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Black Roses at Midnight

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rhinexstone

Thinking about Tarsus IV and how much that must have sculpted Jim into the person who knew every crew member by name, loved his crew like they were a kin of 500, never dared to put them through pain or stress even when it seemed impossible, and treated his power of command as a minute if not false aspect of his title. Because to command someone to do something is what his childhood was ripe of, but to lead and educate and strengthen a person was his wildest dream

This Tag needs to be seen by everyone, because wow, what a way to put it.

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mackmp3

you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy

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vetchtibbles

this is what microwaving leftover pizza feels like

stop it i was trying to be gothic

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wish i could go missing for a little bit and no one would freak out and then i could come back and they'd be like "did you have fun going missing" and i'd be like "yeah, thanks" and then i could do that every couple of months or so and it wouldn't be a big deal

i've just been informed that this is what's typically called a "vacation"

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pukicho

I feel as though a small animal having the cognitive abilities of a young human child would be akin to waking up in hell and living forever until you go insane.

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pukicho

Lets do a little group children's story together, it'll be like a cool collab, I'll go first: Once upon a time there was a little worm who lived in a biiig apple, his name was Stephenson and he had anxiety (aww)

I eat him

What the fuck

what the fuck

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not "i ship these characters" or "i want them to bond platonically" but a secret 3rd thing (I want them to be forced to interact by the Narrative bc they would HATE that)

who needs romance when i can watch two narrative foils painfully tolerate each other's existence? bonus points if they are forced to Work Together To Solve A Problem, and they end up working surprisingly well together! they make a surprisingly effective team!they even confide some backstory with each other & bond a bit & understand each other better. and when it's all over they shake hands & amicably agree that they still cannot fucking stand each other. "this was an interesting sidequest and I'm glad we got to experience it. but all things considered i genuinely never want to see your face again." Enemies to Chained-Up-In-An-Abandoned-Bathroom-Together to Enemies

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aprihop
Anonymous asked:

Well now I'm curious. I looked up all of the books that you recommended and there's only one by a male writer. You know men write YA too, right? It's not just stories about vapid teen girls. There are real stories in there. Might I recommend you branch out to include more stories that aren't just about teen girls? Neil Gaiman, David Levithan, Jay Asher just to name a few.

Ā There are real stories in there

are you trying to tell me, a woman, that a story about a ā€œvapidā€ teen girl isnā€™t a real story? dude are you lost on the way to /r/theredpill or something?

iā€™m not at all interested in the authors mentioned, or their books. they do nothing for me. if you want to recommend books to people, go ahead and do it, but iā€™m not going to do it for you. and for real, neil gaiman? do you even go here?Ā 

ok which one of you is trolling me tho

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ā€œMen write YA too, right? Itā€™s not just stories about vapid teen girls.ā€

ā€œMen write YA too, right? Itā€™s not just stories about vapid teen girls.ā€

ā€œMen write YA too, right? Itā€™s not just stories about vapid teen girls.ā€

ā€œMen write YA too, right? Itā€™s not just stories about vapid teen girls.ā€

ā€œMen write YA too, right? Itā€™s not just stories about vapid teen girls.ā€

ā€œMen write YA too, right? Itā€™s not just stories about vapid teen girls.ā€

Wow, every time I publish a YA novel, I hope there are at least 10 male YA writers out there to make up for my stories about vapid teenage girls.Ā  WAIT.Ā  What am I even saying.Ā  My books arenā€™t even REAL!Ā  They donā€™t even exist.Ā  Thank goodness for that because theyā€™re about girls.

This is why the ongoing conversation about how undermined and discredited female YA writers are for their work is so important.Ā  Whether or not this ask is seriousā€”I hope itā€™s not, but ha ha as a YA author Iā€™ve seen exactly this sentiment when it isā€”itā€™s super indicative of a very real and pervasive and damaging attitude that NEEDS CHANGING.Ā  (Or wait, does it?Ā  Itā€™s just hurting girls, after all!Ā  Those vapid, vapid girls.)Ā  Also a perfect example of how any story that has value to a girl is completely devalued BECAUSE it has value to a girl.

I mean, seriously, how can you write someone an ask like that with any kind of sincerity and not see how messed up the overall sentiment driving it is?

As the childrenā€™s classic goes, being a boy makes you REAL.

ā€¦ That is how it goes, right?

This is how messed-up this situation is: the three dude writers mentioned above (all great) are all HELLA FAMOUS. They are doing great! But it is seen as huge injustice that they are left offā€¦ a blog post?

Whereas women being left off award lists, out of articles, out of panels at conventions and not given the same amount of money or promotionā€”thatā€™s justice. Because men are automatically owed, not just some attention, but ALL attention. Any attention given to women is CRUELLY TAKEN from men.

Much the same as the study that shows men do not compare womenā€™s conversation to their ownā€”they compare how much women talk to silence. Total silence. No attention at all. Thatā€™s what some people unconsciously want for women.

And oh, well, if itā€™s written about a girl by a girl, that girl must necessarily be vapid, am I right? Probably the girl who wrote it was, too! In factā€¦ maybe all girlsā€¦ are vapid! Think about girls growing up seeing that sentiment expressed about them, about their stories, about their possible future achievements, and then told to be self-confident and to value themselves. Itā€™s pretty difficult. And thatā€™s not the girlsā€™ fault. Itā€™s the fault of people saying these things to them.

This is why Iā€™m here for female characters and female authors (besides, you knowā€¦ being oneā€¦). And why Iā€™m not here for people who spread or direct hate at female authors or female characters. Believe me, we got plentyā€”all full up here!

What the childrenā€™s classic actually said wasā€¦ love makes you real. Love for female writers, love between female writers, female writers of the present and future loving themselves, will eventually clear this awfulness away.

At least, I hope so.Ā 

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thinking about the time they sent me a seven year old autistic patient to investigate if he was suffering abuse because in every psychological test he kept drawing awful monsters

and I start the consultation already miserable as fuck and I give the kid some pen and paper so I can maybe communicate and see what's on his mind

and then I go WAIT A GODDAMN SECOND I KNOW THOSE MONSTERS

turns out the kid just had a special interest in Five Nights at Freddy's

I pointed at the monster and went "That's Freddy!" and I've never seen a kid that ecstatic in my life

the mom looked at me as if her son and I belonged at the same satanic cult and that's why I knew the names of the demons in his head

I wrote back to psychologist like "I'm not sure how to explain this but looking up five nights at freddys might bring you progress with this patient"

at some point the nurses realized the autistic children and I were like, Really Vibing

so they decided to highkey just appoint all of them to my day and it took me almost a month to realize that the fact that I kept arriving and finding that all of todayā€™s appointments were autistic children was Not A CoincidenceĀ 

anyway this one time there was a kid who was really into christianity but it was like, specifically angelsĀ 

so Iā€™m trying to start up a conversation with him and I ask what heā€™s reading and he goesĀ ā€œdo you know what a nephilim isā€

and like for one hellish second my soul is suckerpunched out of my body and thrown straight into supernatural-fanfic-on-wattpad hell, and then I reassume control of my flesh prison, ignoring the mental edits of Dean and Castiel making out, and goĀ ā€œArenā€™t those the guys who are half human and half angel?ā€

and the kid was so fucking happy but the mom was staring at me likeĀ ā€˜why are you privy to this bit of occult jesus loreā€™

and my heathen lesbian of a self just looks at her and goesĀ 

ā€œi love bibleā€

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Why did you give the last of your food to that poorly disguised mimic? You were finally at peace with letting go, but now this odd thing wonā€™t leave you alone and is even turning itself into various items in an attempt to aid you.

The mimic is a young one, and you knew that from the moment you laid eyes on it. It was disguised as a crate, but the angles werenā€™t quite right. The corners were a little lopsided, and if you looked hard enough you could make out the creatureā€™s mouth.

A sigh escapes you as you toss over the last of your rations, not even bothering to stand up as you do so. Whatā€™s the point? You think. Iā€™ve been trapped in this cave for days, nobody is looking for me, and the monsters are closing in. Why should I bother even trying? I could just fall asleep now, and let this little mimic eat me too.

The thing isā€¦ it doesnā€™t. It eats your rations, but when you lay down and try to sleep, it doesnā€™t attack. You do hear it move closer, but you donā€™t open your eyes until you feel something nudge your hand. As you barely open your eyes, you can see that the mimic has morphed itself into a crude sword. You canā€™t help but chuckle.

ā€œYouā€™re cute, but I donā€™t have anything left to give you.ā€ You donā€™t have anything left to give for yourself either, but you donā€™t say so.

The mimic doesnā€™t seem to take no for an answer. It becomes a dagger, then an axe, then a staff, as though itā€™s trying to determine what your preffered weapon is.

ā€œListen, I donā€™t know what youā€™re trying to do, but itā€™s not working. Iā€™m not going to pick you up and take you into some other part of this stupid cave system. Nice try, though.ā€

You turn away from it and attempt to sleep again. As you do so, you find yourself shivering. You really wish, as you doze off, that you had a blanket.

When you wake, much later, youā€™re surprised to find yourself covered with the warmest blanket youā€™ve ever had. You quickly sit up, eagerly hoping that someone had cone for you, but the cave is empty. When you look at the blanket, you notice the imperfect edges and the janky seam across the middle.

ā€œā€¦why havenā€™t you eaten me yet?ā€ You ask the little mimic thatā€™s now laying on top of you. ā€œWhatā€™s wrong with you?ā€

The mimic, still in the form of the blanket, slithers off of you, but it does not respond. Instead, it begins taking the form of weapons again. When it turns into a crooked staff, you reach out, despite yourself. Your fingers wrap around it and you use it to haul your aching, injured body to your feet. ā€œI guess there are probably nicer places to die.ā€

You know you wonā€™t get far. And you donā€™t. Especially not without light. The mimic doesnā€™t seem too bothered, though. When you collapse again, it scuttles off. Perhaps this was simply where it wanted you to take it. Perhaps now you can finally succumb to your exhaustion.

Then, a few minutes later, a misshapen clay cup bumps against your hand. Itā€™s full of water, and thereā€™s a crack in the middle like a jagged mouth. You pick up the cup and you drink, telling yourself itā€™s only out of desperation. When you set the cup down, that little cracked mouth seems to smile.

This goes on for what feels like days. The mimic helps you limp along through the tunnels, transforming into whatever you may need at any given time. Every time you fall asleep, you expect not to wake up. Yet, you do, usually with a mimic blanket wrapped around you. It brings you food and water when you can.

The biggest surprise comes when one morning, you find youā€™re pleased to have survived another night. Youā€™re happy to have the mimic keeping you warm. Itā€™s a new feeling, and a confusing one, but itā€™s not unpleasant.

The other monsters that you know are down here seem to leave you alone for the most part. You arenā€™t sure why. It crosses your mind that maybe it has something to do with the mimic. Then again, maybe theyā€™re just waiting for you to die. Death is gradually beginning to sound less and less appealing.

The day you catch a glimpse of sunlight down a long and narrow tunnel is the first day you finally feel like your old self again. Your pace quickens, and you donā€™t need to lean on the mimicā€™s staff form quite so much. The illusion shatters when you reach the lightā€™s source. A small gap, high above. You curl up on the floor and cry. When you finally have the strength to look up again, your mimic has become a ladder.

Getting up is hard, in your state. Climbing, even more so. But the ladder is the biggest and best transformation the mimic has done so far, and if it wants you to get out, then you canā€™t let it down.

You feel it push up under you when you reach the gap. It helps you squeeze through, and thenā€¦ freedom. Fresh air, and sunlight. You lay on your back on the stone, and you pass out.

You wake up at sunset, with a blanket draoed over you. A blanket with a jagged seam down the middle.

Danger. Fear. hide. Become rock. waitā€¦ calm. Hungry. find food. Smell food. See light. Dying fire.. Adventurer! Danger! Become box! Imperfect. Noticed. FearFearHumanRaisedHandFearThrowingBracingā€¦.

Not hurt. Human sigh. Near food. Danger? Prey?

Gift?

Eat. Filling.

Near human. Human resting. Danger? Observe.

ApproachFearFearFear. Observe. Become sword. Wait.

Nudgefearfearfear. Human sound. Imperfect? Become knife. No? Imperfect. Become axe. No? Imperfect. Become staff. Human sound. Human sound. Human turn. Imperfect?

Wait. Observe.

Human restingā€¦. Human shaking. Puzzle. Human scared? No? Imperfect. Human cold? What do? Fear. Become fire.PainNO. pain. Imperfect. Human shake less. Human cold. Puzzle. Recover. Ideafear. Become blanket. Fear. Touchfearfear.

Touch.

Cover. Warm. Rest.

AwakeMovingFear! Fear! human. Human noise. Retreat. Imperfect.

Observe. Not danger.

Become sword? No? Imperfect. Become weapon? No? Imperfect. Become tool? Become warhammer. No? Imperfect. Human weak. Become small knife. No? Imperfect. Become walking stick. Human reaches. Brace. Touched.

Support. Move.

Human tired. Human injured? Imperfect. No blood. No angles. Darkness? Bad Idea NONONO. Human dry? Unknown. Human stop. Human collapse! Observe. Human in safety. Fix human dry.

Observe. Smell water. Distant. Follow.

Danger. Direwolf in water. Puzzle. Observe. Have height. Idea.

Become stone. Tumble. Pain. Imperfect. Direwolf flee. Perfect enough.

Pause. Recover. Observe. Become bucket. Fill. Climb back up. Spill some. Imperfect. At top. Some water. Perfect enough. Return.

Not back. Smell Direwolf. Fear. Have water. Caution. Observe. Crevice. Pour. Direwolf sound! Fear! Spill! Imperfect! Fear! Become stone! Direwolf approach! Become hard. Direwolf approach water! BadBadBad! Become Problem! Surprise! Bite nose! Bite! Direwolf sound. Direwolf leave. Calm.

Obtain water? Become bucket. No. Imperfect. Large. Become cup. Some water. Perfect enough. Careful. Return.

Brace. Human lift. Human drink. Human resting. Become blanket. Warm.

Time.

Split path. Human confused. Smell. Stagnant. Fresh? Follow fresh. Lead human. Support.

Time.

Smell prey. Hungry. Shake. Human sit. Quiet. Find prey. Split. Support human. Return. Human resting. Feed. Become blanket. Warm.

Time.

Light! Exit! Rush! Approach. Observe. Puzzle. Height. Hole in roof. Problem. Human noise. Human collapse! Human turn. Human noiseā€¦ problem. problem. problem.

Puzzle? Puzzle. Observe. Climb wall. Difficult. Impossible? No. Approach roof. Reach hole. Puzzle. Observe. Human mimic mimic? Imperfect. Become rope? Imperfect. Human weak. Become staircase? Imperfect. Size.

Puzzle. Puzzle. ā€¦Create? Become StaircaseRope? Becomeā€¦ StaircaseRope. Imperfect. Shift. Shift. Puzzle. Shift. Become StaircaseRope.

Human turn. Human pause. Human rise. Human approach. Support human. Human climb. Imperfect. Perfect enough. Human rise. Human pause. Human noise. Human climb.

Human reach surface!

Become blanket. Cover human. Becomeā€¦ friend?

Dude this is an awesome addition. That the mimic thinks so much in terms of ā€˜perfect/imperfect.ā€™ It makes total sense for something whose schtick is mimicking things as accurately as possible. But the first time it said ā€˜perfect enoughā€™ was a gut punch at my own perfectionism. So ow

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quite fun to imagine fairy circles less as "trickster gods kidnapping humans from the human realm" and more as "fae scientists capture-tag-and-releasing humans back into the wild, hoping to one day understand the behavior of this bizarre feral gremlin species that keeps getting lost and wandering into the Fae's backyard"

#not unanalogous to raccoons stumbling into human areas and discovering the Trash Cans

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laney-rockin

It's canon that Spock likes to fuck with people and pretend he doesn't know human sayings just so he can make people explain it to him.

And then Kirk just knows when Spock is serious or is just being difficult and obtuse on purpose. They're married your honour.

there are so many instances of this in the novels and itā€™s so cute every time!!! husbands!!!

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mhalachai

went down to the local holiday lights display the other night...

getting mooned

the glowing forest and the one with the snail...

this is the whole shot here - the "L" burned out so everyone was taking pictures with the big Ow.

the mushroom was one of a series. the TREE HUGS was so high up that no one could see it so they had someone standing there saying "it's up there"

and lastly, a walk through the evening with a friend....

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