i don’t burn bridges i blow them up
starting a collection
The Signs and Porcelain II:
Aries: The holy things that make you yourself are leaking from your shell, spilling from the hairline fractures from a fall when you were little. You flow thick and heavy.
Taurus: What does it mean for two things to be the same? Are you the same as the person you were before? Do the stitches hold? How much of itself is a quilt?
Gemini: A pair of binoculars over the field. Light showers twist the wheat but the air smells electric. There is terrible work to be done, terrible work indeed.
Cancer: Been a while since you've had dreams, hasn't it? Makes one wonder where your mind goes when you sleep. Surprising, really, that you find it in the same place every morning.
Leo: A hotel ballroom. Plastic folding tables set with plastic meals. The sound of footsteps. No windows. Here sits the harvest of what strange crops you've sewn.
Virgo: Dreams of vinyl and chrome. Dreams of a place where everything is spotless and clean. Dreams of a better time preserved in amber, the bad parts carved away like fat from meat.
Libra: Salt on the soil of time. Rusting tiger shells. Ancient empty rifles, marching songs like the cries of foxes. The woods were always like this.
Scorpio: Closing time. Skin covered by working clothes. Night like an old friend, a mutual understanding of things that can only be felt and never seen.
Ophiuchus: A bike you never owned, the alley behind a house you remember. A sensation you never felt. How is any of this here? A letter with the wrong address.
Sagittarius: Memory like lead. A mind off-balance. Memory like a gravity well, pulling all choice towards its center, bending every train of thought. The scent of sea-salt air, roses, and fresh laundry.
Capricorn: Words of faith and fealty through dead pixels. Pressed flush to something holy. Words of welcome to a place only trespassed, hollow in their warmth.
Aquarius: A hole in the vacant lot. Cool air with a hint of something familiar that you cannot place. A compulsion to delve but a sickness in the stomach. Depth means little here.
Pisces: There is nothing left for you here, now that the well has run dry. The sun beats heavy on a place where the light weaves its subtle lies.
Reblog this is your muse has straight up actually died
Optional: they’ve returned from the dead
So about the inactivity. Short version is I’m not abandoning this blog but you can find me being a lot more active on @auel-neider. Long version is under the cut.
misc akeshu doodles posted on twitter
"Let's go back..."
Happy birthday to a special boi
𝐄𝐗𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒
feel free to change any pronouns or subjects (or reverse). tw for murder, emotionally manipulative language and mentions of death. mostly angst ( if not completely ).
- ‘ you killed her! ’
- ‘ i don’t deserve you! ’
- ‘ this is the end! ’
- ‘ i hate you! ’
- ‘ you left me! ’
- ‘ you can’t tell him! ’
- ‘ it’s too late! ’
- ‘ don’t hang up! ’
- ‘ you’re wasting my time! ’
- ‘ you’re a horrible person! ’
- ‘ you should’ve left me! ’
- ‘ don’t leave me! ’
- ‘ stay right there! ’
- ‘ i wish i’ve never met you! ’
- ‘ leave me alone! ’
- ‘ you’re the worst! ’
- ‘ there’s no where to run! ’
- ‘ i can’t believe you! ’
- ‘ you were my everything! ’
- ‘ i still love you! ’
- ‘ i can’t forgive you! ’
- ‘ i can’t love you! ’
- ‘ you forgot about me! ’
- ‘ you did this to me! ’
- ‘ you made me like this! ’
- ‘ don’t say that to me! ’
- ‘ he’s gone! ’
- ‘ shut up! ’
- ‘ you weren’t any better! ’
- ‘ you were all i had! ’
- ‘ this is all your fault! ’
- ‘ get out! ’
- ‘ i trusted you! ’
- ‘ enough! ’
- ‘ you’re not getting away with this! ’
- ‘ i swear i’m fine! ’
- ‘ you need me! ’
- ‘ i’m not good enough for you! ’
- ‘ you scared me! ’
- ‘ go on without me! ’
- ‘ you’re all i have! ’
- ‘ you’ll be okay! ’
- ‘ go away! ’
- ‘ i’m talking to you! ’
- ‘ i won’t fall here! ’
- ‘ i don’t ever want to see you! ’
- ‘ i’m sick of you! ’
- ‘ i was always your second choice! ’
- ‘ answer me! ’
- ‘ stand up! ’
- ‘ let me go! ’
- ‘ i can’t help it! ’
- ‘ don’t raise your voice at me! ’
- ‘ i don’t need you! ’
- ‘ this isn’t real! ’
- ‘ i don’t need anyone! ’
- ‘ listen to me! ’
- ‘ i should’ve left long ago! ’
- ‘ you took everything from me! ’
- ‘ leave! ’
- ‘ i’ll kill you! ’
- ‘ don’t ever come here ever again! ’
- ‘ go! ’
- ‘ you don’t understand! ’
- ‘ it was all a lie! ’
- ‘ i’ve seen enough! ’
- ‘ you’re so annoying! ’
- ‘ talk to me! ’
- ‘ listen to me! ’
- ‘ stop right there! ’
- ‘ get lost! ’
- ‘ just do it! ’
- ‘ i should’ve never trusted you! ’
- ‘ there was never anything! ’
- ‘ i can’t protect you! ’
- ‘ i’m a failure! ’
- ‘ kill me! kill me now! ’
- ‘ no! keep your eyes open! ’
- ‘ don’t make me come in there! ’
- ‘ you promised me! ’
- ‘ wake up! ’
- ‘ i just need some time to think! ’
- ‘ let me explain! ’
- ‘ i’m leaving! ’
- ‘ sit down! ’
- ‘ i need you! ’
- ‘ you’re a disappointment! ’
- ‘ stop running! ’
- ‘ we can’t fight any longer! ’
- ‘ you deserved it! ’
- ‘ we were perfect together! ’
- ‘ i can’t do this anymore! ’
- ‘ no more lies! ’
- ‘ move on! ’
- ‘ don’t look back! ’
- ‘ i can’t do this again! ’
- ‘ save her! ’
- ‘ i never loved you! ’
- ‘ be strong! ’
- ‘ i won’t cry! ’
- ‘ i won’t mourn you! ’
- ‘ you’re lying! ’
- ‘ not this way! ’
- ‘ hold on! ’
- ‘ wait! ’
- ‘ time’s up! ’
- ‘ there’s nothing to say! ’
- ‘ you were meant to be mine! ’
- ‘ i’ve been worried sick! ’
- ‘ i’m sorry! ’
- ‘ help me! ’
- ‘ say it, now! ’
Musical Asks
Send a symbol for a song that…
🌻 reminds my muse of summertime 🎀 reminds my muse of the holidays ❤️ reminds my muse of someone they love 🧍 reminds my muse of your muse 😎 reminds my muse of a friend 👩👧👦 reminds my muse of a family member 🙍 reminds my muse of someone they would rather forget ⌛ reminds my muse of a time in their life they would rather forget 🤗 reminds my muse of a happy memory 😔 reminds my muse of a sad memory 🏥 reminds my muse of a certain place 📢 my muse plays loudly 🕺 my muse loves to dance to 🏎️ my muse loves to drive to 😃 my muse listens to when they’re happy 😭 my muse listens to when they’re sad 🌺 my muse listens to when they’re in love 🥀 my muse listens to when they’re heartbroken 🔙 my muse listens to when they’re feeling nostalgic 🍹 my muse listens to when they’re drinking 💭 my muse listens to when they’re thinking about your muse 👿 my muse listens to when they’re angry 😰 my muse listens to when they’re anxious 🕯️ my muse listens to when they need to calm down 🧒🏽 my muse loved as a child/teenager 🎵 is my muse’s go-to karaoke song 😬 is a guilty pleasure of my muse’s 🎫 my muse has seen performed live (or would like to) 💒 my muse would like played at their wedding ⚰️ my muse would like played at their funeral 💬 my muse knows all of the words to 👎 my muse dislikes 👔 my muse plays while they work 🧹 my muse plays when doing housework 🛏️ my muse plays when having sex 🏃 my muse plays when working out
Lyric Starters
‘You say, you want your freedom’ ‘But listen carefully, to the sound’ ‘Thunder, only happens when it’s raining‘ ‘Players, only love you when they’re playing’ ‘They say women, they will come and they will go’ ‘I run the candy store’ ‘My whole life has changed since you came in‘ ‘I’m so in love’ ‘You make my life complete’ ‘You are so sweet; no one competes‘ ‘Glad you came into my life’ ‘She make me breakfast almost every morning’ ‘What you know ‘bout love?‘ ‘I’ll tell you everything‘ ‘I got what you need’ ‘All I need is your trust’ ‘I told you once, don’t make me tell you twice‘ ‘I needed you to stay’ ‘My love, where are you?’ ‘I surrender’ ‘No one will win this time’ ‘I just want you back’
What A Life! Starters
‘Why do you push?’ ‘Did you forget about me?’ ‘Doesn’t make sense from where I stand’ ‘It’s a fine line between pleasure and pain’ ‘You’ve done it once you can do it again’ ‘Don’t go walking out that door’ ‘I’m so nervous’ ‘What can I do? What can I say?’ ‘Happy just to see you with a friend now and then’ ‘Still looking for the right kinda friend’ ‘There are things inside things that can’t be denied’ ‘I’m still rootin’ for you, honey’ ‘Need to be sedated it’s almost daylight’ ‘I was born and brought up wrong’ ‘They tried to make me a bloody fool’ ‘You are always looking at me’ ‘Please don’t stare’ ‘I know what your game is’ ‘Got burnt in the sun, didn’t have any fun’ ‘Too many reason to be dead’ ‘Too many things you shouldn’t have said’ ‘Only time will tell’ ‘Did you ever expect such a struggle and strife’
Lyric Starters
‘I could take you for a ride‘ ‘If you feeling like you need a little bit of company, you met me at the perfect time‘ ‘You want me, I want you, baby’ ‘You’re my starlight’ ‘I need you all night’ ‘I believe that you’re for me, I feel it in our energy’ ‘And even if I wanted to, I can’t stop’ ‘I’m stuck at the gate‘ ‘I fell in love with a girl’ ‘I love the way you turn me on’ ‘I’m gonna hallucinate’ ‘I started playing your games’ ‘I'ma keep showin’ my ass if I wanna’ ‘Hang up the phone on they ass, block the number’ ‘They probably told you I’m scared, but I’m ready, though’ ‘I’m fuckin’ her rough, I’m her daddy’ ‘She told me she wanna have kids’ ‘I broke her heart into pieces’ ‘Take my hand’ ‘This is what I wanna do’ ‘Let’s have some fun’ ‘What I want is me and you’ ‘I want you in my room’ ‘Let’s spend the night together’ ‘I want the money, fuck the fame’ ‘She steady screamin’ out ‘daddy’’
What does my muse’s voice sound like to you?
Describe the accent, tone, and / or pitch! I just want to know what my muse sounds like to yours!
Mindful Muse Questions
On anon or not, send MINDFUL + a number for the muse to answer!
- What’s the best thing that’s happened to you recently?
- What’s the worst thing that’s happened to you recently?
- What are you grateful for?
- What are you proud of?
- Who was the last person that you helped? How did you help them?
- What’s your best childhood memory?
- If you had the chance for a ‘do-over’ in life, what would you do differently?
- If you could travel anywhere, where would you go and why?
- If you could only keep five of your possessions, which would they be?
- What was the last thing to make you smile?
- What was the last show of kindness that you’ve seen?
- What have you done recently that was creative?
- What’s something that you know this year, that you didn’t know last year?
- What kind of person are you?
- Whom have you connected with recently?
- How do you take care of your mind and body?
- What have you done well at recently?
- What are you looking forward to?
- What are your current strengths and opportunities?
- What would you do if you knew that you couldn’t fail?
- When was the last time that you did something for the first time?
- What or whom lights you up?
- If you could be an animal, which would you choose and why?
- Who are you when you’re at your best?
- Do you like who you are right now?
- When was the last time that you laughed?
- What is a lesson that you’ve learned the hard way?
- What do you really want from life?
- How meaningful is your life?
- Do you have a personal mission?
- How would you describe the perfect day?
- Whom do you look up to?
- Do you believe in giving second chances?
- What legacy do you want people to remember about you when you’re gone?
- Whom do you currently feel closest to?