☆ “You can’t pressure him like that!” Her back, pressed to the door frame, immediately arose and straightened. Though one to be composed, when it came to him…
When it came to Cloud, so much had to be left unspoken. If not for his benefit, than who else’s? Certainly not hers.
Approach was swift, Chin lowered but eyes remained steadfast. “It’s not about him coming up with excuses; it’s that sometimes he can get overwhelmed by too much too fast when it comes to people.” Scrambled, just for a moment, as she considered her words carefully. Fanning dark lashes hiding so much, yet peripheral vision caught the gleam of red spilling about his fingertip.
“…” Bit her lip. Silent sigh. Tifa untucked the rag from her sable apron and softened shoulders if only to extend her own hand to cover his with cloth.
The warmth of blood was so familiar, it nearly stung her own fingers. Back then, the shards were far more severe, and the danger was a matter of clinging to life or giving up. Battles outside Midgar were extreme, but there were days where Tifa felt she had a better inclination to the fight compared to trying to care for someone else. To having… These kinds of talks.
“What you say… It matters to someone like him, whether you realize it or not. He cares what others think about him. Cloud’s been through a lot, Shin. Can’t you understand that?”
“We’ve all been through hardships, TIfa. The meteor that instilled such panic all through out, the downfall of Shinra. It has grown more strenuous for the poor children around and it’s really discouraging, when you can’t help someone.” He wrapped the sheet around his hand, another pained hiss from tying it up to cover the wound from seeping out some more. “If reassurance can’t help him, then i can’t help him. The only person who can help him is himself. I can’t do anything, at all.”
A part of him wishes he never came back, but at the same time, that will only hurt her some more. One day he’ll come back, and it won’t be surprising if he did someday. No one can win their battles alone without families and friends after all.
“He should care what his actions will affect others.” He retorted in a disappointed tone of voice. “And leaving again, because he made me angry is nothing but child’s play.” He shook his head dismissingly, going back to clean the table to pick up the remaining glass shards to throw into the empty trash can.
“Understand that it’s about his own fragility that’s backing him in a corner. He won’t accept any truths that’s breaking his fragile armor. I don’t wish for your friend to be stuck like that forever, Tifa. But if he persists like this without listening to anybody questioning him, I’m not going to make it worse and beat around the bush, doing nothing.” He sighed exhaustedly, exerting himself from speaking his genuine thoughts on the matter.
“You once challenged my thoughts before, remember? My bleakness and distain. If you beat around the bush all that time, I would still be that obnoxious sad idiot, spouting how terrible the place we’re currently living in. If we did that to your friend, would that change anything for the better? Just the tiniest bit might help, maybe. Just enough to smack him on the head, to wake him up.”
He coughed into his other uninjured hand aggressively, over-exerting himself to near physical fatigue.