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sum sketches

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technoblade but make it mlp

ART FROM TODAYS REQUEST STREAAAMMMM

the only files ive saved this month.... school sucks i have no time 

HOWEVER MY QUEUE IS EMPTY !! so commission me, cowards

Finished Commission for Aeryn

summer stuff uwu !!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa @pfh-mod

some noodles for ppl on discord, second one being for tartarus. His Ocs have been making appearances a lot here

heheheheheheeheheh more stuff for tar!

finished commission for tartarus !

Statement on Maaran/ask-shy-heart

Starting off, I would like to thank the people that have supported me, in getting him kicked out of a server filled with minors and then later helping me open up. It has given me the confidence to actually say something and clear up the misinformation he’s been spreading.

 I have firsthand experience dealing with Shy Heart. I am one of his victims. I was born on the 10th of August 2004, making me currently 15. I first found out about and interacted with SH when I was 11/12 years old, in 2016. I was not in any way secretive about my age at that time, mentioning it openly. At that time, I was being groomed by two men, one of them wasn’t known much at all, his name was Ryan, and the other having a platform, RDash. From what I know, RDash was also grooming multiple other minors at the same time, and he later got called out, more than once causing him to leave the platform. While I was manipulated as the young and naive child I was, into thinking that being sexual is normal and doing it with adults is also normal, I was still very uncomfortable with it most if not all of the time, however as most people who are being groomed, I was scared, i was terrified of leaving or saying something because of the power he had and because I didn't realize that me complying doesn't mean I’m the one to blame. The most prominent memory I have of SH, is when RDash messaged me saying one of his friends wanted to call. It was the middle of the night for both of us, RDash and I being in the same timezone while SH was just one hour ahead. Seeing as I feared RDash, I went along with what he asked me to do and went into a private call with Shy Heart. I didn’t realize then that RDash was trying to be a pimp and sent another one of his pedophile friends to me to help them get off. When I joined the call, I saw SH, it was just his shoulders and his face but I could tell he was shirtless and it was very very dark. He asked me what he knew RDash had successfully made me do regularly, and that is to touch myself on call. I obviously declined, SH didn’t have power over me like RDash did so I wouldn’t do shit I’m uncomfortable with to please him. For a long time he kept insisting I do something, being stubborn and persistent as hell, with me declining every time. I want to make it clear once again he knew I was a prepubescent child. 

I have a lot of repressed memories from that time so I cannot speak on any other instances, because there would be gaps, and I want my statement to be as clear and factual as possible. However what I am 100% sure of is that every time I interacted with him, he was very creepy and flirty. Around early 2018 my last groomer left me and mid 2018 I took a 2 year break from tumblr and this community. This was due to the fact that I only realised months after I was alone again that I was being manipulated and those two years I tried to focus on getting over certain triggers, interacting with people again and most importantly trying to undo at least a fraction of the manipulation. When I could finally draw mlp digitally without panic attacks, I came back to this community, I started interacting with the fanbase I had abandoned.

And then, SH started interacting with my posts. Then he started talking to me, and eventually we played WoW together. He was still mildly flirty and I remembered the incident that had happened in the past, but I was hoping he’d changed. However, the longer we played together the worse he’d get and my instant reaction was to comply, I still tried to show that I was uncomfortable multiple times and made him aware of my age but I haven’t recovered so I was yet again, scared of being blunt. I didn’t leave, because he was the only person who played WoW with me, I had no other friends in game, not to mention he was a tank and I was a healer, so dungeons were super fast. So obviously, I just dealt with the comments and continued playing with him, I dealt with his sexualisation and flirting and I even dealt with him misgendering me all the time.

He was so creepy all the time, flirting and sexualising everything. For example:

-I told him I do cosplay and showed him some. He asked about nsfw and how i should send him nsfw versions of my cosplays. I yet again reminded him I’m a minor

- I sent him a photo after a haircut. I sent this photo to multiple people, there was nothing sexual about it, and noone was creepy in any way other than him. He said if he were there he would rip off that towel and pin me against a wall. 

But there was one thing that was the worst. You know that thing groomers do where they keep their victims in super long calls so they can isolate them so their judgement is clouded and also tire them out so they would be more compliant and do things they normally wouldn't? Well when me and SH would play WoW together, we’d have calls as long as 9 hours. So yes, there was times where I didn't bother showing I’m uncomfortable and just went along with what he was saying. 

Since my exams were coming up, we stopped playing for a good few weeks, and I avoided him because I didn't wanna deal with that. I went so far as to end my WoW subscription and play on my father’s account, just so he wouldn't be able to know I’m online. Eventually I mentioned to someone I trusted that he made me uncomfortable, and that person managed to get all the info about what had been happening since I came back, and they pushed me to talk to an admin of the server he and I were both in. So yes, I am the one that got him kicked, and I didn't say anything and wanted it to be kept a secret because a lot of people were supporting him, and I’m a coward so I was scared of the backlash.

Later on, he was being really guilt trippy on Tumblr and so I vented in a server and had this amazing individual talk to me for multiple hours, helping me understand that its not my fault and so I managed to send him a short and sweet message asking him not to contact me again and I blocked him on all platforms. An hour or two after I blocked him, someone sent me the post where he allegedly attempted suicide. Now, I’m not gonna mention everything that’s suspicious about the whole suicide thing here, but you should probably take it with a grain of salt.

About all the posts he’s made trying to deflect the blame, here are my thoughts:

-A psychologist would never say  “This kind of stuff  happens, we always do bad stuff on time, we are not the only ones who does it and we get our butt slaps”. Either they are also a pedophile and don’t think it’s bad or you made that shit up. Oh yeah sometimes we prey on children haha oops? fucking no???? a psychologist would tell you that its fucked up to be attracted to children and what you did was very illegal and very fucked up.

-Stop saying you’re not as bad as RDash. Just because you’re not as bad as someone else doesn’t make what you did any less fucked up and it doesn't make it someone else’s fault. That thing where you were friends with him and it influenced you? You were an adult. You must’ve been at least 21 at that time, you can think for yourself, you had a platform just as large as him, there was no reason he could manipulate you into doing something. You were a full grown adult you should know pedophilia isn't okay.

-Stop fucking stalking me??? You responded to me finally opening up and talking to people yesterday. I said it in a server you weren’t in, a server you were kicked from. Then you made a fucking public post about it??? No. You don’t get to do that, that’s fucked up. I don’t want to associate with you in any way and I’ve already made that clear.

-And in that same post you’re trying to blame me. You’re trying to say that I started flirting and being sexual and you just went along with it. Stop trying to manipulate the truth, because either way you’re in the wrong and we’re not “both to blame”. You’re to blame. Because that’s a flat out lie. Even if I did start it, you’re an adult, you are fully matured, you are 25. A whole decade older than me and you should know its fucked up, even if what you lied about actually happened, going along with it would be fucked up, because you know you have power over me and you know its disgusting and you’re a pedophile. Regular adults would be like “hey don’t say that I’m not into you you’re a child” 

-You’re also super creepy and flirty with so many people??? children or not, I’ve heard of multiple instances where you were acting creepy towards people. I will not name them because that’s their story to tell not mine, but this isn’t a one time thing.

In conclusion. You’re a pedophile, you had a chance, you fucked it up by preying on children, no people shouldn't just let this go and forgive you and give you a chance to be on here because you're a predator.

Fuck off, stop stalking me and stop using my art you fuckwad.

tartarus got a new noodle !!! turns out hes mute so i had to draw him with my mute babe 

he go licc licc

noodle