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Please Read: My Goodbye to the RPC

This is honestly one of the hardest things I’ve done, but it’s been a long time coming. I didn’t want this to be hard, but it really is for so many reasons. 

I’m just at a point where roleplaying doesn’t click with me anymore the way it used to. For one thing I am extremely busy and when I’m not extremely busy, other things have been occupying my free time like my husband, my friends offline, and the countless adventures I’ve been on since I started this journey, got married, and finally started living. I’ve done so many things I never thought I’d be able to do with some of my chronic health issues and exploring that world that I didn’t think was possible for myself is really important to me. For another, I just don’t have the same inspiration for collaborative writing that I used to.

It’s just time for me to pull the plug on my accounts here. 

I don’t intend to stop writing, nor does this mean my friendship with many of you are over. I am still writing independently, I still love and cherish all of you and am more than willing to continue contact elsewhere. Everything I’ve created here, the characters, stories, friendships, everything... means so much to me. From the very first flop of a blog I made likely more than 5 years ago, to my last blogs now, it’s meant so much to me.

I’ve struggled with mental and physical health issues for as long as I can remember. Roleplay has always been an escape for me, it’s always opened doors, helped me cope, helped me make meaningful connections with the community that I genuinely couldn’t outside of the internet.

It’s been attached to many ups and downs but for the most part... this has been one of the most positive journeys in my life. I know this all sounds cheesy, like this is just roleplay and just tumblr, but the indie rp community has done a lot for me which is what makes it so hard for me to admit to myself that it’s time to move on to the next journey. I know some people have been roleplaying the same characters for decades, that roleplay is something that will always be in their life and that makes me so happy and I support that with all my heart.

For me, however, it’s just time for me to leave roleplay and the community behind. I love all of the memories I’ve made here, but I no longer have the time or inspiration for it and I feel it’s a disservice to my writing partners and friends here to continue to force interactions and writing when my heart just isn’t in it the same way, or worse to just say nothing and never return to this blog.

From there, I wanted to say goodbye. The bonds and friendships and memories I’ve formed here are with me forever. I’ve made life long friends here, I’ve made genuine connections, I’ve written so many things that I’m proud of --- and I’m more proud to say that I’m at a point in my life and with people in my life who enable me to do the things and make the connections I never thought I’d be able to outside of roleplay. I’ve hiked to the bottom of a canyon, I’ve married the love of my life, I’ve gone to Roswell and the actual town where the Roswell UFO really crashed, I’ve touched shrapnel from an alleged UFO, I’ve jumped off cliffs into one of only 4 blue holes on the planet. 

I’ve done things and traveled places I never imagined I’d be able to, places I had only written about or dreamed of... It is so freeing.

I love you all and roleplay very much, and I hope all of you can understand my decision to discontinue my time here. I’m going to slowly work towards deleting my accounts, but I’ll leave this post up for a few days before then.