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I blog about Malec and dream of a happy world
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Our Forsaken Sins, ch 6/8

Chapter Summary: In which Magnus searches for answers, Alec suffers the consequences, and Asmodeus meets his match.

Fic Summary:

“I had to,” Alec insists. “I know I hurt him. By the Angel, I know, and I hate it, but I had to. He was so broken, I had to do something, I had to fix it. And I can’t tell him about the deal, because that was part of it. That was one of the conditions. Magnus can’t know.”

“No.” The look Catarina gives him makes Alec’s chest tighten in fear. “Alec, Magnus doesn’t have any memories of you anymore. He has no idea who you are.”

***

In which Magnus removes his memories of Alec, Alec swallows the pain of Magnus’ obliviousness to their shared past, and the devil is in the details (literally).

(AKA the canon-divergent 3x19 rewrite, because it disappointed me.)

Our Forsaken Sins - Chapter 6 - notcrypticbutcoy - Shadowhunters (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
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Thanks for the tag @jamiesfootball

Last song: https://open.spotify.com/track/2UCL6SpAhrvlEFvS0TbgNw?si=8bcf77544fc64c25

Currently watching: The Mentalist, most recently.

Three ships/dynamics: Roy/Jamie as per, my fave Malec writer (@notcrypticbutcoy) recently posted a new fic so very happily down that rabbit hole again, and the (platonic, familial) dynamic between Don and Charlie Eppes has been keeping me up at night.

Favourite colour: Blue, specifically Pantone 655.

Currently consuming: Chicken tikka and rice.

First ship: Also done that before so also changing it to Past Beloved Character: My Stiles Stilinski brainrot is due a resurgence. It comes around every 6-8 months.

Relationship status: Single.

Last movie: The Sound of Music

Currently working on: A gift fic for @altschmerzes centred on a hyper-specific The Mentalist/MacGyver Crossover AU.

Tagging if so inclined: @sighonaraa @catalogercas and those I've already mentioned.

#that is very sweet thank you#I hope you’re enjoying it!#and there might be another new one or two in the works 👀#anotherlongstoryshort
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End of the Year Fic Recs!!!

thank you @echo-bleu for tagging me! <3

I adore this as a game because I love reccing fics (and really should do it more often because So. Much. Good.Fic). This is going to be all shadowhunters I'm afraid though because I am still very much in the shadowhunters brainrot stage and haven't read much of anything else. (Also, sorry to those I haven't left a comment for yet, I WILL, spoons have just been low this year...) Also, I'll try to keep it to one rec per author because there are so many wonderful authors, but definitely go check the other fics of these people (if you haven't already) they're all excellent.

Recommend up to 5 series or multi-chapter fics from 2023 that everyone should read (multi-year WIPs count, if the last update was in 2023).

  • Running from the Night by @to-the-stars-writing. My forever fic spouse and the fic I reread themost this year goes to the fantastic, angsty Alec goes to live in a small village to get away from the Clave because the poor dude is traumatized fic from to-the-stars. This fic is my fics spouse (yes I got @to-the-stars-writing's permission to marry this fic) and I love, love, love it so much.
  • Flames to Embers by @notcrypticbutcoy: teenage!Alec is poofed into the timeline of his older self and it is lovely, sad, and heartwarming all at the same time. Also, teenage Alec is delightfully grumpy and Adult Alec is even more delightfully Done with teenage!Alec's grumpiness.
  • starshine and moonlight by she_who_reads (all_fandoms_reader) A three +1 fic where Alec isn't enough until he finally is. This fic is angsty and delves into Alec's (not all that great) self-worth issues and it hurts. Might or might not have cried reading it.
  • The Warlock's Cat by @dreaming-marchling. I hesitated a while which one I should pick from Marchling, but I ended up choosing this one (that said PLEASE go read Bleed for Me as well it is so goooood). The Warlock's Cat is a delightful "Alec gets turned into a cat and ends up in Magnus's care" fic. I adore it, and while it has its angsty or whumpy spots, it's mostly a nice, feel-good read.
  • Magnus Bane: Menace by AceOnIce To give some reprieve from all of the angst in this list, here is a fic of pure, unabashed fluff. Starring: Warlock Alec and Shadowhunter Magnus, the latter of which writes some truly ridiculous mission reports to HOTI Ragnor's grief.

Recommend up to 5 single chapter fics/one-shots (long or short) from 2023 that everyone should read.

  • The river cannot go back by @lawsofchaos1. Alec being Alec and completely in love with Magnus which leads to him committing treason like it's nothing. It is a short, brilliant fic that had me screeching like any @lawsofchaos1 fic does.
  • I'm finding it hard to breath by Honey_Hued_Hermes This one is pretty heave, but it does have a Hopeful Ending. Alec never promised he would tell Magnus if things ever got that bad...and sadly they do. Diving into Alec's Suicidal Thoughts and his Self-Harm tendencies.
  • A Most Fundamental Truth by autisticalec A missing scene from 2X10 when Alec tells Magnus that he's never been as terrified as when he feared Magnus had died from the Soul Sword. This one-shot dives into the "Alec was really very not okay emotionally" in this scene, so go read it!
  • The Difficult Task by @dani-dabbles: Another Alec is going through it emotionally fic (there are quite a lot of these on this list I just realized, oops). Thankfully, Magnus is there to offer support when Alec needs it because Magnus is still the best boyfriend. (also the repeated "not good enough"is evil and I am suing for emotion damages, please and thank you very much)
  • come to me (in the night hours) by @moonlight-breeze-44 Izzy is a supportive sister and is there emotionally for Alec right before his wedding to Lydia. This fic left me feeling all sad and weepy. This fic is technically part of a series, but as no other parts have been posted yet I am posting this in the one-shot part.

Recommend up to 5 fics NOT from 2023 that everyone should read (oldies but goodies).

  • I've Always Dreamed of Meeting Someone Like You by ColorfulWarlock A non-magical Alternate Universe this time around. Single-dad, fashion designer, and CEO Magnus needs someone to draw his designs for him after a hit-and-run leaves him unable to draw for himself. Insert Alec, the wonderful babysitter, and game designer who seems to understand what Magnus envisions and draw them into reality!
  • Angelus ex Machina by BlueA The series starts with the sudden disappearance of demon activity and the way that lack of activity impacts the local Shadow World. I love the way the parabatai bond is portrayed in this fic (especially in the third installment).
  • through the fire and pain by alxndrlightwoods is another parabatai-bond deep-dive that goes deep into how a parabatai bond can change shadowhunters. It also explains why, if parabatai are so powerful, there aren't that many of them. Love this fic!
  • i cannot touch because they are too near by @faejilly nobody manages to write poetry without writing poetry quite like @faejilly for me, seriously the words are always so beautiful I am in awe. This fic has to be my absolute favorite though because deep-dives into the parabatai bond are interesting to begin with but the way Jilly decides to do so in this fic makes it go from interesting to absolutely brilliant.
  • Greater Love Hath No Man by @lawsofchaos1 Okay, I lied, here is a second Laws fic, but considering this fic led to the demise of my laptop, I felt that it deserved to be on the list. (No, that wasn't a joke). Dad!Alec is forced to send baby!Max away to a warlock orphanage when his magic grows too strong for him and leaves him injured. The pain is real and it is excruciating, tissues are advised.

Recommend up to 5 of your own fics (completed or WIP) from 2023 that everyone should read.

As much as I adore reccing fics, doing self-recs is awkward, so I'm going to keep this to one rec before I combust into flames.

  • All Was Golden (everyone has probably read that one already because it's my most-read fic which makes this slightly less awkward than reccing any other of my fics.) Anyway, soulmate AU with a kind of ugly meet that has some angst.

Tagging, without any kind of pressure, the authors I tagged in the rec-list (if they haven't participated already) as well as @miss-mouse.

#thank you so much for the rec!#fic recs#shadowhunters#malec#things I’m in
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Atrial Flutter - Chapter 1 - notcrypticbutcoy - Shadowhunters (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood Additional Tags: Christmas, Alternate Universe - Medical, Getting Together, Fluff Series: Part 8 of All I Want For Christmas Is You Summary:

“How can you not like Christmas?” Magnus demanded, outraged. “That’s like not liking pizza!”

Alec shrugged. “Take it or leave it.”

Magnus gaped at him. “What?”

“I don’t like Christmas,” Alec repeated, finally looking up from scrolling through notes on the computer. “Is that a problem?”

***

Alec - the hot, emotionally unavailable paediatrics attending with a jawline Magnus is frequently driven to distraction by - hates Christmas. Magnus thinks this is preposterous, and makes it his mission to prove to Alec that Christmas can be fun.

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Fluffy Christmas goodness with Malec being absolutely adorable and hopelessly into each other while flirting via bickering. Perfect read for the holiday season!

( @notcrypticbutcoy )

Source: archiveofourown.org
#thank you so much for the rec!#malec#shadowhunters#things I’m in#malec fanfic
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Flames to Embers - Chapter 1 - notcrypticbutcoy - Shadowhunters (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
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Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Shadowhunters (TV), The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood, Alec Lightwood & Jace Herondale Additional Tags: Time Travel, Gay Panic, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, implied suicidal thoughts, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm  

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Jace froze. His parabatai rune burned white-hot, but he hardly felt it. It was easy to forget what people looked like, long ago, but the image of the boy in front of him was unmistakable, even with the emo fringe and the scowl. In fact, when combined with the defensive stance, hazel eyes, and still-healing cut through his left eyebrow, it made the whole thing more convincing.

“What the fuck.”   ***

Teenage Alec is magically poofed into the time of his forty-year-old self, and what he finds is really quite overwhelming. Especially the really hot guy he’s apparently married to.

Or: in which Teen Alec is very grumpy, Magnus thinks he’s very cute, and Adult Alec is Tired™.

Bravo @notcrypticbutcoy  🧡 👏

Source: archiveofourown.org
#thank you so much my love!!#fic recs#things I’m in#ladymatt#malec#malec fic#shadowhunters
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Atrial Flutter - Chapter 2 - notcrypticbutcoy - Shadowhunters (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood Additional Tags: Christmas, Alternate Universe - Medical, Getting Together, Fluff Series: Part 8 of All I Want For Christmas Is You

Summary:

“How can you not like Christmas?” Magnus demanded, outraged. “That’s like not liking pizza!”

Alec shrugged. “Take it or leave it.”

Magnus gaped at him. “What?”

“I don’t like Christmas,” Alec repeated, finally looking up from scrolling through notes on the computer. “Is that a problem?”

***

Alec - the hot, emotionally unavailable paediatrics attending with a jawline Magnus is frequently driven to distraction by - hates Christmas. Magnus thinks this is preposterous, and makes it his mission to prove to Alec that Christmas can be fun.

@notcrypticbutcoy  This was ADORABLE - thanks for sharing! 💚

Source: archiveofourown.org
#fic recs#malec#malec fic#thank you so much this is so sweet!#im so glad you enjoyed it#things i’m tagged in#shadowhunters
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Malec as Universe/Time Travelers 12

Today, we have a special story for you: It is "Flames to Embers" by @notcrypticbutcoy and the last chapter was uploaded today! So, it just got completed in time for us to post this!

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary:

Jace froze. His parabatai rune burned white-hot, but he hardly felt it. It was easy to forget what people looked like, long ago, but the image of the boy in front of him was unmistakable, even with the emo fringe and the scowl. In fact, when combined with the defensive stance, hazel eyes, and still-healing cut through his left eyebrow, it made the whole thing more convincing.

“What the fuck.”   ***

Teenage Alec is magically poofed into the time of his forty-year-old self, and what he finds is really quite overwhelming. Especially the really hot guy he’s apparently married to.

Or: in which Teen Alec is very grumpy, Magnus thinks he’s very cute, and Adult Alec is Tired™.

Link to the fic

Happy reading!

#this is so sweet thank you so much!!#malec#malec fic#fic rec#things i’m in#shadowhunters
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Anonymous asked:

can u recommend any really good jimon writers/fics in particular?

eversall answered:
this question really only serves to look like i’m a superfan for jess but I yam what I yam so you know what i don’t even care. all my favorite writers are on this list! (i think!) also if i listed every single story i loved from these authors we’d be here for years. if the author’s on this list, i love all their stories. 

i don’t know if people realize but i’m a little obsessed with jess and her fics? i’d read anything she wrote. she could tell me that jace shapeshifts into a wooden table and simon is the thrift store shopper who accidentally buys him when he panics and changes into table form and they fall in love and i’d believe her.  this part of the post is cancelled, jess found out and made me write this and you can find it here anyway this fic is not actually about table!jace but a sweet, heartwarming, and ridiculously funny story about how simon and jace move from enemies to friends, told through their texts to each other and other people over time. features this iconic text from luke: THAT’S MY BOY

wildly adorable and great read for if you just want to read something short and sweet.

everyone and their mothers probably recs this because it’s just that fucking good. super in-character, charming, and well-paced.

you’d never expect to get so attached to a story with a haunted sandwich shop and yet you will. c’est la vie. amazing writer, with a knack for weaving in just the right amount of plot and dialogue.

jace owns a bakery and he and simon pine after each other, flirt adorably, and make out a little. it’s heartwarming and so, so very sweet.

i mean look i hope everyone’s read syncopation by now by this author because it’s just one of the best jimon friends to benefits aus every written, period, but i also wanna strongly recommend this fic because it’s just, god, it’s exquisite. the pining, the pacing, the amount of loving detail that goes into crafting the progress of jace and simon’s relationship - it’s all so good. it’s not finished yet, but its on the final chapter (i think).

this is so adorable and full of witty little observations from everyone on the outside looking in at jace and simon, and ends with the cutest possible first kiss. everything sarah writes is so good and she has so many introspective pieces that explore the relationships between characters. (also i know this is supposed to be a jimon fic rec but family is family was one of the first fics i read when i was devouring sh content and i wanna make sure everyone’s reads it because it’s amazing!!)

TRUE LOVE’S KISS DO I EVEN NEED TO SAY ANY MORE?? quinn is an amazing writer and one-half of the force behind bleed me dry and the entire force behind the plot of bleed me dry so she’s literally one of the most amazing authors i know, and i miss her writing :(

cer is a genius with words and theres literally nothing you can say to change my mind on that. everytime they post something i settle in because i know the writing is going to be beautiful and thoughtful and so good!!

…sorry, i just really love this fic it’s 25k of me and quinn’s blood sweat and tears and i can’t NOT peddle it lmao

the level of pining in this is phenomenally sweet, and i could reread jace telling simon he does care about him a million times over

hey jess why is this title so long??? anyway jace has a tiny daughter and simon is a kindergarten teacher. nothing i write will ever compare to the pure sweetness of this, which i consider to be the original kid fic and i always read when i’m having a bad day. it genuinely just lifts me up.

ohhh my god a little angsty, a little sweet - the perfect combination. also featuring maia, who is amazing.

“now they’re here, shirts off and hearts open” do i need to say anything else? i was hysterically laughing through this whole thing and yet it’s still so unbearably adorable.

THE ONLY THING I LOVE MORE THAN COFFEE IS COFFEESHOP AUS

the electric feeling in this one is described so perfectly and you can feel every part of what quinn writes in this one, it’s amazing.

jealous jace done p e r f e c t l y . like, it’s sweet and not overly aggressive and equal parts funny and serious. perfect.

just so you’re aware, jess can take any genre and make it her own and write it so so cleverly you’re upset when you reach the end that there’s not a lot, lot more. this one is serious and aching and so good, with a dash of wonderful happiness at the end

i’m gonna stop now before i just start listing every fic jess has written

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#thank you for the rec!#things i’m in#Jimon#Shadowhunters#fics#throwback to that time I got hate anons about writing jimon#because ‘if you can’t make gay characters straight you can’t make straight characters gay’#‘thats heterophobic’
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anotherlongstoryshort asked:

“He looked like he’d swallowed his tongue and was trying very hard to recall how breathing worked. Alec could sympathise. Magnus was very pretty” ended me on the reread.

I love when you write Alec’s POV

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Ahaha, that was in fact the moment that inspired the whole fic. It came from a throwaway line in the epilogue of fall without wings (yes, it does exist; no, it is not finished and is unlikely to see the light of day for a while; yes, of course it’s ridiculously long):

Magnus hums. “How would eighteen year old Alec have felt about me, do you think?”

Laughing, Alec drags his eyes slowly up Magnus’ figure and says, “I think he’d have swallowed his tongue trying to get a sentence out. I was very repressed, but not very practiced at it, back then.”

My brain immediately went !!! the second I’d written Alec’s line and decided to word-vomit 12k of fic in one go.

(For a bit of shameless self-promo, the fic being referred to is Flames to Embers)

#shadowhunters#malec#malec fanfic#magnus bane#alec lightwood#the mortal instruments#tsc#notcrypticbutcoy#fall without wings#thank you for asking!#asks
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