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Jag är hunger, jag är törst

Jag är smärta, när saknad är som störst.

Jag är känslan av att inte ha nog,

Jag är den, som ingen tog.

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Heyo, I thought I’d update this half dead blog with a Swedish poem! The first sentence is literally just something I translated from Spanish class and thought it sounded poetic, so I added some rhymes :’)

10 facts about me

ThanK you @wonho-ful-reactions for tagging me, I’m kinda ded at the moment but ! ! fret not

1. I’m rEallY awkward 2. I was born on January 1st 3. I’m in the school band playing guitar, bass and drums 4. My favorite subjects are creative poetry and literature 5. The library is my favorite place 6. I don’t have a lot of friends, not sure why but I’m fine with that 7. I dance street dance 8. I tend to overthink things 9. Writing helps really me express my feelings and inner thoughts 10. I’m just a swede dreaming about the bigger world

(((I don’t think I’m going to tag anyone because It’d be awkward sorry)))

I’m taking a break

Hi, it’s me. I’m sorry for this, but I will be taking a minor break. I don’t know for how long, but I really need it. Since I’ll graduate in a year school is extra busy, things are happening and I just don’t have as much time for writing and k-pop as I used to. 

This does NOT mean that I’ll stop being active. If someone messages me, I will answer of course, I just won’t post my work like before. I’ll do it sometimes, but Algid pt.3 will probably not be posted in a while. 

Sorry.

HAPPY CHEN DAY!

Happy birthday, Kim Jongdae! You taught me that I should always love myself, and that my flaws don’t define me or make me less worth. You are someone who inspire millions of people everyday, and I’m happy to be one of those people. Have the best day and may all of your future be bright ♡

Algid part 2

Algid | al·gid

A rather lonely word, meaning cold, or chilly.

Algid.

As much as you wanted to ignore it, you were freezing to the point where you could barely feel your fingers; but kept quiet about it, afraid that the handsome stranger who had approached you would decide that maybe it was time to finally call it a day and head home. Opening up to someone like that, just spilling out all your in-prisoned thoughts which you thought had been lost cause since forever; it felt freeing in a way.

Of course, nothing is easy enough to cover up for so long. What could have been a millisecond before your blood froze solid, Kyungsoo noticed your shaking limbs and again, placed his warm hand on your stiff shoulder. An action that made your heart beat so, so much faster than you wanted it to. Oh, how many times you wanted to be able to control your timid heart’s pace, but now...did you really?

‘’You look really co-’’

‘’-I don’t want you to leave, I... I mean...’’

It came out a little more desperate and hurried than you had anticipated, but you decided to ignore the embarrassment that seemed to swallow you whole after you had let your impulse take over. You looked down for a second, awaiting his denial. But when nothing came, you looked up.

Kyungsoo, the oh-so ethereal and selfless man who had sacrificed so much of his time to you, a complete stranger, was just smiling. Even under the very vague light of the moon, you could see that he had a very beautiful smile. One which made your algid state of mind warm up, which made soft and tingling butterflies spread their wings in your chest. But as much as it was genuine, it lacked in confidence, it never really reached his constantly tired and quite droopy eyes, and you just knew; that man could not have smiled often.

‘’Come’’ was all he said, taking a light hold of your wrist and pulling you up from the bench. ‘’Where are we going?’’ as much as you trusted him, the man was just a stranger, after all. He, however, just looked back at you once again, with that same endearing smile.

Kyungsoo.

Oh, how you are something.

‘’You were right, it is a lot warmer in here.’’ You said it with a warm smile on your lips, relieved that your savior hadn’t grown tired of you just yet. The waitress in the coffee shop soon arrived with your orders and left you alone.

‘’Right? I go here whenever I’m in need of a pick-me-up.’’ Ah, so it was a familiar place to him.

‘’Are you in need of a pick-me-up right now? I mean, is this why you brought me here?’’ You admit that it came off sounding a bit like an accusation, even though the question was based solely on curiosity.

‘’No, but I figured that maybe you are.’’ He laughed softly and looked into your eyes for a second, before turning towards waiter to wave.

You nodded to his statement, even though he was wrong. With Kyungsoo by your side, you didn’t feel like you needed anything else to keep you awake.

Hours flew by yet again, even faster than before. It was clear that both of you were tired and exhausted from the deprivation of sleep that followed, and to your surprise, you were the first one to hint at calling it a day.

‘’It’s dawn... oh gosh, I didn’t even notice the time!’’ You looked out through the window by your seat, and then back to Kyungsoo’s sleepy form.

‘’Yes, even though talking to you has been a true pleasure, I agree that it may be time to go home for some sleep.’’ He yawned and stood up from his seat. You wanted to do the same, but one feeling lingered, which made you sit unmoved. Would you just forget about each other now? Would you back to being strangers? Did you want that? The air, strangling you more than providing your lungs oxygen tugged at your heart, with heave suspense hanging low on your shoulders.

‘’Can I have your number?’’

Imanginary memories

Beauty is a fleeting thing

It’s slipping through my hands,

Leaving my mind.

Face, hair, colors, blending in

Until all I can see are the memories of what used to be.

When my eyes say farewell,

Will you be what stays?

When my eyes say farewell,

Will you live on in my memories of what I once could see?

This cruel, bittersweet world is no longer taking chunks of my heart,

but my ability to witness your ethereality.

These are my raw, unedited thoughts on slowly turning blind.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZICO!!

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you ~ Zico, it’s your birthday, and I just wanted to take the time to say thank you. Thank you so much for always inspiring me. A while ago, when people made fun of my ethnicity, you were the one who told me to keep going through your raps. I surely wouldn’t have survived that, because it was the hardest time of my life, the time of my life which you made so much easier to go through. Thank you.

happy birthday RAP MONSTER!!

Happy birthday Rap Monster aka Namjoon! We are all proud of you and all of your achievements, and I look forward to seeing how you and BTS evolve even further! ♡

Also, I would just like to say, thank you. To all of my role models, and to all idols who I haven’t yet heard of, and to all Idols who no longer are in the industry. Not only do you inspire so many people every day, you also help them with their days and their dreams.

It may seem strange to some people, how you can gain so much motivation and inspiration from a person whose language you don’t even speak, and although I can’t say that anyone is right or wrong in this because it’s a matter of opinions, please don’t feel weird about liking k-pop. No matter what country you come from, no matter what language you speak or what language you don’t yet know. Music is a universal language and no one should be able to say what you can and can not listen to and enjoy.

Shoutout

My limbs fall to the ground when I try to walk

My throat closes when I need to breathe

I feel bad because I get so hurt, even though I wasn’t hit by a bullet,

Even though I wasn’t cut by a knife.

Shoutout to all people who has to deal with racism,

Because being discriminated for who you are is more suffocating than actually getting strangled.

I’m having the shittiest week of my life and I’m sorry for not writing part 2 of Algid I’ll try my best to get it up as soon as I can

HAPPY MARK DAY!

Happy birthday, Mark Tuan, my inspiration and my role model. You’ve come such a long way, and I wish you only the best of the best! May your journey go smoothly, and may your skills develop even more.