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big tiddy soldier boy, come marching home

@shingekinomyfeelings / shingekinomyfeelings.tumblr.com

Welcome to my garbage hole of Shingeki no Kyojin feelings, fics, and fangirling! Honestly it's a Reiner blog at this point. At first it was going to Levihan, but let's be real, Reiner's ridiculous boobs and giant dick take up a lot of space, and it doesn't leave much room for anyone else.
As for me - I'm 38, a wildlife biologist/raging nerd, and a living orb of volatile emotions. You can call me Zeki.
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Reiner x reader master list

If you're here for AOT fics, I should probably mention that I'm not the most prolific fanfic writer. I write when the inspiration and energy hit me, and frankly, I have zero self discipline!

That said, even with AOT now finished, and fandom activity dwindling, I will still write and update fics as the mood takes me - but with less rampant AOT energy on my dash, my inspiration has taken a bit of a nose dive.
At its heart, though, this is still primarily a blog I made for exploring the AOT fandom, and I'd like to keep it that way, even if the AOT content becomes less frequent. For now, my fics aren't going anywhere, and neither is my silly Reiner obsession.

My fics are mostly x reader, and yes, they're basically all about Reiner. This is a very very shameless Reiner blog, I'm not gonna pretend it's not. Fluff and angst are generally my strong points, but I'm becoming a little less shy about writing smut.

I generally don't take requests, but I'm open to... suggestions? If you wanna bounce headcanons around or thirst dump or just talk about Reiner, my ask box is always open. Don't be shy! I'm nothing but a doofus, I promise.

Finally, I'm doing this for fun and because I enjoy it, so please don't yell at me about whatever thing you didn't like in my writing. Comments absolutely do make my day, though, and reblogs are so very appreciated and encouraged, no matter how long ago the fic was published.

one shots.

short and sweet - or, short and upsetting!

sfw

preservation (drama/fluff) - an injury during training leads to a bit of bickering and a bit of a confession. ~1600 words.

too much, not enough (hurt/comfort) - Reiner talks with you in the midst of a depressive episode. ~450 words.

nsfw

Shh (smut, pwp) - Reiner is a tease in the best possible way

multi-chapter fics.

longer stories, but still in bite-sized chapters. updates happen when they happen, I'm sorry.

sfw

nsfw

headcanons.

you can't prove I'm not right.

sex headcanons - pre-timeskip Reiner vs post-timeskip

misc nsfw musings: vocal | too sweet to talk mean

imagines.

fun thoughts.

lies Reiner tells himself | flirty sparring gone horribly wrong | Reiner whose SO is afraid of the dentist (request-ish)

character analysis.

overanalyzing and wildly speculating as god intended.

on the idea of Reiner having a separate 'evil/cruel' personality part 1, and then part 2

not Reiner fics???

sometimes I pick on other characters.

misc weird shit.

The Saga of the Cursed Reiner Bot: A Love Story in 8 Parts - everyone's favorite slow motion trainwreck from when these AI chat bots were still an exciting novelty

#attack on titan fanfiction#aot fanfiction#aot fanfics#reiner braun#reiner#reiner braun x reader#reiner x reader#my writing
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hello my name is Very tiny flying insect i see you’ve got an uncovered beverage outdoors. Can i fall into it and kill myself please please please please please please please please please please

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sex is cool but have you ever had someone give you so much emotional safety that you were able to break down & process trauma right in front of them without fear of being judged or ridiculed?

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Wait wait, imagine Reiner, in one of his more lucid mental states during cadet training, telling Bertholt confidently and almost flippantly that his obvious attachment to you doesn't really jeopardize the mission, because when they find the Coordinate and return to Marley he can simply bring you with them - no heartbreak needed!

Bertholt anxiously, but rightfully, points out the cruelty of bringing you to Liberio to live like an animal in a cage, under constant surveillance, and with Reiner's own family never able to see you as more than an unclean devil, regarding you as a conquest Reiner brought home for amusement. Reiner is immediately at a loss for words, and Bertholt thinks maybe it'll help Reiner face reality, but all it actually does is deepen Reiner's subconscious need to believe he really is just a soldier, pushing him further and further into his comforting delusion :c

#lol this has gotten a lot of likes in the last couple of weeks for some reason#I'll be honest I'm already starting to miss talking about Reiner on here
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I tried to start watching Dungeon Meshi, but the gif sets and screenshots on here did not really convey to me that it's mostly about discussing cooking monsters and making stuff from monsters, and I honestly kept tuning out those conversations thinking they were a minor thing, then realized that they're the bulk of the show and didn't finish episode 2.

​It's cute and the animation is great, but it's not the show for me :c

#I was expecting Slayers-style adventure#not basically a surreal cooking show
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I know it's kind of funny that this is what I'm popping back in to say just days after announcing I'm no longer doing personal/emotional engagement on tumblr, but bear with me a second

After re-watching Encanto the other night, I went on a very long train of thought about how seriously it fucks a person up to grow up being the not-good child who no one is ever proud of and having your siblings' successes used against you - like, that's how you end up with people like me who are physically uncomfortable saying good things about ourselves and immediately cry if someone else does.

I know it can be alarming when someone you care about has zero self worth. But you know what, I've always hated the phrase 'no one can love you until you love yourself' for a number of reasons. What suddenly occurred to me though is, "'do people who say that to their friends actually not hear the direct implication in that being 'I don't love you and likely no one else does?' 'I can't love you until you're 'fixed?'"

I can agree it's harder to LET many people love you when you hate yourself, but do people who say that genuinely not realize that they're saying 'you're unlovable as you are?'

#mental health shit#toxic positivity#if anyone tries to start some stupid fight with me about this I'm literally blocking you by the way
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announcement-ish...?

So, I've been arguing with myself about something for a couple of months, but I realized I haven't been asking myself the real key question here: does being on tumblr actually still contribute to my happiness?

The answer is, 'not really, for the most part.'

There are certainly people on here I'm fond of, and things I enjoy reading and reblogging, and some sweet memories.

There are also a lot of things about tumblr as a whole that stress me out or straight up piss me off, and things that dredge up memories I'd thought would stop being bitter but haven't.

Coming back here and starting this blog in 2021 helped me shake off an incredibly horrible time in my life and start to recover my personality that had been totally buried under depression for several years. It even helped me figure out new things about myself, and it got me back into creative writing! I could never regret it, even if things did fizzle out in the end.

I met so many people, too! Some amazing writers and artists, and people I plain old really enjoyed being around.

Some of them are still here and still engage with me, and a lot more aren't and don't.

At least one of them has openly expressed regret for ever considering me a friend.

Well, fuck, that doesn't feel good, but you know what? It would have gutted me a few years back, and the fact that it doesn't now is a nice piece of proof that I've gone a long way in putting myself back together.

Of course I'd prefer it if no one else regrets being my friend, even if that friendship ended painfully in some way or another - but honestly, even if anyone does, I can tell you truthfully that I don't regret any of you spending a time in my life.

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So what am I actually getting to here eh??

No, I'm not saying farewell, and I'm not deleting this account, but I am stepping back with the realization that as a platform for socializing and making friends, tumblr is deeply frustrating, and without a tight group of regulars with a shared interest, this place feels downright isolating. More often than not, I kind of just feel lonelier when I spend time here than when I don't.

I'm not calling this a hiatus, because there's every chance of change, right? I'll still pop on here now and then and reblog certain things, and maybe post some Reiner stuff occasionally. But for now, I'm drawing away from tumblr in a personal and emotional sense. This isn't my "place" and I can't make it be.

Anyone reading this who doesn't, you know, wish they'd never know me, is so incredibly welcome to hit my DMs. I'll exchange Discord or Telegram or even Skype info with anybody who wants an extremely talkative friend.

I hope being here continues being something positive for you guys for a long time.

#one more reblog#I might come back when I'm able to look at tumblr without feeling an emotion of any kind
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shingekinomyfeelings

announcement-ish...?

So, I've been arguing with myself about something for a couple of months, but I realized I haven't been asking myself the real key question here: does being on tumblr actually still contribute to my happiness?

The answer is, 'not really, for the most part.'

There are certainly people on here I'm fond of, and things I enjoy reading and reblogging, and some sweet memories.

There are also a lot of things about tumblr as a whole that stress me out or straight up piss me off, and things that dredge up memories I'd thought would stop being bitter but haven't.

Coming back here and starting this blog in 2021 helped me shake off an incredibly horrible time in my life and start to recover my personality that had been totally buried under depression for several years. It even helped me figure out new things about myself, and it got me back into creative writing! I could never regret it, even if things did fizzle out in the end.

I met so many people, too! Some amazing writers and artists, and people I plain old really enjoyed being around.

Some of them are still here and still engage with me, and a lot more aren't and don't.

At least one of them has openly expressed regret for ever considering me a friend.

Well, fuck, that doesn't feel good, but you know what? It would have gutted me a few years back, and the fact that it doesn't now is a nice piece of proof that I've gone a long way in putting myself back together.

Of course I'd prefer it if no one else regrets being my friend, even if that friendship ended painfully in some way or another - but honestly, even if anyone does, I can tell you truthfully that I don't regret any of you spending a time in my life.

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shingekinomyfeelings

So what am I actually getting to here eh??

No, I'm not saying farewell, and I'm not deleting this account, but I am stepping back with the realization that as a platform for socializing and making friends, tumblr is deeply frustrating, and without a tight group of regulars with a shared interest, this place feels downright isolating. More often than not, I kind of just feel lonelier when I spend time here than when I don't.

I'm not calling this a hiatus, because there's every chance of change, right? I'll still pop on here now and then and reblog certain things, and maybe post some Reiner stuff occasionally. But for now, I'm drawing away from tumblr in a personal and emotional sense. This isn't my "place" and I can't make it be.

Anyone reading this who doesn't, you know, wish they'd never know me, is so incredibly welcome to hit my DMs. I'll exchange Discord or Telegram or even Skype info with anybody who wants an extremely talkative friend.

I hope being here continues being something positive for you guys for a long time.

#scheduled reblog
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