Breathing Steady
A/N: Tbh, that title does not match the story at all but whatever ;-; This is pretty short, but, I didn’t really know what to do, so ;-;
The vacant lot seemed barren and empty as soon as Ponyboy left and the fire went out.
Johnny Cade sat on the car seat, staring at the stars. He was previously sleeping, but he knew we wasn’t going to get back to sleep now. The young greaser shut his eyes tightly, dearly wishing that the fourteen-year-old could come back or something.
He just didn’t want to be alone with his thoughts. The brown-eyed boy took a deep breath, which was a lot more shaky and broken than he had intended—not that he could really do anything about it at this point.
Worthless piece of trash.
Your dad should just kill you already.
The gang would be so glad, you know?
They wouldn’t have an annoying wimp following them around anymore.
Johnny shut his eyes tightly as his breathing started getting heavy. He felt as though the world was going to crash around him, that he would die right then and there.
Anxiety pattered through his veins as he curled up into a ball, basically giving up on trying to get his breathing at a normal rate.
“It’s never g-gonna get b-better, is it?” The raven-haired boy asked himself as he lifted his shaking hand to wipe his eyes, since tears had started falling from them.
He always remembered hearing people say it would get better; Ponyboy always told him that, too. But, he just couldn’t believe them. It all seemed like total bullshit to him.
Everything was going down from here, he knew it for sure.
After all, who would bother even a second glance on a good-for-nothing grease?