The way they write female love interest for Buck and Eddie gets more and more interesting with each one they try to throw at them. And us.

Because there really seems to be progressively less care put into them. I mean Abby and Shannon had some personality and agenda. Taylor had at least one recognizable trait. But Ana? Natalia? Marisol?

Nothing, nada. You could say pretty much anything about either of them and no one would be able to prove you wrong.

And it's not like they don't know how to write interesting, layered female characters. We have Hen and Athena and Maddie and Karen and May and Sue in the main cast. They often create compelling characters for emergencies, when they get two scenes max in an episode.

But when it comes to these women who should play considerable role in both their lives, crickets. How am I supposed to be in any way, shape or form invested in these characters let alone these relationships, when the writers clearly aren't.

Lies written in ink (can be facts too)

Snippets of how soulmates Evan 'Buck' Buckley and Edmundo 'Eddie' Diaz meet and fall in love. And all the things in between.

Or

Buck doesn't have a soulmark. Eddie married his soulmate when he was 18. The universe has other plans for them.

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> Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Light Angst, Falling In Love, Mild mentions of Blood and Injury

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calling all fans, we need to get viewership up for this weeks episode of 911 tonight.

we have to show the writers, that despite the small group of people that are angry about buck realising he’s bisexual, there are so many more that support him, this show, and the stories it tells.

even if you’ve never seen an episode of 911 before, i really encourage as many people, especially queer people, as possible to watch the new episode tonight and show those homophobes where they can stick it

reblog this to help spread the word

I think it's natural for people to air their concerns and seek reassurance, but I'll admit, maybe the main tag isn't the place for it. Maybe we need our own tag so rant and rave in, and allow the main to just settle back into it's peaceful haven of Buddie love. 🤔

How about #the buddie panic room?

I just want to say if you're following me for 911/Buddie I don't plan on posting much Buck/Tommy stuff. This isn't anything against Buck or what's going on with his story right now. I've wrote posts myself talking about how I know that Buck having this journey and this relationship with Tommy before Eddie is important. Still I'm not a multishipper I'm here for Buddie first and foremost and I want to see the guys end up together eventually.

The issues I have with Buck/Tommy and the reason I plan on avoiding them isn't even really a shipping one so much as it's how parts of fandom are responding to them. It's literally only been a few days and already I've seen tons of posts, comments, tweets, fanfiction, tiktoks, etc being anti Buddie. I just came across a fic last night that was about how Eddie treated Buck awful (used him for sex) and then Tommy came along to be the best boyfriend ever.

I'm just not here for the way people are treating Buddie and Eddie. I also don't like how people keep saying Buck's story is more important than Buddie. All of it is important. Buck, Eddie, Buddie, Buddie and Chris (as a family) all of their stories and what they mean for incredibly needed lgbtq represention are important.

I'm so thankful that 911 is doing a bi storyline with a character like Buck (one I relate to a lot) but the fact that I still want to see them follow through and extend that to Eddie and Buddie doesn't mean I'm trying to take anything away from Buck's journey.

We've never really had a same sex slow burn story like this and especially not with characters like Buck and Eddie. Older queer characters who are figuring out their sexuality later in life. Who are also raising a son together. Who don't fit into some preconceived mold of what it means to be queer. Having Buddie be canon would be groundbreaking it’s own way and if they follow through on this story I believe it has the power to really change media in some ways. I think them doing Buck's coming out storyline is already doing that. It is basically unheard of for a primetime show like 911, with a character like Buck who was basically written to appeal to straight men and women to now come out so late in the shows run. The show is taking a risk and will be taking an even bigger one to make Buddie happen but that's why they need to follow through on it.

I'm not going to apologize for wanting all of the stuff we've been hoping and begging the show runners and networks to give us for 6 seasons. It is possible to care about more than one thing. I can wholeheartedly love and relate to and support Buck's journey while still wanting to see Buck and Eddie together and definitely still want to see Eddie's coming out story too.

I'm also tired of seeing people outside of the Buddie fandom say Buck and Eddie are too good of friends to "ruin" with making into a couple. That Buck and Tommy should be endgame so Buck and Eddie can stay friends. Fact is Buck and Eddie have never been just friends. If you look at how Hen and Chim and Athena and Hen and any other friendship on the show is they're not written the same at all. They don't have the same kind of depth and definitely don't have the same romantic and sometimes sexual overtones that Buddie's does. We obviously need more male friendships in media but Buddie isn't about two guys who are just friends, it's about two men who have loved and supported one another for six years and we're about to watch that love turn into something even more profound in the coming seasons.

So yeah I probably won't post much about Tommy but if I do I'll try and tag anything as bucktommy for bl. The other reason I probably won't post about them is that it feels like every space in our fandom is getting swallowed up by this ship. It's just frustrating when all of the tags are full of Buck/Tommy.

I'm not trying to hate on people who ship them. I think everyone should be able to multi ship if they want or just ship whatever ships they like. I've been hated on many times for ships I like. But I do think those of us who just love Buddie shouldn't have to see Buck/Tommy 24/7 and definitely shouldn't have to see anti Buddie stuff.

I also want to say don't let anyone make you feel like shit if you're not super into Buck/Tommy. You can still love Buck and support him without gushing over him in a relationship with someone else. I hate when fandoms get this crowd mentality where if you think any differently you're told you’re a bad person. Just remember that the story the show is telling is leading towards Buddie canon eventually. So people can be excited over Buck and Tommy for now if they want but it’ll be Buddie in the end.

Also if you have Buddie or Eddie gif requests please let me know. I really want to see Buddie and Eddie back in the tags.

Okay so recap of the 911 LGBTQA+ people.

Evan Buckley - Bisexual.

Hen Wilson and Karen Wilson - Lesbians.

Josh Russo and Michael Grant - Gays.

And Eddie? Though, to me, he is every inch of a repressed gay man, I also think it fits his character better as a demisexual.

Demisexual people can only be sexually attracted to someone whom they have a strong emotional bond regardless of sexual identity.

Eddie's a nester. He builds relationships to last. Buck's a soul searcher. He keeps searching for something or someone to nest with.

Buck and Eddie's emotional bonds are as strong as Grey's Anatomy's hold on prime-time television.

They've been building, taking care, and protecting their tiny little nest since they met each other together with their nestling - Christopher.

So yeah, a bisexual man and demisexual man being together as a couple will face a lot of challenges. It'll not be easy compared to their previous relationships, which they got it easily in the palm of their hands.

But this is 911, nothing is easy! Easy is boring.

And I signed up for this.

I want to be one of those “Bi Buck is so important that I’m okay if we only get that & not Buddie” but I am just not that girl.

If we get Buck ending up with some random man (bc Tommy isn’t going to be around full time) as a consolation prize for Buddie, I am going to be PISSED.

I’m not saying that I need Buddie to happen right now, at all 🙅🏼‍♀️ I like the BuckTommy pairing, I want to see that fleshed out & see Buck get romanced and bumble his way through his first boyfriend, because that representation IS so important, and Buck deserves to have this time to grow & figure himself out (& also kiss Tommy again bc that one kiss was not enough for our boy, he looked hungry after Tommy pulled away lmfao.) Buck should be able to grow and develop his character without being dependent on one person. I think Buck's character arc from s1-s7 is my favorite part of the show, the way he grows and changes and learns more about himself with each season, I love it, I don't want that to stop.

Also, if you’ve read my other posts, I also think Eddie deserves to go through his sexuality and feelings realization arc. I’ve always HC Eddie as gay (and Demi, but I have no hope of seeing that on screen ever), which means he’s going to have a LOT to work though, and I think that he also deserves the time & space to work through his own crisis and grow as a person/character.

Having said that, we have spent YEARS falling in love with these characters and their relationship. They've spent the entirety of season 7 thus far further cementing that Buck, Eddie & Chris are a family, a unit that no partner will be able to compete with or replace parts of.

Those two have been through so much together, so many situations that have led to them understanding each other, knowing what the other needs and be able to predict and understand how they're going to act in certain situations, and you will be hard pressed to find two brand new characters better suited for Buck & Eddie than Eddie and Buck.

They've already started making the moves to make it possible (Bi!Buck is canon, holy shit!) by making Buck kiss a boy (!!!!) on screen. Any homophobic people that don't want to see that have already stopped watching the show. It's not like those viewers are going to stop watching it again if Buck & Eddie get together in the future.

At this point, putting all this work into these characters & this ship and NOT getting them together is a slap to the fan's face and I will throw a fit. I am so down for a slow burn, I'm in it with pining & confusion and not understanding why they're feeling this way or that and struggling before finally getting their happy ending, but I will never be able to get behind throwing yet more characters in between the family that is the Buckley-Diaz's.

I’ve seen a lot of takes on my dash about where Buck should go from here and some division among fandom. It’s really interesting, because it made me realize something about how much fandom perspectives are likely shaped by sexual (identity, experience…?)

Like, I think Buck has a fair many fans that are aromantic who really identify with Buck 1.0. Like, up til now, it’s been clear that he loves sex and just has been miserable in relationships. So that would line up with them. And they’ve been posting a lot of “this is great, we can’t wait to see him exploring his sexuality” and then being shocked at the response that gets. And rationally, I can see where they’re coming from - that for them this is a benediction and entirely well meant.

But viscerally? I totally get why they aren’t getting a positive reaction. That’s because a lot of people (me included) see Eddie as demisexual or gray a(sexual). So there’s a fair number of people with that perspective in fandom. And as someone who’s demi, my instinctive reaction to “explore your sexuality” is approximately the same as someone suggesting it would be fun to lick the floor of the New York subway. Like, full body shudder ewwwwww!

(And before you scoff at that metaphor, I once had a scene not dissimilar to that in a London sex club described to me. Apparently licking dirty floors really does it for some folks. It’s a thing. Look it up.)

Because if you’re demi, rubbing your bits with randos is about as sexually appealing as licking a dirty floor is for most people. Like…abandoning a close emotional relationship that’s formed over time and is real and strong for someone new, even if you like them…doesn’t make sense. You can try to force it (Marisol), because you’re constantly getting signals that you’re not normal to not be attracted or dating all the time. So we’re used to getting told, personally, that we should want things we don’t want and wouldn’t enjoy and that we’re not normal if we don’t see sexual pleasure independent of connection as the ideal. Especially in queer spaces where there’s a lot of gatekeeping around labels and experience and requirements to “prove” your identity. Like if you express a new found attraction, that’s immediately met with “so are you going to (insert sex act)? Followed with “why haven’t you (same or different sexact)?” And of course”It’s like you’re not even…” And a person develops some feelings when they’ve gotten a lot of this kind of pressure, in spaces that are supposed to be accepting. So I think you’re seeing a bit of that, along with some bad behavior, because people are having FEELINGS. So, apologies from the demi community, but also a bit of an explanation. And a hope that you’ll cut us some slack if you get where it’s coming from.

So… this week has been about Buck, and his journey, and I hope we can all appreciate the moment of joy and rightness Buck felt when a part of himself he hadn’t recognized clicked into place. I hope we can respect who he is, whatever choice he makes.

I think I realized what bugged me with Buck's coming out story in 7x04.

It's that he's "rewarded" for "bad behavior".

Don't get me wrong I was probably one of the loudest advocates for Bi!Buck, and I'm deliriously happy we got that.

But the fact that 7x04 went almost exactly the same as 2x01, behavior wise, that bratty, how am I not the center of attention? I'll show you your place, (the respect your elders crap) was very disturbing for me.

Like, aside for the fact that Buck finds out that he likes to be railed by boys as well as doing girls, there's no real character development here.

He knew, intellectually, at first that he was jealous of the attention Tommy got from Eddie, which really, considering everything that predated that was completely understandable that Eddie will look for that friend to do stuff with that they both enjoy somewhere else.

At first, it was the "She sees me," and as we can comprehend from "welcome back to the world of the living Buck, you were missed." Means that Buck was absent from their lives while he handled his death in the form of a relationship with a death doula, that he immersed himself in, completely leaving Eddie to deal with his trauma and loss, of Buck's death, and the consequent heartbreak of Buck choosing Natalia, on his own.

And now Eddie finally has that new friend, who's so much like him, to hang out with, that is worlds different than Buck and suddenly wide awake Buck realizes he's "losing" his best friend.

And I'll be the devil advocate for a minute and ask the Theo (teen wolf) question, come on Buck was he really still your best friend?

Because Eddie and Tommy have been hanging out for almost two weeks? (Though pretty sure more, considering that they have the basketball get-together more often than not and Chimney was probably the one who introduced Tommy and Eddie) it reached a level where Christopher met and loved Tommy (because seriously dude's awesome) almost instantly, but Buck didn't know that until he babysat Christopher and the kid told him about it.

Which makes me ask, where was Buck all that time? Absent? Taking Eddie for granted in that he will always be there?

Eddie has kept his mouth shut through a lot, Buck's sprem donor adventure, the death doula, the she sees me line, through months of separation because Buck cut himself off from everything they were outside of work.

On the surface, they were fine. But Eddie loves Buck enough to welcome him with open arms to everything, Vegas (you know he would have been ecstatic if Buck could go with them), basketball, babysitting Christopher which is world's different than 3x05-3x09.

He even forgives Buck immediately for railroading him on the basketball court.

Not mentioning the whole posturing at the firehouse, I have yet to manage to watch the entire scene (or 2x01 posturing) without cringing and fast forwarding it.

When Tommy goes to see Buck, he's there to figure out what is happening and to apologize in his and Eddie's names because THEY didn't mean to exclude him?? (In the two weeks they were building a friendship? And it's not like Eddie didn't invite Buck to play basketball. It's that Buck didn't want to.)

And Buck, even though Maddie told him he was wrong in what he did, didn't go to see Eddie and apologize. He immediately assumes that Eddie wouldn't want to see him.

First off, that's crap, he made you his son legal guardian, and second, at this point, you're a grown ass adult, do the right thing and even if he's mad at you call to APOLOGIZE!

It's not hard, it's supposed to be the easiest thing in the world, you hurt someone you love, you apologize.

How did Gibson tell Maya in Station 19 after she hurt Carina (emotionally) "You'd be surprised how far an apology can get you".

Buck should have apologized.

Now that kiss was something else, Tommy was super sweet and Buck proved himself to be an adorable bossy bratty bottom, the railing will be epic.

BUT! That relationship will come at Eddie’s expanse. This time excluding Eddie.

So not only Buck was mad that he was excluded, he's the asshole who befriended his best friend's friend cause he wanted the attention (of whom? Will be debated for months around this fandom) And now he excludes Eddie from his life again and disconnects him from the new friend he made.

That is isolation. Because as experience taught any of us, when our best friend gets a boyfriend/girlfriend they are busy! Either dating them or doing them or both.

Trust me I have had enough breathy phone calls answered by my gay best friend to learn to text first, and it didn't matter how many time I told him to stop answering during sex.

My girl friends knew better, but they also didn't call back until after they broke up with whoever the dude of the month was.

So yeah, I am mad on Eddie’s behalf, because Buck has not only done to him what he hates being done to himself, but he also reverted in the behavior to Buck 1.0 in 2x01.

I wish the Tommy/Buck pairing will be sweet and fun and explore new avenues for Buck.

But I want to see some growth damn it! Being out as Bi is brave.

But it is not a character growth if the people around you get hurt so you can get your way.

A lot like the lawsuit story (which, by the way, I was on Buck’s side for that one) but this is different, this is 4 years later and so many things happened.

Eddie went to therapy, and he reacts differently to certain situations now, when 5 years ago, he would have lost his head.

Buck did therapy, but nothing was solved, he's still reacting the same way he did in S2 and I am over it.

So yay to Bi!Buck!

But I wish the writers didn't make so that the growth won't be as significant as it should have been with giving him the same patterns of crappy behavior he exhibited in 2x01.

And there is no, "you're badass under pressure brother" here to cultivate Buck’s praise kink, just a kiss from Eddie’s friend.

Eddie who is sitting injured at home, alone, again (no, Marisol doesn't count) and Buck hadn't even apologized to him, but he was rewarded for making googly eyes at the wrong guy, because it's perfectly normal to be this jealous over not getting the attention of someone you just met, over the attention of your best friend of 6 years.

I understand this may offend a lot of people, but I had to get it out of my system.

No offense is intended, I just call it the way I see it.

I feel like Bi!Buck deserved a better intro story than what it got in 7x04, that kiss shouldn't have been made bittersweet, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one seeing it.

Anyway, I'm hoping for some kind of resolution and at least a heartfelt apology from Buck to Eddie in the next episode, coz it doesn't look like Buck will go to Eddie to apologize.

He and Marisol will stumble onto them at the restaurant and then there will be the whole why didn't you tell me drama, and I love you anyway thing, and it will all be about Buck, again.

Which fair. But does not absolve him railroading Eddie physically to get God knows who's attention.

Even Tommy didn't think it was about him, he literally asks bewildered "My attention?" I love him even more for that by the way.

And Buck should tell the firefam on his own terms, not because he has to.

But we reach another point, where the boys talk about their relationships with their significant others, only when they are forced to, again. Which is not normal at all for any kind of best friends.

Anyway, if you managed this far, thank you❤️

Yes, Death is still alive and kicking, and I am as well! 💀

I know this is rather unexpected, especially after the lack of any updates this last year, but I'm back and I owe you all an apology.

Life kicked me in the butt while mocking me that I should still be grateful to live another day. Shit happened and I'm not proud of how I acted. I took a step back from the Abyssal to heal, but I neglected my lovely readers while doing so. I'm not one to openly mope, but I received a lot of concerned asks and I thank every single one of you for still caring about my sorry behind 😊

Now, let's focus on the good part of this whole mess. I've got some news!!

Firstly, The Abyssal went through a considerable rewrite, nothing major but a few passages were added and other pieces were slightly changed. You guys will notice the difference, I hope.

Subscribe to my Patreon if you are interested in the early access, down below are all the release dates and their respective tiers:

PATREON DEMO

Down below you will find some of the changes I made:

Secondly, a list of small things that I added:

All in all this is it for this month. Any further changes I'll be sure to tell you guys!!

Check out the new trailer on TikTok. Like and share on the platform please!

discord server? makin a lil tally

I mentioned this when I answered Alyssa’s ask, but I wanted to determine interest in creating a discord server after the release of the Memento Mori prologue next week.

So, like this post if you’d join the Discord server so I can see how much interest there is. If there isn’t much interest now then I’ll hold off for a while and ask again at a later date.

I know people like to find communities, and I would love to bring people together through my work if possible 🫶🏾

rn I’m thinking that at least 100 ppl would have to want one for me to take the time to set it up 🤨

☾. IF DEMO ANNOUNCEMENT

Hi everyone!

I'm so excited to announce that part 1 of the Memento Mori Demo will be available on Itch.io starting on:

Friday, August 4th at 6:00pm EST. ♡︎

At the moment, the prologue is ~9,000 words including all branching choice variations.

For anyone that is new here, Memento Mori is a 18+ interactive fiction game that is best suited for the genres of sci-fi, romance, and horror. Wrecked and ravaged by an alien invasion, Earth is on the brink of war. War with who? That is yet to be determined, as no one knows who is the predator, and who is the prey.

Developing the world, characters, romance options, and main character for this story has been so much fun; I hope the love I've poured into part 1 of the demo shines through for each and every one of you.

On Friday, Aug 4, I'll post a link here to the demo and add it to my intro post (which I will link here: Memento Mori Intro Post)

Thank you to everyone that has shown me the most heartwarming support, from the bottom of my heart I appreciate you! ☾.

All my love,

Cheye

As promised, here's a place where you can access some scenes outside of the main story!

Your support is so very appreciated, whether it's on ko-fi or tumblr❣️I admit I feel a little odd setting up a ko-fi at all since I've never considered myself to be very entrepreneurial 😅 But I really loved writing the vignettes and wanted to put them out there as an option for people, with the thought that over time I may post more extras there. As always, I'm delighted to be sharing Leas' world with you. Thanks for playing! 🤗 ☀️

(previews of the bonus scenes below)

I think at 1k followers I'm going to share the first chap of what happened in 20XX, way before the Districts, and before the age of men fell, from different love interests perspectives. Hm.

(ALSO IF YOU KNOW ANY GOOD ARTISTS I COULD COMMISSION, LEMME KNOW)

Night Market Official Update

With the impending release, I got a few little announcements to make.

First, both Itch.io and Steam will release on the same day. There is no difference between either of those game uploads so just buy what it is you prefer. If you wish to add the Night Market to your Steam wishlist, the link is here. If you were one of my Kickstarter peeps, your Steam key will be sent to you directly. If you would prefer an Itch.io key, please send me a message through the Kickstarter portal.

That being said, the WIP version of the Night Market will be taken down to a few chapters by August 1st. This will no longer be a free game and the new content will be for purchase only. This includes about 170k new words and all the NSFW scenes that were previously behind a pay wall.

Official release date for everything will be announced soon. Kickstarter will be receiving the game earlier.

I am very excited to give you guys the final product and get started on Book 2. It's been an amazing year with you all.

Zinnia

Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Characters: Evan “Buck” Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Bobby Nash, Henrietta “Hen” Wilson, Maddie Buckley, Howie “Chimney” Han, Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Athena Grant, Josephina “Pepa” Diaz, Carla Price, Helena Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Ramon Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Phillip Buckley, Margaret Buckley, Natalia Dollenmeyer Additional Tags: Getting Together, Angst with a Happy Ending, Falling In Love, Firehouse 118 Crew as Family (9-1-1 TV), Soft Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Loves Evan “Buck” Buckley, Christopher Diaz is a National Treasure, 9-1-1 Season 6, Fix-It, Alternate Ending, POV Alternating, Insecure Evan “Buck” Buckley, Evan “Buck” Buckley Loves Eddie Diaz, Evan “Buck” Buckley/Eddie Diaz First Kiss, Secret Relationship, Coming Out, Fluff and Smut, Smut, First Time, Bottom Evan “Buck” Buckley, Bottom Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), post-lightning strike, Eddie Diaz Takes Care of Evan “Buck” Buckley, Evan “Buck” Buckley Takes Care of Eddie Diaz Summary:

An alternate ending to Season 6, where Buck realises that what he’s been searching for has been right in front of him the whole time.

This fic is complete!