Please Don't Leave Me (Pt. 3)
Bucky Barnes x Reader
There are a lot of things that you aren't told about when you fall in love. Everyone wants to say that it's the greatest feeling in the world but they don’t tell you about the fear. When you can’t breathe without someone. When your heart would literally stop beating the moment theirs did. When they are everything, you can lose everything. The fear is debilitating.
That’s exactly how you felt. Bucky was going on missions left and right and you were by his side. You knew he could handle himself but it still scared you nonetheless
“The goal is to get in and out as fast as possible.” Steve said. Pointing at the board he lectured the group, everyone listening intently except for you. You gnawed on your lip and stared through the screen. You knew you should be listening but you just kept replaying the last mission in your head.
There was shooting and the sound of explosions. Your job was to get inside the main room and steal the files of the terrorist group. A simple task, plug in the hardrive, wait for it to upload, and get the fuck out. Simple. You didn’t have to be in the action. The guns in your thigh holsters bored from lack of use.
Then everything went wrong. Guards infiltrated the room. They were expecting you, something that no one anticipated. The hard drive wasn’t finished uploading and you needed time.
“Hey!” The man yelled and raised their guns. You lifted your gun and fired two shots hitting one of them before you ducked down behind the desks as gun fire started to rain on you.
“Guys. We have a situation.” You yelled through your earpiece.
“In the main lab. Seven guards. The hard drive isn’t finished uploading. I need help.” You said as you fire two more shots.
“Get out. We will come back for the drive. I’m coming right now.” Steve's voice rang clear.
“I don’t have an exit, Rogers.” You ground out.
"Your knight in shining armor is coming to save you, Princess. Stay down till I get there.” Tony spoke. You waited firing shots here and there until everything got really quiet. You knew they were planning an attack. Before you knew what was happening a grenade was rolled behind the desk. You kicked it diving to the other side of the room behind another desk. It exploded and you were sent flying. The hard drive surely destroyed.
You coughed pushing away debris that had landed on you. Sut covered your face.
“Abort, the hard drive is destroyed". As the smoke cleared you could hear the men making their way through the room. You had two options, pretend to be dead or try to sneak to the exit. You chose the first, knowing that there was no one you could get away without being too loud. A piece of shrapnel deep in your leg. You were on your side with guns concealed and you waited for the men. The men approached you and inspected your form.
“The girl is dead, find the asset.” He spoke through his earpiece, gun lowered. There were four guards. One went to roll you over and you fired your weapon hitting the unsuspecting guard. Then started to fire on the other ones. Each body hitting the floor. Your breath was ragged. Adrenaline coursed through your veins.
You got up quickly, not waiting for more men to come. You went to slip out of the exit gun raised, until it was knocked out of your hands and someone grabbed you from behind. You fought them off but their grip was too tight. You could hear a voice but nothing was clear.
“Shhh, it's me.” Bucky. You stopped flailing and he slowly let you go.
“We have to go.” You nodded and followed Bucky until you both made it safely to the quinjet.
“What were you thinking?” Bucky grabbed your shoulder.
“Don’t 'what' me. You could have gotten yourself killed.”
“Are you kidding me? No one was expecting that! What was I supposed to do just sit ar-”
“You didn’t even check your surroundings. I could have been anyone outside of that door.” He yelled. Your face fell. Nothing had even happened. Everyone was safe. He stared into you and then brushed past you. The rest of the flight not a word was uttered between you.
“We don’t know who this terrorist group is. We need to find out. There are bases popping up everywhere. Y/n you will get to the main room and use the hard drive to collect intel.” Steve said.
“Sorry Cap but I disagree. I say we kill them all and make them tell us who the hell they are. Good ole blaster to the dome interrogation.” Tony spoke up.
“We can’t risk another failed mission. I appreciate your whole John McClane act, princess but that’s not gonna get this done.” He finished.
“This is the mission, Tony. If plan A doesn’t work, plan B sounds wonderful.” Natasha spoke.
“Okay, quinjet in 20.” Cap said, picking up the files on the table. Everyone went to leave the room and Steve called your name.
“If you’re not up for this, tell me. I’ll let Nat do it. You can sit this one out, it's not a big deal.” He said kindly.
“No, I’ve got this. I won’t fuck it up this time.” You said as you walked out of the conference room. Steve sighed. That was not what he meant. He knew how personally you took the failure after Bucky made a scene on the jet. You hadn’t spoken for the last two days.
So that led you to where you are now. In the main room the drive plugged into the large computer. You tapped your fingers on the desk waiting for the file to download. You couldn’t help but look into the information before you unplugged the drive, it was complete and it wasn’t technically against the rules to look. You had already hacked in anyway. You scrolled through the documents clicking away at the keys.
HYDRA. Your breath left your body. Everything clicked. You remembered the guards' use of the word ‘asset’. Bucky. His face popped up on the screen. Pictures flashed. Bucky walking down the street. You and Bucky eating at a restaurant. Bucky on past missions. They were watching him
“Oh my god.” You ripped the drive out and ran. So many thoughts ran through your head. This is the fear. This is the dread you felt because you loved Bucky so much. You couldn’t imagine a life without him. Nausea started to spread through your throat. Under your ears pressure grew. You had to get Bucky out of here.
“I got the drive. Get out now” You yelled into your ear piece. Tears started to form.
“We still have business to take care of Princess” Tony said and you could hear his blasters.
“Get out now!” you yelled firing your gun at two more guards. You hated killing but right now you would kill anyone. You spotted Bucky fighting off three guards at once and you didn’t hesitate to kill them. Bullets flying out of your gun like it was nothing. You looked ruthless. Bucky looked surprised. He knew you never fired your weapon unless you needed to. You grabbed your other gun and held them both up. You saw Nat going hand to hand and you shot. Steve was fighting with just his shield and you again fired your weapon at his attacker.
“Don’t make me say it again. We are leaving now.” No one questioned and headed toward the quinjet. Bucky was confused but everyone obeyed. Once on the quinjet, everyone stayed quiet. You sat in the corner stone faced and looked down at the ground thinking about everything.
“Did you get the drive?” Clint yelled back from the pilot seat. You didn't answer but tossed the drive on the table across the room. Everyone was confused. Nat came and sat by you. Not saying a word because that's what she knew you needed. She knew you wouldn't have told everyone to leave without a reason. Steve bent down and picked up the drive. You could hear people whispering but you tuned them out.
Once you got back to the tower you headed straight to your room. You didn't waste your time going to debrief in the conference room and you certainly didn't go to the med bay to get the hole in your leg restitched. You felt it bleed through your black suit but didn't pay any attention to it. You were in shock. What were you going to do? You wouldn't let them get to Bucky. You would do anything to stop it from happening.
You wiped away the tears that started to fall. You sat on the floor and leaned on the edge of your bed. Tears started to flow and you angrily wiped them away but you felt your breathing start to pick up.
“Sergeant Barnes. Ms. L/n may require your assistance in her room. She appears to be experiencing pulmonary distress.” Jarvis said to Bucky, who was taking off his battle gear. His face looked up to the ceiling as if to talk to the AI.
“It is unclear Sergeant Barnes but I believe you should assess the situation. I believe Ms. L/n is experiencing a panic attack.” Bucky wasted no time and made his way to your room. He knocked voraciously.
“Y/n open the door. Please let me in” On the other side of the door you couldn't hear him. Your hands on the side of your head covering your ears. Fear ate at you. You couldn't imagine what they were going to do to him.
“Please, doll, open the door. We agreed we weren't going to do this. You can come to me, you know I am here for you. Open the door now.” Bucky pleaded. He pressed his ear to the door and could hear the sounds of your ragged breath.
“Jarvis opened the door.”
“Sergeant Barnes. Ms. L/n likes her privacy. I'm not sure that is a good idea.”
“If you don't open the door I will break it down.” he threatened Jarvis. There was a click and the door was unlocked. He opened it with haste and saw you shaking on the ground, hands in your hair and you kept saying “No”. He rushed to you and placed his hands on your bent knees.
“Y/n breathe with me. Come on, you got this. Nothing can hurt you here. It's just me.” He said and you finally made out that it was Bucky and your eye met his. Your breath started to slow. He made himself hold back from touching you too much because he didn't want to freak you out. Before he knew what was happening you launched yourself toward him and wrapped your arms around his neck sobbing.
“They wanted to hurt you. I couldn't let them. '' You cried.
‘Who? No one is here. It's just me and you. No one can hurt me” he said, grabbing the back of your head.
“They're back, Bucky. They want you. They were going to kill me to get to you.” You said, fear lacing your voice.
“What are you talking about?” He said pulling back. You took a moment to speak.
“HYDRA” you whispered. His eyebrows scrunched up and he looked confused. The drive.
“I can’t let them. I will do anything to make sure they can’t get you. I will kill every person you dares look at you. I will die a million times before-”
“Shh shh. You don't risk your life for me.”
“No! That's an order.” He yelled. Your lip quivered.
“I can’t live without you. If you die I die. I will risk my life to save you. I don't care what orders you give me. I physically couldn't stop myself. I can’t breathe without you, James.” You stated. His hands were on the side of your face. Your eyes were red as well as your nose.
“I don’t want to hear that. Nothing is happening to either of us. I won't let it.” He reassured me.
“I love you.” You breathed in. His eyes softened and he stared into your soul.
“God, doll. I've loved you since the day I met you. I’ve been waiting to hear that forever. I love you.” He kissed you/
“I love you.” Another kiss.
“I love you.” He wouldn't stop kissing you.
“What are we going to do about HYDRA? They want you back, there were pictures of me and you. They watch us all the time. They won't stop until they get to you.” You said sniffling.
“We kill them. All of them.”
