), let me finish please, if I donāt say this now Iāll lose my nerveā¦ ā Spencer said interrupting you. You nodded and listened to him as he went on. āYou fill a part of me that no one else does (Y/N) and I miss it. Iāve tried to move on and be happy ā¦ but I canāt. Youāre all I think about and Iām sorry for everything that happened.ā
You stared at him, wondering what exactly he wanted to hear from you after his apology. You had thought about calling him dozens of times, you thought about reaching out to JJ or Emily or Garcia. You missed Penelope so much but every time you were thinking about calling her, you stopped yourself.
āWhat Iām trying to say is that I miss you,ā Spencer said, reaching for your hand. You let him hold it and he gave you another small smile. āAnd I want another chance.ā
āI want to Spence, but-ā
āPlease let me make it up to you ā¦ (Y/N), Iām still so in love with you. I donāt know what to do with myself and .. I only read five books last week.ā You smiled at that last comment and that made Spencer smile wider too.
āIāveā¦ Iāve been thinking about all this Spence, but I donāt knowā¦ā you said, softly.
Then you heard a familiar voice behind you. āWe all want to say weāre sorry,ā Emily said, and you turned to see her, along with JJ, Hotch, Rossi, Morgan and Garcia.
āYou have been missed (Y/N)ā Hotch said. āAnd I will like to officially extend a job offer for you to come back. Youāre an asset to the team, you always have been.ā
āWe miss you, kid,ā Morgan said and you smiled at you.
Garcia just rushed towards you and pulled you into a hug that made you smile wider. āI miss our sleep overs, please come back,ā she said after she pulled away.
You took a small breath and then turned back to Spencer. He was staring at you with a genuine smile after seeing you hug Garcia and you bit your lip. He came over to kneel by you and took your hand in his. āPlease (Y/N), we all miss you. Youāre a good friend and someone we love.ā He kissed your hand and searched your eyes.
āI miss you guys too,ā you said softly. You turned to Hotch and got up, extending your hand. āI will like to take your offer.ā
āIām glad to hear that,ā Hotch said, shaking your hand and smiling at you.
You heard Garcia squeal and run towards you, hugging you tightly, followed by Emily and JJ. After they let you go, Rossi came over and gave you a small hug.
āCome here, kid,ā Morgan said and pulled you into a tight hug, giving Spencer a knowing look.
Then you turned back to Spencer who was looking at you adoringly. He took a step towards you and pulled you into his arms. āIām glad youāre back,ā he said, softly and smiled at you.
āMe too and umā¦ Iām not saying it will go back to where were were but Iām willing to give you another chance.ā You smiled up at him and he kissed your forehead.
āGood ā¦ I love you (Y/N),ā Spencer said and smiled wider.
He hugged you again holding you tight, and you knew you were home.