Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible. 

I am constantly trying to communicate something incommunicable, to explain something inexplicable, to tell about something I only feel in my bones and which can only be experienced in those bones. 

It’s so hard to speak and say things that cannot be said. It’s so silent.

—Clarice Lispector, Agua Viva

Do you understand yourself? You are attempting to express such inexpressible things.

— Henry Miller, from “A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller.”

››› YOU ARE NOW WATCHING… lover’s paradox ! ( 성훈 )

pairing. bestfriend! sunghoon x youtuber fem! reader

genre. bestfriends2lovers, idiots in love, mutual pining, romance, comedy, everyone is just so bloody blind 🤷‍♂️

synopsis. ever since you were ten, sunghoon has been your number one. from crying about tests to playing catch around grocery stores, he has always been there. And somewhere in between these years, you’ve grown an insanely big crush on him. Little do you know, he’s got a big fat crush on you too! but with the both of you failing to confess, you’ve hit a lover’s paradox!

warnings. unfunny humour but yk what 🕺 i don’t care 🕺, uhmmm everyone dragging sunghoon, idiotic things, food, princess shriek, working out🤢 insane amt of cursing

word count. 4.1k

nella’s notes. do you ever just ignore everything you have going on for sunghoon? cause same 🤷‍♂️ can’t help it 🤷‍♂️ this idea was just too good😔🙏 leave your comments below and hit the subscribe button hotties🫶🕺 inspired by fred & evelyn

BONUS : LOVER’S QUARREL

[VLOG] : 2am grocery run ( spotting rare species )🙀

posted by youronlyyn 895k views

Lately you’ve been finding yourself at the weirdest places in the best hours of the day, with the cool night air surrounding you and a drowsy Sunghoon beside you.

The camera you’re holding capturing the half opened eyelids of your best friend in his worst state ever, with messy bed hair sticking out at all angles, and long legs donned in matching bunny pajama pants as the both of you drag your feet into the lited 24 hour grocery store that was a little too bright for your liking.

“Fucking hell, I can’t believe I’m in a grocery store instead of my bed at two in the morning. What has my life become,” Sunghoon curses under his breath as his fingers latch onto the sleeves of your hoodie ( his hoodie ), blinking profusely to adjust his sight.

every time you assume that others are thinking negatively of you or judging you behind your back, you are bullying yourself through them. at the end of the day, you don't know what thoughts are running through their heads unless they verbally express them to you. until then, every one of 'their' opinions about you is nothing more than your fear, and whatever assumption is born from your fear is yours to let go - not theirs to disprove.

— Stéphane Mallarme, from “Collected Poems and Other Verse.”

i found intimacy between the webbings of your fingers, and warmth within the palms of your hands

There must be a line where I begin and you end

Doris Dana, from a letter to Gabriela Mistral (@liriostigre) | If Beale Street Could Talk dir. Barry Jenkins (@timotaychalamet) | Letters to Milena, Franz Kafka | If Beale Street Could Talk dir. Barry Jenkins | This Is How You Lose the Time War, Amal El-Mohtar & Max Gladstone | Shadow, Raleigh Ritchie

I was tagged by @nymeriaaa and @svintsandghosts to shuffle my music and list the first ten songs that come on! Thank you so much for tagging me!! 💜

Tagging for fun, no pressure. Ignore if you don’t want to do it.: @itsjaynebird, @linosnoot, @khairemisthios, @princessjiniret, @jdopes-recorder, @stardragongalaxy, @hijirikaww

Ahhhhh thank you @abiaswreck I love doing these and finally have time to do so!! Let's begin!!

I'm tagging @kitten4sannie @drunk-on-hwa @hangyeomcult @sanjoongie @flowerboykun @a-tiny-dreamie @xsweetelegantdisasterx @cherryeoo @anyamaris @kwanisms @piratequeen-queenofgames and anyone else willing or sees this!! Have fun!!

oooo thank you @stardragongalaxy for tagging me! Oh man, let's see what comes up:

Tagging- @wooyoungmybelovedhusband @shinestarhwaa @kpop-stories-21 @thelargefrye @pyeonghongrie-main @lemonhongjoong

🤍💜🤍Have fun!

Ahhh thank you for tagging me bae @anyamaris, I did the kpop playlist last time, now doing the other one 🤭

Tagging : @azriel-owns-my-heart @taehyungisminee @woosanbby @liumoonlight @ssaboala @hwasdollie @shinestarhwaa @mkkenziiie9

Thankyou so much for tagging me twinie ❤️ @wooyoungmybelovedhusband. I'll do my Playlist?

I'm gonna tag @liumoonlight and @woosanbby ❤️❤️

Thank you for tagging my love @wooyoungmybelovedhusband and @taehyungisminee 💕🫶🏼

1. D (Half Moon) - DEAN

2. Naughty - DeVita

3. Skinz - OnlyOneOf

4. 0g - fromis_9

5. Swipe - Itzy

6. Hide in The Dark- Hot Issue

7. Sweet Karma - Besomorph

8. Irony - OoOo

9. Cold Nights - Chase Atlantic

10. Honest Mistake - Max Embers (my love for this man will never die 😫💕)

Gonna tag @seung-scrittore @cosmic-railwayxo @biaswreckingfics @jvkeslvr

on love and devotion

look i can explain why my pinterest looks like that.. im working on a very in-depth story for hannie and… yea. (ALSO, i kid you not my home screen has been the same since like junior year and i don’t really make any plans on changing it any time soon)

tagging: @seokmins @chogiwapadada @fairyblue-alchemist @librarian-stacks @strawberryya @gguksgalaxy @bitchlessdino @flowerwonu (no pressure!!)

judge me based on my: lockscreen, homescreen, pinterest board, and the last song i listened to! (i was tagged by @duhnova thank you bb 🥰)

Are we surprised? I don’t so. I made that home screen btw. I really have a problem but he’s so cute and Loml shaped 😭 idk what to doooooo. Also Rock is a bop. Rock my head rock my head. Is it obvious I’m a hag carat? I have a Normie lockscreen and home screen but that has my irl partner so lol.

Tagging: @chansgyu @seokgyuu @userwoosan @cheolism @dkakapizzaboy @playmetheclassics (do if you want but don’t feel obligated 💕)

Ladies and gentlethems are we surprised ? I was actually listening to enha before this tho so this is a coincidence I SWEAR

Tagging @jjongho @hwanswerland @applejongho @cheollipop @kitten4sannie @wooyoungmybelovedhusband @lemonhongjoong and @wonuhour

thank you for the tag jenna!! @lemonhongjoong tyyy <33

listennnnnnn - i have my lockscreen pics on photo shuffle but the one it picked out is so cuteee > < also my pinterest board just being reaction pics and one singular pic of san is so real. also welcome to my world is such a good song!! literally stuck in my head all day.

tagging: @cheollipop @stardragongalaxy @nabis-dreamscape-world @to-all-the-fics-i-love @pluvialorion @kevinsluvr @wooyoungmybelovedhusband

Tysm for the tag @userwoosan @kitten4sannie <333

Okay look I can explain the Pinterest search😭 it was just- i dont ship them so I don't know how it popped up- well yea 😅 and the wallpaper- yeah let's not talk about it, I guess we know!! And the last song is House of cards by bts vocal line if it's not seen!

Tagging : @azriel-owns-my-heart @taehyungisminee @anyamaris @shinestarhwaa @liumoonlight @ssaboala @sumiinism and everyone else who wants to do this^^

Thank you for tagging me honey @wooyoungmybelovedhusband 💕🫶🏼

So my lockscreen represents the piece of me that I lost so long ago and I’m fighting to return to that part of me. It represented safety and happiness. My Pinterest board is pretty accurate. My board usually consist of aesthetic ideas and art and creative ideas for myself. And as for my last song… I’ll leave it at I’m going through honestly the most life altering phase of my life…

Tagging @seungkwan-s @seung-scrittore @cosmic-railwayxo @biaswreckingfics

BITE ME ENHYPEN (2023)

I was tagged by @nymeriaaa to shuffle my music and list the first ten songs that come on! Thank you so much for tagging me 🥰 (i'm lazy and sick today, so imma just screenshot and add. lmao)

Tagged by the lovely @svintsandghosts​  to shuffle my music and list the first 10 songs that come on! Thanks for the tag  ❣️ !  1. Playing God - Polyphia

2. The Weekend - BIBI

3. Trinity - Snarky Puppy

4. Dramaturgy - EVE

5. Limitless - ATEEZ

6. Respite on the Spitalfields - Ghost

7. Mist - ATEEZ

8. Used - SZA 

9. Killing me Softly - Fugees

10. RIP Love - Faouzia

tagging @hongthoven @hwaightme  @cheollipopp @whatudowhennooneseesyou  @felixs-voice-makes-me-wanna (no pressure  💞) + anyone who would like to join! 

tagged by my darling jojo (@michel-angelhoe) to shuffle my music and list the first 10 songs that come on! thank you for the tagg (´^ω^)<33

no pressure ^^ @kitten4sannie @lemonhongjoong @wooyoungmybelovedhusband @hwaightme and everyone who wants to join <33

Ahhh thank you for tagging me nora 🤭 @cheollipop

Gonna tag @azriel-owns-my-heart @taehyungisminee @woosanbby @anyamaris @lemonhongjoong @whatudowhennooneseesyou @liumoonlight @ssaboala @shinestarhwaa like to do this ^^

Thank you for tagging me honey! I love you @wooyoungmybelovedhusband 🫶🏼💕

Gonna tag @seungkwan-s @seung-scrittore @cosmic-railwayxo 💕

The Book of X, Sarah Rose Etter

a lil tag game because I’m bored: your current top five favourite tracks

here are mine🤭❤️

Thankyou for tagging me!!!! @woosanbby ❤️

Thank you for tagging me my love! @taehyungisminee

Gonna tag @seung-scrittore @cosmic-railwayxo