There it was, the thing that took her aback for real, made her stay silent for a good long moment, running over everything he had just said again in her mind.
And suddenly she remembers the Zola’s tinny, accented voice in that bunker, ‘feeding crisis, reaping war, and when history did not cooperate, history was changed. Accidents will happen’. Jesus Christ, he had told them that Howard and Maria Stark’s death hadn’t been an accident. Not in accidents, but in pictures.
Somehow she had just never followed that thought to its logical conclusion.
Natasha took a deep, quiet breath and let it out slowly.
“I didn’t. Until now.”
“Bullshit.” ( the word is harsh, guttural, pulled up from his toes and spat out like a curse ) “Don’t lie to me, Natasha.”
[ his fingers tighten on the glass of scotch he’s holding, the ice making small little clinks as he shakes -- she’s got the nerve to lie to him, all but to his face, in light of everything and oh, why isn’t he even fucking surprised -- ]
“You’re telling me, Captain Oblivious knew but you? Oh you were in the dark about it all. The very best SHIELD could offer and you had no. idea. -- is that what you’re saying? Because you would’ve told me, right?” ( he swallowed thickly, ran his tongue over his bottom lip and not-so-silently seethed )
“Or would you pull a Rogers on me, hm? And still try to claim your precious moral high ground?”