~ all we have is ourself
They told me to unlove you
To make the pain hurt less
But if happiness means not loving you
I think I'd rather be depressed
-just little bits of poetry
(the time i lost my friend)
By F.L.H.
“Feeling love means feeling pain, But does it have to be so intense? And does losing a love-interest necessarily mean That you’re also losing your best friend?”
— Unknown Poet
I sent you a smoke signal but you never responded.
It was naive to believe that it would last forever
But of course, maybe it's better to be naive than to be sad
Better, I suppose, to be naive through the happy times and have your heart broken
Than be miserable and have no happy times to revisit in your dreams
-just little bits of poetry
(the time i lost my friend)
By F.L.H.
I miss the old you
…
Do I miss the way I thought I knew you?
Do I miss the way I didn’t know you at all?
Do I miss myself before I met you?
Do I miss not knowing all these things about you?
…
Or do I just miss not loving you?
I just want to message you and tell you I miss you, it’s a shame I don’t think you’ll feel the same
I want you..no one but you. no one has touched my heart the way you did. no one’s voice has travelled so far and stayed in lingering for ages.
“When I say I am tired, I don’t mean I am tired because of lack of sleep. I am tired because I sleep until noon, after staying up until 4 am because my brain refused to let me sleep. I am emotionally frustrated. I am feeling everything at once and I don’t have a pause button. I am sore for absolutely no reason. My emotions are tender and I don’t know why. I am tired of lack of accomplishments. I am tired of being tired. I am tired of feeling weak. I am tired and I am emotionally exhausted. Sometimes I can’t even get up for school because I don’t feel like struggling all day. I would much rather stay in bed. I don’t want to be tired anymore.”
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okay this might sound really bad but since being on medication i kind of miss my emotional intensity. like obviously not the crying and the rage but just being able to ~feel~ things. i feel like my medication has worsened my feelings of emptiness and now i just feel empty all. the. time.
mentally ill culture is questioning whether something is a Symptom, a Side Effect, or Just You™
My life
“If you only knew how much those little moments with you mattered to me.”
— Unknown