My thoughts on love and tangerines//
It is simple, sometimes. The sun is warming up my heart. We say - "you know what? I'll go with you". This is such a simple, small desire we carry in our bodies in tiny patchwork art: just come with me. I have a whole world to see, but it is better to see it with somebody.
i dream so much about you it's almost as if im truely alive only when i'm asleep
Not even a little bit.
I hope you find a cozy home in yourself instead of wishing you were more this or less that. I hope you see something in yourself worth loving and protecting. I hope you find something that brings you comfort and lessens the loneliness. I hope you go on long walks and drink your favourite tea. I hope you have books, daydreams, paintbrushes, music and other escapes to hold on to when you have nothing else. I hope you continue to try even when you’re tired and can’t see the end. I hope unexpected good things come to surprise you. I hope you meet someone who lights up your life and makes up for all the goodbyes and endings that came before. I hope you’re going through your day and feel a sense of lightness all over and wonder to yourself, maybe it’s all going to be alright. I hope you make yourself proud. I hope you make new memories full of warmth and peace to replace the bad ones. I hope your heart will be surrounded with flowers, trees and stars. I hope everything gets better for you.
Yes, I know today’s your birthday. and I’m going to know it’s your birthday every year for the rest of my life because some things I can’t erase. But that doesn’t mean you still have a place in my heart, because you don’t. And you don’t have a place in my mind either, unless I notice the date and it’s your birthday, or I’m drunk in a bar and that song is playing, or your sister shows up on my newsfeed. So what I’m saying is at this point you’re just muscle memory and that muscle just happens to be my heart.
i wake up in pain.
i want a gosh darn hug
i want to go somewhere pretty with you and forget about everything else
you still have so many years to meet so many people you never knew you could love so much
april 2020, who knew forever would end so soon.