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@lightninghitsground / lightninghitsground.tumblr.com

Ellie. Just a girl, sitting in front of a book/film/tv show, asking it to make her feel something
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Anonymous asked:

If you don't mind me to ask? How did your Mum die?

Hi anon,

Ummm- I don't really want to go into too much detail because I don't want to be triggering anyone else, so if you want to talk about it more then please message me off anon- can talk if you feel you have questions- if you're in a similar situation and you feel it may help you.

It was colon cancer- didn't even know she had it until late June last year, and she was gone by mid-August. It was so aggressive- by the time they found it- she was already too weak for treatment.

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A gift from my sister- it spells out ‘Fuck cancer’ in morse code. I love it.

It would have been my Mum’s birthday today. This is the first one we’ve had without her. We placed a plaque today where we scattered most of her ashes, and that somehow made everything feel more real? I don’t know. I just know that this hole in my chest isn’t getting any smaller. Love you Mum 💕

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Anonymous asked:

I'm sorry you're having to deal with idiot anons on top of everything. Normal people are aware that you can grieve and live your life at the same time. The two things are not mutually exclusive. I'm sending you so much love and my deepest condolences at this difficult time. 💛💐

💕 Thank you for taking the time out to send this message. It’s so difficult, because sometimes the guilt does sink in if I find myself laughing too much, or enjoying life.

Thanks again 💕

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Anonymous asked:

If you are that upset about your Mom still why are you on here?

Ummmm…

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