Static

I was planning a proposal. To renew our vows I thought maybe If I planned now the day would come And I would know it was time I want you and only you But you still get angry And decide to quit again On us Our love Our friendship Our families hope for a bright and happy future So I guess Instead I'll plan something for me Or maybe a surprise for our kids But to propose to you To redo the things I did wrong and learned from To renew a life long companionship with my best friend To have and to hold Just isn't sane Not anymore I will love myself and the three gifts you've given me And hope I can teach them to choose better than I did To love with a true unending well of forgiveness and understanding The static my heart and head are dealing with is not something I wish to pass on Not to my own worst enemy I do hope you find whatever you're seeking You could have it all with us but as long as you find it somewhere I will be happy for you I will support you I will love you until the day I die More than anyone else ever will Even if I can't have you.

Love

If I had the chance again To love and be loved in return I would give up everything For that glance That touch The soul strand that completes you and holds you unconditionally. Happily. I would sacrifice my life to have one day of love that is returned.

I know no one probably sees many of my posts but I would work for an hour for $5 to go get myself a bite of something semi nice to eat

Anxious

The swirling storm inside my chest Ceases not for anything I wish I knew why you did this to me Or that I could just be where freedom lives Happiness is all I want with you Yet this is all you give I don't want to run this race anymore Even though I said I'd never leave The time has come and I should go Someone out there will come To take your hand and hold your heart And give you what you need.

Life

It really shouldn't be this bloody complicated.

And when I'm old Unrecognizable I hope that it's you still there smiling with me and crying too There will never be enough time in my life To spend enough with you I love you and it's Unreciprocated Please just let someone love me The way that I do you

If anyone's looking

'Out of Time' has not been updated and I am terribly sorry. I've been in a very odd mood- spent the last few weeks alternating between this wicked flu plague and rearranging for better flow and energy. The clutter was driving me mad. I will have time soon to get another part (maybe two- I have A LOT of rough drafts/ notes/ outlines to work into something sensible. Thanks for being patient I am pretty sure it will be worth the wait! (I say pretty sure because I am not even certain how it will end 😬)

I really would like some sort of inspiration for the next part of Out of Time. I thought 'threatening Baby E' may do the trick.