ABO, 53K, completed, mature.

“Harry,” Louis says in a soft voice, ”in less than a year you'll probably move out and I need to know now, I need to know tonight if I'm going to lose you forever. I'm done guessing!” He says demanding, but soft, his voice low and almost trembling. Harry's whole body is shaking. All of the feelings he tried to bury with studying, alcohol and weed, or sex are coming to the surface now and he can't deal with that. Can't deal with Louis sounding like he is actually afraid Harry is not going to be in his life. Because if Louis is afraid of losing Harry it means that he cares and Harry cannot deal with Louis caring. Every single illusion he's built in his mind of painting Louis as the bad guy will crash down along with all his resolve and walls and he cannot (!) have that. or the friends to enemies to lovers aka idiots to lovers aka they just don't talk until they FINALLY do

✦ if you're tired of using the same repetitive words to describe feelings or actions on your writing, here are some aesthetic words that are not frequently used to help you evolve your vocabulary better and also maybe help you with creative titles <3

• ABENDROT: the color of the sky while the sun is setting.
• ABIENCE: the strong urge to avoid someone or something.
• ACHROOUS: colourless.
• AEQUOREAL: marine, oceanic.
• AESTHETE: someone with deep sensitivity to the beauty of art or nature.
• ALIFEROUS: having wings.
• AMITY: warmth and heartfelt friendliness in a friendship; mutual understanding and a peaceful relationship.
• AMORIST: someone who is in love; someone who writes about love.
• AMBROSIAL: fragrant, delicious.
• ANTHOMANIA: great love for flowers.
• AQUAPHILE: someone who is an enthusiast of all things related to the water.
• ARENOCOLOUS: living or burrowing in sand.
• ASPERSE: change falsely or with malicious intent; attack the good name and reputation of someone.
• ASTERISM: agroup of stars; a constellation; a cluster of stars.
• ATTAR: essential oil or perfume obtained from flowers.
• AUREATE: golden or gilded; brilliant, splendid.
• AURICOMUS: with golden or yellow colored foliage.
• AVIOTHIC: the strong desire to be up in the air or to fly.
• BALTER: to dance artlessly, without particular grace and/or skill but usually with enjoyment.
• BATHIC: pertaining to depths, especially of sea.
• BELAMOUR: the one who is loved; a beloved person.
• BELLICOSTIC: aggressive, belligerent, warlike.
• BENEFICENCE: the quality of being kind or helpful or generous.
• BERCEUSE: a quiet song intended to lull a child to sleep.
• BLÁFAR: indicating the freshness and beauties of youth or health; attractive and possessing charm.
• BRONTIDE: the low rumble of a distant thunder.
• BURBLE: to speak in an excited manner.
• CAELITIS: the divinities who dwell within the celestial planes.
• CATHARSIS: the release of emotional tension, especially through kinds of art or music.
• CELERITOUS: swift, speedy, fast.
• CERAUNOPHILIA: loving thunder and lightning and finding them intensely beautiful.
• CHEVELURE: the nebulous tail of a comet.
• CINGULOMANIA: a strong desire to hold a person in your arms.
• COCCINEOUS: bright red; scarlet.
• COCKAIGNE: an imaginary land of luxury and idleness.
• CONSTELLATE: to eluster; to compel by stellar influence.
• COSMOGYRAL: whirling around the universe.
• CORDOLIUM: heartache; heartfelt sorrow.
• CORUSCATE: to reflect brillantly, to sparkle.
• CRAMOISY: of a crimson color.
• CREATURELY: a person who is controlled by others and is used to perform unpleasant or dishonest tasks for someone else.
• CRYSTALLOMANIA: an obsession with crystals and other crystalline objects.
• CHRYSALISM: the amnotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.
• CLINQUANT: glittering with gold and silver.
• CLYSMIC: cleaning, washing.
• CUPIDITY: greed for money or possessions.
• CYANEOUS: a sky-blue color.
• CYNOSURE: guiding star; a object of common interest.
• DARKLING: of or related to darkness.
• DÉCLASSÉ: having fallen in social status.
• DEIFORM: god-like or divine in nature.
• DEMERSAL: that lives near the bottom or a body of water.
• DESIDERIUM: an ardent longing, as for something lost.
• DISPITEOUS: cruel and without mercy.
• DOUX: sweet, soft, mild, gentle.
• DRACONTINE: belonging to a dragon.
• DYSANIA: the state of finding it hard to get out of bed in the morning.
• ECCEDENTESIAST: someone who fakes a smile.
• EFFLORESCENCE: a period or state of blooming, blossoming.
• ELEGY: a poem of serious reflection, typically a lament for the dead.
• ELEUTHEROPHILIST: someone who advocates free love.
• ELYSIAN: beautiful or creative, divinely inspired; peaceful and perfect.
• EMACITY: desire or fondness for buying things.
• EMPYREAL: pertaining to the sky; celestial.
• EPHIALTES: a nightmare; the demon Incubus that supposedly causes a nightmare.
• EPICARICACY: the joy that results from others misfortune.
• EREMOPHOBIA: the deep fear of stillness, solitude, or deserted places.
• ETHEREAL: extremely delicate, light, not of this world.
• EUMOIRIETY: happiness due to state of innocence and purity.
• FLORENTIS: abounding in flowers; being in bloom and adorned with plentiful flowers.
• FREICEADAN: guard, garrison, watch, sentinal.
• FULMINATE: cause to explode violently and with loud noise.
• FURCIFEROUS: brat; rascally, scandalous.
• GLOAMING: twilight, dusk.
• GRAME: anger, wrath, scorn; sorrow, grief, misery.
• HALCYON: calm and peaceful; happy, prosperous.
• HELLION: a rowdy or mischievous person.
• HELIOPHILIA: desire to stay in the sun; love of sunlight.
• HEAVENIZE: to render like heaven or fit for heaven, to purify and make a holy place or a person.
• HENOTIC: promoting harmony or peace.
• HIRAETH: a homesickness for a home you can't return to, or that never was.
• HOLILY: belonging to or derived from or associated with a divine power.
• HYPNAGOGIC: the state immediately before falling asleep.
• IGNICOLIST: a worshiper of fire.
• ILLECEBROUS: attractive and alluring.
• IMPLUVIOUS: soaked with rain.
• INCANDESCENCE: light produced by high temperatures.
• INCALESCENCE: the property of being warming.
• INCENDIARY: designed for the purpose of causing a fire, likely to cause anger or violence.
• INEFFABLE: too great or extreme to be expressed or described in words.
• INSOUCIANT: free from worry, concern or anxiety.
• IRENIC: aiming or aimed at peace, promoting peace.
• IRIDESCENT: producing a display of rainbow-like colors.
• INVIDIARE: to envy.
• ISOLOPHILIA: a strong preference and affection for solitude.
• KALOPSIA: the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are.
• KALON: beauty that is more than skin deep.
• LACONIC: expressing much in a few words.
• LACUNA: a blank space; a missing part.
• LATIBULE: a hiding place, a place of safety and comfort.
• LAMBENT: to glow or flicker softly. Luminous, light or brilliant.
• LIMERENCE: the state of being infatuated with another person.
• LONGANIMITY: still suffering while planning revenge.
• LOUCHE: disreputable; morally dubious.
• LUCELENCE: the state of being fine and beautiful; shining, brilliant.
• LUCIFORM: resembling light in appearance; having, in some respects; the nature of qualities of light.
• LUMINESCENCE: light produced by chemical, electrical or physiological means.
• MALTALENT: the negative emotions of wanting injury or harm to befall someone; a hostile behavior or attitude towards someone considered an enemy.
• MARMORIS: the shining surface of the ocean.
• MAZARINE: a dark blue color; rich blue or reddish-blue color.
• MELIORISM: the belief that the world gets better; the belief that humans can improve the world.
• MÉLOMANIE: an excessive and abnormal love and deep attraction to music and melody.
• MERCURIAL: subject to sudden or unpredictable changes.
• MESMERIC: appealing; drawing attention.
• MORDACIOUS: biting or given to biting; biting or sharp in manner; caustic; capable of wounding.
• MORPHEAN: of or relating to Morpheus, to dreams, or to sleep.
• MOXIE: courage, nerve, determination.
• NEBULOCHAOTIC: a state of being hazy and confused.
• NEFARIOUS: wicked, villainous, despicable.
• NEMESISM: frustration, anger or aggression directed inward, toward oneself and one's way of living.
• NERITIC: pertaining to shallow coastal waters.
• NOETIC: of or associated with or requiring the use of mind.
• NOIRCEUR: the state of being pitch black in color; a state of lacking illumination.
• NUBIVAGANT: wandering in the air, moving through the air.
• NUMINOUS: spiritual or supernatural; surpassing comprehension or understanding; mysterious.
• ONEIRODYNIA: restless, disturbed sleep, characterized by nightmares and sleepwalking.
• OPHIOMORMOUS: snake-like.
• ORPHIC: mysterious and entrancing, beyond ordinary understanding.
• PAVONINE: characteristic of a peacock; resembling the tail of a peacock; as in colors; iridescent.
• PETRICHOR: the scent of rain on dry earth.
• POIESIS: creation; creative power or ability.
• PORPHYROUS: purple; of purple hue.
• PLAXONDRY: the mix of introspective nostalgia, sadness, and calmness felt when listening vaporwave and its related genres.
• PRATE: to talk excessively and pointlessly.
• PROCELLOUS: tempestuous, stormy.
• QUIDDITY: the essence of something.
• QUIXOTIC: extravagantly chivalrous or romantic; visionary, impractical or impracticable.
• RANTIPOLE: a wild, reckless young person; to be wild and reckless.
• REDAMANCY: the act of loving the one who loves you; a love returned in full.
• REDOLENT: having a strong distinctive fragrance; serving to bring to mind.
• REMEANT: coming back, returning.
• RESPLENDENT: having brilliant or glowing appearance; dazzling and impressive in appearance through being richly colorful or sumptuous.
• REVERIE: a state of being pleasantly lost in one's thoughts; a daydream.
• RODOMEL: juice of roses mixed with honey.
• ROSEATE: rose-like; overly optimistic.
• RUTILANT: glowing or glittering with red or gold light.
• SANGUINEOUS: accompanied by bloodshed.
• SASHAY: to strut or move about in an ostentatious or conspicuous manner.
• SCIAMACHY: a battle against imaginary enemies; fighting your shadow.
• SEQUACIOUS: lacking independence of originality of thought.
• SERAPHIC: beautiful and pure; having a sweet nature befitting an angel or a cherub; of or relating to an angel of the first order.
• SERENDIPITY: finding something good without looking for it.
• SKINT: having little or no money avaliable.
• SOLIVAGANT: someone who wanders or travels the world alone; a solitary adventurer.
• SOMNIATE: to dream, to make sleepy.
• SORTIGER: delivering prophecies of the future; having the qualities of being oracular.
• STELLIFEROUS: having or abonding with stars.
• STELLIFY: to transform from an earthly body into a celestial body; to place in the sky as such.
• SUCCIDUOUS: ready to fall, falling.
• SPUME: a white mass of bubbles or froth on the top of a wave.
• SYNODIC: relating to or involving the conjunction of stars, planets or other celestial objects.
• TARANTISM: the uncontrollable urge to dance.
• TEMENOS: a sacred circle where no one can be oneself without fear.
• THANATOPHOBIA: fear of death.
• TYYNEYS: the state of peacefulness; absent of worry or fear, being composed and at ease.
• ULTRAMARINE: beyond the sea; greenish-blue color.
• VELLEITY: a wish or inclination not strong enough to lead to action.
• VENERATION: a profound emotion inspired by a deity.
• VESPERTINE: in or of the evening; setting at the same time as, or just after, the sun.
• VERDANT: with plants and flowers in abundance.
• VERMEIL: a liquid composition applied to a gilded surface to give luster to the gold.
• VERTICORDIOUS: to turn the heart from evil.
• VIOLESCENT: tending toward violet color.
• VORFREUDE: the joyful anticipation that comes from imagining future pleasures.
• WANDERLUST: a strong desire to travel and explore the world.
• WHIST: to hush or silence; to still, to become still.