my last memory with you is the bus station. in the quiet hum of the bus, our fingers intertwined, creating a delicate dance of connection. Time seemed to pause as the world blurred, leaving only the warmth of our touch and the unspoken intimacy that echoed through the shared silence.
@rbhvleo // roberto ferri // mothering by ainslie hogarth // rainer maria rilke // ? // planet of love by richard siken // a self portrait in letters by anne sexton // indian summer by ron hicks
After 5 days of sick leave. Here we go again.
Hello December!
i'm worn out
my doctor has advised me to take sick leave till December 2, therefore I'm on it now. I'm not this person. I'm not weak; in fact, I'm too energetic to handle things, but this time, I feel like I'm about to give up. My work environment is extremely demanding and taxing, and I believe that my TL is underappreciating of all of my efforts. Despite my best efforts, I received a 2.72/5 on my third-month evaluation from him. Still my sister encouraged me to keep trying and to give it my all. My family gives me constant solace.
my hectic schedule has probably contributed to my recent weakness because I work graveyard shift and must go to several errands like as Manila, QC, and Subic in order to complete important tasks. Although enjoyable, yet my body is tiring.
i also miss going to my usuals from my time in Laguna. My family and friends are missed. I miss home. I don't feel at ease.
as for me, these are some of my best pictures. i may appear to be doing well to you all, but I'm not. Send hugs.
Gusto ko na mag-samgyup. Wala ako maaya.
Kapag off, di na dapat lumalabas ng apartment. Magastos.
Omsim 😂
Kamusta araw mooooo
Fine. I’m travelling tomorrow.
Sana sa susunod na pagpunta ko sa baguio, sa tamang tao naman. 🙏
whatever was left, that was ours for a while.
sunrise - louise glück
““We all must learn to be happy with being alone; that is when things begin to change.” - Tyler Joseph”
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I'd say I'm in the midst of moving phase. Teardrops of sadness and joy were so usual for me nowadays- in my apartment, at work (which I usually have to learn on my own), eating, and having fun on my own. I'm in a phase where I go to the supermarket alone, eat alone, go to laundry alone, and buy everything I want by myself. Lonely yet flourishing.
Being an engineer in my field is a huge accomplishment for me. Most of the time, I need to be smart and knowledgeable, which is thrilling. More to the point where my co-engineers really have a kind of life where they go to the bar (which I refer to them as bar boys and bar girls cuz they were from i think an elite class). I’m having fun here tho and most of the time I’m going with them.
Again, i’m moving forward towards growth but I miss you.
i miss you
Self improvement is great but ultimately? you have to accept your self. Yes you can eat better, exercise more, read more, set boundaries, love your self, but it all comes down to this. Some days you won’t have the energy to do any of these things. And you’ll look in the mirror and think that this is not enough. That’s a lie. The biggest love for self is to live slowly. To rest. To really rest. Have a nap. Eat what makes you feel good. Read if you want to. Embrace yourself and accept that you cannot and will not be ever be perfect. Accept that you are good enough. You don’t need to keep busy all the time. you don’t need to go out all the time and post on instagram. You don’t need to journal if you don’t want to. You don’t need to make art if you don’t want to. Breathe, give yourself grace and compassion. Give yourself the love and tenderness you so badly need. Be gentle with yourself. You are trying and it is good enough. You are good enough.
Lines.
I can't figure out what fate may bring me. I'm just going with the flow without considering my feelings.
Everyone, I'm still in hurt cuz of someone. Thank you for bearing with me, beatiful people.
// my life lately
yeah its been years before i write like this, i missed my previous acct (all my memories were there).
Adulting doesn't go along with my desires, or im just choosy picking the right company to go into. There were a lot of offers and some of them are from NCR. I don't have any idea what to choose anymore.
anyways, I am liking the people surrounding me, they really always giving me a hot different shot and thrill
Good eve beautiful people! I'm back.
I’m nervous
