the haunting of gay manor (2020)

imagine u ask your lesbian aunt to tell a ghost story at your wedding and she spends 3 hours narrating your repressed childhood trauma and telling everyone that your uncle is actually your dad

#let her rest

sleep, my darling, safe & sound

#this whole scene. how not present she is#because she’s starting to slip#but more importantly she’s just been told these kids she literally gave a piece of her soul for#don’t even have the memories to prove it anymore#imagine giving so much up for someone and becoming somebody you can’t fully recognize in the mirror anymore#only to find that that person doesn’t care. doesn’t even remember you really#you’re carrying this darkness inside and they’ve moved on completely#it happens to all of us in one way or another#and it’s such a good detail to include here where we see a Dani who…wouldn’t have felt this way at the start#who doesn’t take on the Lady because she wants anything in return#it’s just pure protective instinct#and now she’s living with it and feels the shadows grow thick and wild around her#and the people she went through it for have the audacity to forget?#it isn’t fair to her. and it isn’t fair of her to feel that disconnected dispassionate anger toward children#and I think she knows it. but the sheer envy and the sheer hurt of knowing#they’ve let go of something she’s doomed to carry for the rest of her life#is so hard to watch. and Jamie sees it. Jamie knows what’s going on#and so Jamie makes absolutely certain this woman’s story and sacrifice will live on#just kills me (via @novelconcepts)

at long last deep within the au pair’s heart there was peace

The au pair.

RE: Naya Rivera

I’ve seen a lot of people be told off for expressing their feelings over this situation by contextualising their sadness through how much the character, Santana Lopez, meant to them.

Naya Rivera is beloved by the LGBTQ* community, a longstanding ally who never dropped the ball, who showed up for us time and time again, who pushed tirelessly behind the scenes for Santana Lopez to have meaningful storylines rather than just flippant derogatory jokes about her homosexuality. 

Naya saw us during a time when nobody saw us, and we saw Naya during a time we had never before seen ourselves depicted on television living full happy lives. The last few days I have been reminded of her kindness and utter humility, whenever she was commended for her contribution towards the progression of LGBTQ* representation on television she never failed to acknowledge the community:

“It has been one of the great blessings in my life to receive such love and touching stories as a result of my portrayal of Santana Lopez on Glee. We are all put on this earth to be a service to others and I am grateful that for some, my Cheerios ponytail and sassy sashays may have given a little light to someone somewhere, who may have needed it. To everyone whose heartfelt stories I have heard or read, I thank you for truly enriching my life.” – Naya Rivera, 2017.

When I saw the headlines I felt instantly transported to being sixteen years old again, to the incredible impact this woman had on my life, and for the first time in longer than I care to admit I shed a tear and hoped for a miracle. Now, I hope for her to find her way home in the most respectful and dignified way possible.

Please, if you see people expressing their sadness or feelings by referencing Santana Lopez, don’t assume it’s virtue signalling or shallow commentary. We understand she was a real human, and I know for me personally it’s because of her humanity and generous kindness to my community that I feel personally touched and saddened by this tragedy.

Thank you, Naya. You didn’t let them make us the butt of the joke, instead you opened the door so we could laugh and share in just a little bit of the glee too.

JODIE COMER at the 2019 Emmy Awards for Variety 

THE LAST OF US PART II (2.21.2020)  X

sometimes i forget how to spell a word so i change the whole sentence to avoid using it