That moment when....
.....you realize you were in over your head when you accepted a request that you not only had no idea how to approach, but it's an art style you've never drawn in within the timeframe of your existence and during the time you normally have a hiatus.
In other words, I'm a dumbass.
I know I wanted to draw stuff something nice during my hiatus because of what happened in the summer and I hadn't done so at that time, but I was not thinking about what the request was going to be....
I guess I'm more afraid that it'll reflect in my normal art style that someone would notice. It's happened once before, although it was in an art style i actually liked, so i didn't mind that. But uh, yeah....
Asking someone who drew in an anime style for years to draw something Disney-related is...rather bothersome. Plus, it's put on a timer, so I'm more stressed out about it as I am with working this time of year with the holidays.
Although, the last time i was this reluctant in drawing something different was when i used to draw anthro cat characters when i was younger because I've always love cats (before you say anything, i refuse to address my nonhuman characters as anything but what i call them, so they are not "furries" or whatever, and I'm not one, either. Having someone's characters shoved under some blanket term is rude in my opinion). Anyway, cats to humans. I was more angry at that time before because I felt like my art and love for cats was being insulted. Thinking about it now, i guess that feeling was back, not as anger but as worry. Yeah, it's great to try new things, but i think that sometimes, it's not as great as it sounds. Yeah, it's the whole "come out of your comfort zone" thing, but I would rather have at least one comfort thing that I can stay in than give it up and that's with my art.
Also, trying to convince someone who has no interest in making money with their art and telling them that they'll become a "famous artist" one day is not always the good thing. I get this sometimes and it's really annoying, especially when I don't want to tie something that gives me joy to something that becomes like an obligation. It's something I often think about and i wish I could convey in a way that doesn't often end up with discussions about money. I'm more worried about what would happen if I did start selling my art for money and something happens to me to where i wouldn't be able to continue with that kind of income. I don't want that to happen and the most i can do is just nod my head and forget about the conversation.
Sorry for the rant, it's something that's been plaguing me for a long time and i feel like I'm at a breaking point that I don't want it to finally crack.
EDIT: i just remembered that I had done something Disney-related, but it was aligned to my artstyle because i didn't feel pressured to draw it EXACTLY like the art like i do now. I had done a series of pictures of the Organization XIII members if they were to show up in the Lion King world in Kingdom Hearts 2, but that was ages ago (although I did need to update one of them as i had found out what their actual weapon was some years later...)
My point still stands, though.
