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Anonymous asked:
bpd vinnie is soooo real omg so i was just wondering where it says it in canon? :o
these are from the Princeton tapes!!!
(in order: cold turkey (b), PJs, Morning, Jersey devil pt2, the stockton exchange)
I underlined some of them to point out specific wording too. like his mania!!!! he tends to experience highs and lows and he's constantly shifting around in what emotions he's feeling. During a manic episode, ppl with BPD might experience an extremely elevated or irritable mood. They may also experience having a lot of thoughts all at once and talking super fast.
In some of these I included his interactions w Roger, When Vinnie met Roger he didn't have Jeff or Evan anymore since they disappeared on him, and when Roger appears with answers or as close to answers as he can get Vinnie latches on IMMEDIATELY. He was so desperate for any kind of friend, any kind of interaction and he got it with Roger. You can see that Vinnie is happy when he's with him, and his headspace is clearly in a good place.
But the moment Roger leaves him alone, EVEN IF IT WAS JUST FOR 20 MINUTES, Vinnie could not TAKE IT. it was unexpected, he didn't know where he was, he had never been there before. He felt completely abandoned by Roger and you can see as the tapes go on how this affects how Vinnie treats him and how he thinks about Roger.
I think in this moment Vinnie started to split on Roger.
this is from camera obscura
Vinnie is now only convinced that Roger is exploiting him, and that Roger isn't that same guy who he met in the beginning. He can barely even stand talking to Roger at the end of the series, and it was honestly for Rogers benefit. He didn't want Roger to go through what he went through. (sucks that habit got him anyways)
so yyyyyeaahhhhh BPD VINNIE is REAL. AND NO ONE!! CAN TAKE THIS FROM ME
HII I SAW THIS IN THE TAGS AND I JUST WANNA SAY I ABSOLUTELYYYYYY AGREE WITH THIS!!!!!!!
I think that channel Vinnie absolutely does, he has so many moments where you can just see in the way he talks to the guys or how he gets with HABIT when habit tells him everything he wants to hear, or how he gets when the guys don't react the way he wants them too. You can SEE His mood shift fast, even from the start of the series you can see it especially if you yourself experience it (like meeee)
I feel like I definitely project onto vinnie alot so I felt a little nervous to say that about channel Vinnie bc sometimes I feel like I make things up in my head HEELP BUT IM SO GLAD U AGREE!!!! makes me feel a little less crazy
aha well im glad to be some support here
frankly i think anyone assuming channel vin isn’t nd/mentally ill in some way would just be doing a great disservice to his characterization
like the guy very clearly has something going on upstairs. we come to understand some of that through the lens of him being the voyeur, but i think his voyeurism is just one aspect of a much larger issue regarding his personality and mental health. i think his entire story arc paints a clear picture representing what it’s like to nd/mentally ill, even without him being explicitly diagnosed with anything. i think that should be noteworthy to more people lol
the tapes are meant to be revealing of some truths regarding channel vin imo. princeton vin being clearly and undeniably described as having a personality disorder and substance abuse struggles is supposed to cast a shadow of doubt onto what channel vin has presented of himself in his own narrative, there’s no doubt in my mind abt that
i could go on about this forever but i’ll spare u the essay for now 😂 all in all bpd vinny is very real to me too, u are certainly not alone
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Anonymous asked:
bpd vinnie is soooo real omg so i was just wondering where it says it in canon? :o
these are from the Princeton tapes!!!
(in order: cold turkey (b), PJs, Morning, Jersey devil pt2, the stockton exchange)
I underlined some of them to point out specific wording too. like his mania!!!! he tends to experience highs and lows and he's constantly shifting around in what emotions he's feeling. During a manic episode, ppl with BPD might experience an extremely elevated or irritable mood. They may also experience having a lot of thoughts all at once and talking super fast.
In some of these I included his interactions w Roger, When Vinnie met Roger he didn't have Jeff or Evan anymore since they disappeared on him, and when Roger appears with answers or as close to answers as he can get Vinnie latches on IMMEDIATELY. He was so desperate for any kind of friend, any kind of interaction and he got it with Roger. You can see that Vinnie is happy when he's with him, and his headspace is clearly in a good place.
But the moment Roger leaves him alone, EVEN IF IT WAS JUST FOR 20 MINUTES, Vinnie could not TAKE IT. it was unexpected, he didn't know where he was, he had never been there before. He felt completely abandoned by Roger and you can see as the tapes go on how this affects how Vinnie treats him and how he thinks about Roger.
I think in this moment Vinnie started to split on Roger.
this is from camera obscura
Vinnie is now only convinced that Roger is exploiting him, and that Roger isn't that same guy who he met in the beginning. He can barely even stand talking to Roger at the end of the series, and it was honestly for Rogers benefit. He didn't want Roger to go through what he went through. (sucks that habit got him anyways)
so yyyyyeaahhhhh BPD VINNIE is REAL. AND NO ONE!! CAN TAKE THIS FROM ME
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no one gets Vinnie and habits relationship like I do and everyday I log onto this app and see proof of this HEELPPP y'all really think Vinnie is that scared of habit don't you 😞😞 Vinnie could insult habit all he wants and say he's not scared of him and he can easily knock habit down and all you people do is BABY HIM HELPPPPP. oh my god he's a grown man capable of making his own decisions. please I'm sick of this. Vinnie only acts like he doesn't know shit for the viewers sake.
people when a grown man is put into a situation he got himself in: NOOOOO MY PRECIOUS UWU SOFT BOY BABY!!!! 😭😭😭😢😢😢 HE DID NO WRONG!!!
Vinnie, who has killed people before and continues to help habit kill people, he's deranged and also way smarter than ppl give him credit for:
I'm just so sick of seeing people act like grown men can't make decisions for themselves I'm SO sick of it. just leave me alone
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celticpyro
Please watch this.
robert-the-redhead-lover
Shit, I’ve only seen stills of this.
wereralph
the photoset really didn’t do this scene justice im yelling
this is one of those rare cases where the dub adds deliciousness to the source material
Honestly him pouring out all his pencils onto the desk and looking at the guy expectantly was actually such a power move
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HABITS FOREVER WEED BROWNIE
(og comic by @punkitt-is-here )
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Alex Kralie,,,,
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This account is not dead. I just posted a new Slenderverse art after a year. My artstyle has changed. A lot of things has changed... But I'm back. I guess.. See ya around ✌🏻
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Anonymous asked:
good evening. my best wishes to you, and habit’s recovery.
i also see you made cookies. do you like to bake?
Ah. A question about me, hm? I’m flattered - no one else usually gives a shit.
Say, why don’t I tell you all a little bit about myself? I’ve got the time to type.
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Hundreds of lives ago, our mother taught Michael how to bake when we were ten years old. Michael got really good at it, so I also decided to pick it up too. I would practice making bread in the middle of the night and rob him of sleep so he couldn’t practice during the day. I thought it would make me feel as good as it did for him, especially if I was better than him at it. Well…
After dying in that life, we start all over again somewhere new as always. One summer- we're about 15 years old and just wandering aimlessly on the beach while we talked and enjoyed the sunshine. Then we started bickering over something so stupid I didn't bother to remember what it was. We're just throwing around petty insults and then I say, "I bet you couldn't bake a cake even if the only ingredient was shit."
We stop walking and Michael goes, "well duh, I don't even know how to bake." I didnt say anything for a moment, and Michael continues humorously, "but I bet I could still bake a better shit cake than you!”
I couldn't keep up the bickering after that...even though Michael remained cheerful, I just felt this horrible, aching sadness; like a hole had opened up inside me.
We went home without further argument.
Just the life prior Michael had been an amazing baker in his own right. It made him happy. I may have hated it before, but it was true. Now he knew nothing, straight back to square one, completely unaware of this fact.
Except I knew, and I felt terrible because...well, I could still remember how to bake. I've never forgotten. But Michael would have to relearn everything, including the things that helped us both survive the darkness we were stuck in.
How awful is that? Never being allowed to keep even the most innocent of memories, only for me to be the one stuck with them all. What am I supposed to do with that? Let it all go to waste?
15 year old me was pretty fucked up by this awareness for sure. I kept going over it in my head trying to make sense of things, and what I concluded was this:
My job is to protect Michael's happiness, not rob him of it for myself and do nothing with it. I felt like I stole something precious from Michael that day. I was a selfish fool; being “better” at Michael never actually made me happier in the grand scheme of things. So…
I decided I'd continue baking, from that life onwards, in honor of the memory Michael lost. I’ll hold onto it for him. I had the power to make him a little happier, even though I felt like I could only bring him pain.
Despite the tall cunt and despite my own destructive tendencies, I still managed to leave a tray of Michaels favorite treats by our bedside at least once a week.
So you could say I enjoy baking…but only because I know how much it makes other people feel better. I get nothing else out of it. It’s taken a long time to not be bitter, and I’ve done a lot of fucked shit because of it, but I’ve learned how to channel it into something positive now I think.
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Anyways, that’s my story about the baking thing. I have many stories, but I should probably leave it at that for the moment.
Habit looks to have stopped shaking so much, but still hasn’t touched the cookies. Rude I say - my cookies are freaking awesome. I’m going to put my phone down and try talking to him again soon. -P
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