AN EXPLANATION FOR MY ABSENCE.

  i’ll log on in the morning, and say i’ll be online in the evening, but I always end up not coming online.  y’all are probably like, why? what the fuck?  classes started back up again on monday, it’s friday now. admittedly, i’ve been turned off by tumblr the past few weeks, my mental health has been on a steady decline, something i haven’t really admitted to myself until now.  and writing is my escape, but when you feel like everyone is out to get you, then it makes the thing that’s your hobby, your lifeline, impossible to do.

  if i have beef with anyone, i’ve dropped it, the past is the past, and i’m here to move forward.  what’s funny is i can’t name any issues i’ve had with anyone.  but if people dislike me, come talk to me, tell me why, and we can work shit out together. i’m tired of being in the dark. if you have an issue? let’s talk it out.

  even if the issue is from ages ago, i have changed, as have all people, but your concerns are valid. basically what i’m saying is i’m going to get back into writing on here this evening, and really opening myself up again to people. i can’t keep letting a few bad people stop me from making new friends in the rpc.

  the blogs i will be sticking to, and not making anymore are: @killedpeople  /  @headprick  /  @lookedafterher /  @saviioring

❛it feels like i just woke up ❜ ❛ i’m not afraid of who i used to be ❜ ❛ change is a thing you can count on ❜ ❛ i feel so much younger now ❜ ❛ my eyes open when they feel the light ❜ ❛ it’s always right before i’m about to scream ❜ ❛ i’ve never came to the beach or stood by the ocean ❜ ❛ but you brought me here, and i’m happy that you did ❜ ❛ sometimes i get so scared of what i can’t understand ❜ ❛ i’d spend the rest of my life standing here talking ❜ ❛ hoping that you’ll stay the nothing will change ❜ ❛ it’ll be us, just for a while ❜ ❛ i would’ve never believed you if three years ago you’d tell me i’d be here ❜ ❛ sometimes i feel like i’m drowning and you’re there to save me ❜ ❛ i know if we tried, we could really make a difference in this world ❜ ❛ i won’t give up ❜ ❛ i’d be lying if i said this was fine ❜ ❛ oh, wouldn’t it be nice to live in paradise ❜ ❛ it seems like you just wanna bring me down ❜ ❛ i gave you my heart, but you stomped it to the ground ❜ ❛ i’d be so nice not to worry ❜ ❛ i’m sick of wearing this silly dress ❜ ❛ you used to make me smile but now you don’t do that anymore ❜ ❛ it feels like i’m always just crying and sleeping alone ❜ ❛ they say that love can drive you crazy ❜ ❛ you know i’d never hurt you ❜ ❛ i’d physically live without you, but i don’t want to ❜ ❛ my heart is yours ❜ ❛ how can i miss you so much when you’re right here? ❜ ❛ you are everything to me ❜ ❛ i would die for you ❜ ❛ i’ve hear i’ve got words like a knife ❜ ❛ i am yours, and you are mine ❜ ❛ i don’t know where you always go ❜ ❛ you’ve got me thinking way to much ❜ ❛ you won’t pick up the phone ❜ ❛ all i do is think about you ❜ ❛ i wake up in a bad mood ❜ ❛ i can never fall asleep ❜ ❛ we’re held together just by a string ❜ ❛ i don’t really care what you think ❜ ❛ i believe in more than you can see ❜ ❛ i don’t give up ❜ ❛ i’m kind of getting tired of dealing with all of your stress ❜ ❛ i’m starting to think you have no heart ❜ ❛ i’m tired of protecting you of what you need to know ❜ ❛ i knew you weren’t the one ❜ ❛ don’t you dare say i don’t care ❜ ❛ it’d be a cold day in hell before i’d ever be your husband/wife ❜ ❛ you’ve changed my life ❜ ❛ you’ve been my world ❜ ❛ you’re not him/her ❜ ❛ i just can’t fall in love with you ❜ ❛ i’m sorry ❜ ❛ you don’t deserve all the bullshit i put you through ❜ ❛ we are meant for more ❜ ❛ i know it sounds so strange ❜ ❛ is anyone watching us down here? ❜

Important Reminder

Bisexuality is not the same for everyone. Some people like one gender more than the other, some equally, some in different ways. The point is, if someone says they’re bi, they’re bi. Respect that. 

Give me a reason you DON'T rp with me.

Lucille, give me strength.

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