Figging!

I have STORIES about figging lol

Different kinks all have their "moments" and when I first started as a professional Dominatrix figging was commanding attention.

I carved so many ginger roots into plugs that my kitchen smelled like Christmas.

If you're unfamiliar, figging is putting a peeled ginger root right into your backside. Why would anybody do or consent to this? Because ginger is a natural laxative and also creates sensations described as quite "hot" and "stinging".

The thing is, the magic is in the juice and it MUST be fresh. I started making ginger pulp either by grating with a microplane or putting small chunks into the food processor and then coating a big inflatable plug with a handful of pulp and pumping it up so it held firmly in place. Then, if their stomach could take it and we had time, I made them eat the rest... which is where the real magic happens. When that huge gob of ginger pulp hits the stomach you have nightmarish painful HOT diarrhea... and it's all trapped inside because of the plug. Ouch 😳😅

Because I was meeting at a dungeon space there just wasn't the option to make them release in a diaper because if it leaked the carpets would require cleaning immediately, but I had a solution that was almost as humiliating.

I would lead the aching, nearly bursting, and fully turgid individual to the bathroom, but I wasn't leaving them in there alone to just while away the time twiddling their thumbs and wondering how they ended up there; I stayed with them - such an intimate and intense experience surely deserved more.

I sat them on the toilet but didn't allow them relief, instead, I straddled them and sat directly on their lap. Then, facing them, the edging resumed with the same intensity as before.

After extracting several mercies (my tease and denial tap word of choice), I would finally tell them to let go - and resume the agonizing edging WHILE they rid themselves of that boiling bane.

Men wept from shame. I mocked them.

It was exquisite.

So when Ms Mittens brought it up I was definitely on board to incorporate this new anguish. And if she fares well even more heinous trials are just around the corner 😈

@msmittensthediapersissy @diapersissymsmittens

Just one week I should put something up every time "I say I should post about that", this would be a VERY active Tumblr 😅

Let's talk about corsetry! 

Every sissy has their eye to style, But sometimes it can be difficult to deal with a male frame while using clothing not so inclusively designed. I mean even women who grow up wearing it daily have to live by their tape measure or commit hours to returning clothing that doesn't fit correctly. 

As some of you know I recently had major abdominal surgery and afterwards my core is weak and the area of operation, though nicely healed, is still tender and will be for quite some time. I had my post surgical binders, but they're limited by design and while amazing for the first two months I wanted something more substantial now.

Enter the corset. 

I used to wear them daily to session, when I left the dungeon and started meeting in my own space I declared that I would never wear corsetry or leather again - and I meant it. Now I am a liar, which I hate, but  abdominally supported which FEELS LIKE HEAVEN lol.

And they make a noticeable difference to your silhouette. This is a picture of someone I used to play with wearing one of my corsets, you can see how much it changes the silhouette of his body from square and male to HOURGLASS  with just a pull of the laces (And Lauren, wherever you are, you are missed)

I ardently encourage sissies to obtain a corset, season it properly, and wear it regularly. It will add so very much to your femininity. It used to be that corsetry was extremely expensive and difficult to obtain; you had to go to a fetish store with snotty, unapproachable, and often ill informed sales staff. That just isn't the case anymore. You can buy any and everything online and in great quality at realistic prices.

I suggest these two companies, I have purchased and instructed others to purchase corsets from them for quite a few years now and I have always found the quality to be excellent and the company to be extremely helpful in sizing - EVEN TO MALE CLIENTELE, which was always very important to me because you don't want to send someone to a negative experience.

Timeless Trends

Orchard Corset

They need to be cared for and laundered properly, but ladies, you need these!

I love it when things just come together like magic, it's so satisfying.

@sirrearzalot sent me this picture, but I felt like something was missing...

It's an adorable pamper, I LOVE the mermaids, but something was ... missing. I ordered lots of powder and cream, hoping that the hypnotic fragrance might push him to perform more tasks, and I was rewarded.I suggested that maybe a change of environment would trigger what that was so sirrearzalot went outside in BELOW ZERO weather to let me see them in different light.

Then I could see, they weren't full enough!

Some boosters and a few hours took care of that!

I'm not sure if another walk could be taken in these without fear of a blow out, maybe a gentle waddle lol.

Excellent work, pamper packer, when those super abdl pampers arrive you're going to be in for an experience!

Congratulations, my Little Bee, you triggered my libido! 😅

I have always been ultimately ruled by one thing, my intense libido. It's one of the greatest factors that allowed me to be a really solid pro Domme for sooo many years, I was legitimately aroused by what I was doing, even if it was with relative strangers. I'm a weirdo, but I wear it well.

After surgery I was very concerned about the possibility of losing some of that, I've read how menopause affects different women and I didn't FEEL like that would happen to me... but my instincts, though strong, are not infallible.

Today my Little Bee said just the right thing at the right time and it was like a explosion of NEED NOW, just like it's supposed to be.

It's a relief that I can't even describe.

I am still Me.

@littleboylookingforbig

I've tried, but I just don't have the head for sports, there's too much to keep track of and it always seems like someone else should be doing it for me - which they should 🤷🏼‍♀️

But that doesn't mean I don't want to take part in major cultural events along with everyone else, I just do it my own way!

I used to have an extremely sporty chastity sissy (IB), he was truly devoted to his teams even if they didn't win. I am strongly drawn to people with obsessive PASSION, they have an extra aspect for me to manipulate and twist and it's like catnip to me.

We became good friends over the years and he was the first person with whom I started to explore untraditional sessions - that is sessions outside of general timing by hours. That allowed me to do some really interesting things with the way our play progressed.

IB was, (and I'm sure still is), drawn to very extreme types of play - it was sort of a personal challenge for him and one that he achieved success at with every new task I posed him. It also became challenging to me to think of new things that were both realistic and extreme enough, but I think I did a good job with it.

Obviously, chastity is a big deal with me and I employed it heavily with him. What do I mean by heavily? I mean that I would lock him in for months at a time without batting an eye. It was a regular part of our activities, but something like the super bowl... that really gave me the opportunity to turn it into something special!

This person was a gambling man and though I don't agree with gambling and do not support it I will use anyone's weakness against them. So we would always have a super bowl party with all of the normal super bowl snacks and fun except I got to do it with my twist which meant that he was completely dressed and TIGHTLY bound spread-eagle, blindfilded and gagged for the duration of the game during which time I would bring episodes of EXTREME tease and denial, the kind that will make a man shed a tear of frustration.

Delicious.

There would always be some sort of wager on the game and one of our most common ones was to incorporate the spread into the length of his impending chastity sentence. So if the point difference was three, he got lucky and he only had three weeks of chastity until the next devious punishment. But if that number was 40... he's just lucky that it never was lol.

I know that most people here are not playing by weeks of chastity, but a day... well that could work very very well! And I believe I that based on the last several years you're probably not likely to have more than a week locked in (which even I could handle).

So I was wondering just how many people here are able to accept that challenge? How many people are able to say that they will remain chaste (preferably locked) for the number of days equivalent to the point spread of this game.

Then last night I talked to Ms Mittens who pointed out that people really like to drink during this event... and so I am creating my own drinking game for those who don't care to participate in chastity (but probably wish they could). What if my diaper officionadas drink a whole bottle of water quickly every time possession of the ball changes and then at the end the spread determines the hours that they have to go without changing?

It seems to me this could be fun 😈

Ghosted

As long as I have been a Dominatrix of different varieties I have also been a pro, it's not better or worse than lifestyle, It's just different. It means that when I start playing with somebody I ask MANY questions about their preferences before we begin, a session Mistress relies on communication and observation to tailor a custom experience to the client, your dance card will never be full if you only know a few steps. It mostly means that one must possess the ability to establish trust and intimacy in/with someone very quickly, and turn on a dime if we reach a juncture where I can sense the wrong kind of discomfort. If you are an actor and it feels to you like improv you are 100% correct, however with improv the element of progression is "Yes" whereas in a pro BDSM setting it's about making someone DESIRE the "Yes" more than anything - but they NEED to hear "No." because that is how a BDSM session progresses; it's a delicate balance of pushing with one hand and beckoning with the other.

And everyone best be smiling at the end if you want to see that individual again, and of course you do.

Tumblr is more a lifestyle crowd than pro and it has led to a lot of weird conversations where people who want to work with me won't tell me their interests instead thinking that I will research them ... no, we don't do that 😅🤷🏼‍♀️

But all in all I've found that I enjoy playing with lifestyle people, I am incredibly choosy because it's important to me that we're both having fun OR IT JUST DOESN'T WORK.

But sometimes you meet someone who you REALLY connect strongly with and that is pro Domme kryptonite. When you lose that person it can be devastating, if you're me it can cause an MS flare just as certainly as losing a romantic relationship.

So you lifestyle people MESS ME UP😅

I was really enjoying getting to know someone, I liked him a great deal as a person and I found his play style absolutely delicious - this old pro was ready to go lifestyle, with him, if he wanted.

And then he was gone.

I hope nothing happened to him, but I suspect that I was blocked. I thought we were good, but I'm just not as skilled with this kind of thing as I am playing with a man's desire.

If you're out there, my Little Bee 🐝, you are missed. @littleboylookingforbig

Happy Birthday to my alpha slut 😈

I call him that because he is a handsome successful man - who will do and has done absolutely anything I ask of him.

Everything from playing my "stunt cock" for sessions so that I could make my sissies pretend to be afraid of the delicious treat being served (no one ever held out for long, especially when I made him start to drip), to being my devoted mouth slave and pay pig 😈

We have done so so much together over the years and now that my health is improving we'll be able to spend time together again.

So many memories of so many people and places and noteworthy events, we really do share a rich history.

And since I keep notes and emails there is also years of correspondence that could be terribly damaging if they fell into the wrong hands... so you're trapped with me, slut, and I can't wait to find a new delicious way to remind you 😈

Who here remembers when in order to fulfill your gear needs you had to send away or go to those horrible *speciality stores* where both the proprietor and and clients are certain they're being extremely artsy, but to the general public it's just weirdo sex stuff and they actively LOOK AWAY. It is what it is. The mail order catalogs were sometimes so very well done though, Mr S will forever be my preferred maker of fine restraints.

But now, oh now - IT'S EVERYWHERE. You spend have to spend as much time reading reviews and cross searching for a diaper cover as you do a piece of furniture 😑

Thank you everyone trying to make a quick buck selling inferior quality items from pop-up anagram named brands. You all know what I'm talking about.

Here is my recent favorite. Amazon shoppers are assured that it's a great gift idea. There are airflow holes lol.

I haven't been posting much lately and I admit to being WEEKS behind on DMs (not that I'm good about them even at my best), it's entirely because I am focused on healing and a huge part of that is a great deal of sleep. My MS is also going crazy post surgery and it's just best if I stay quiet and focused until I can get back on the big meds which are paused due to surgery.

Friends are definitely giving me a lot to think about. My little Petrie @diapereddino1986 has been working on a story for me and I really think it's going very well. I'm going to post the intro here and then we'll start releasing it as he writes. I'm also thinking about voicing some of the instalments 🙂

Here's the introduction!

Trust Fund Babies

            Peter and Amanda are a young couple with a struggling marriage.  Neither one will divorce due to their mutual family’s status and popularity (and to not lose their eventual inheritances).  They seek marriage counseling with a prestigious counseling service where they meet their counselor, Jessica.  Jessica takes the young couple on a journey of unorthodox exploration into their relationship dynamic as a means of helping them to overcome their marital strife.  Unfortunately for Peter and Amanda, Jessica isn’t just working for their benefit…she has benefactors of her own who expect results.  Will Peter and Amanda discover Jessica’s motives in time to escape the clutches of Jessica and her handlers or will they become entangled and trapped in a web of sexual blackmail, personal humiliation and mental regression?  All will be revealed in Trust Fund Babies. 

Surgery isn't fun, not at all. But man alive was it a positive experience all together, the hospital was wonderful and my surgeon is amazing; he knew that I was concerned with the possibility of a really unsightly scar and he put me back together with very very tiny staples. It's like lace, he is an artist.

And I'm already feeling a great deal better, enough to be planning a new event with Ms Mittens 😈

She's going to have a week in chastity, fiber loaded, public diaper explosion with mag citrate while on the phone with me.

Her humiliation will be exquisite.

I was trying to think of ways to heighten it, because why not gild the lily? Perhaps ask the pharmacist about this very extreme medication you are about to purchase over the counter and consume? I am not a doctor, but the pharmacist is.

I have extremely strong feelings about public play, it's a TON OF FUN humiliating someone in a space where they feel most vulnerable, but the Public MUST be protected. Whatever happens absolutely must appear family friendly. Full stop. I was thrilled to learn that Ms Mittens agrees, it's so much fun when everyone is on the same page! 😁

Beautiful. 😈

@msmittensthediapersissy @diapersissymsmittens

It was a real ... day... one of those lol.

I was in a REAL temper earlier. I was extremely angry with someone who violated my boundaries - again. You know how it is when you just want someone to leave you alone because they bring out the worst in you? That's what happens when I hear from this person and I don't like going to such dark places, it's bad for my soul.

Unfortunately wishing won't make it so, and instead I chose to channel my irritation into making some voice clips. The first one is dedicated to @wolverine0012000

I love visual contrast. For many years I had raven black hair and snow white skin, my style was something like sexy Donna Reed, so it wasn't a goth thing lol. I have also always been intensely attracted to visually interesting and distinct individuals, my head is immediately turned and I cannot look away. I suppose it's a bit of a glamour effect in the old sense of the word, I am entranced.

As a giantess of a woman I adore men of small stature, it's almost as if I can completely envelope and keep with me them forever. So when my little bee told me that he can still fit into children's pullups and they are even effective, holy cats!

And he has an intense nursing fetish, my God boobs are bigger than his head...

@littleboylookingforbig

It's the truth!

Happy Holidays everyone

@littleboylookingforbig

I think it's time for a smaller cage 😈

Would you enjoy more things like this? Send me suggestions in the comments of things to you'd like to hear Mommy say to you .

It's been a little while since I posted, again lol. My MS is acting up and I need to take it extra easy and just go gently as a can with the flow until my med date. Unfortunately, due to surgery at New Year I can't have my big MS meds until February or March. Fun! 😅

Speaking of fun, the conversations I have would appear terrible to people who don't know what we're discussing.

Fiber is super important in a healthy diet. I eat steel cut oatmeal with flaxseed meal like it's a lifestyle because I love it, it's also incredible for my cholesterol and digestion. I heard once that a doctor wanted the patient to have THREE unaided healthy movements in a day. I didn't think it possible, but this diet proved the doctor right. It is truly nature's broom.

Ms Mittens is preparing for a very punishing diaper experience and she has embraced my fiber routine with improvements!

Well done, Ms Mittens. This promises to be an event!

To everyone that said "go harder" Ms Mittens definitely does not disappoint!

@msmittensthediapersissy @diapersissymsmittens

Mommy is just terrible with keeping a schedule. Lunchtime, Little Bee!

Better than a pacifier to put you to sleep.

@babyboylookingforbig