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NieR: Automata

This is her first impression of him: he's shorter than her, slender and thin-limbed. If she were inclined to kindness, she could perhaps call him wiry, but she's not, and so skinny is the word that comes to her instead. Quick, perhaps, and light on his feet, but he'd be no match for her at all in close to medium range combat, with or without weapons. Fidgety too, and probably easily distractible; even now he's shifting from foot to foot, minute movements of his head indicating that his attention is being divided by multiple unimportant stimuli.

- titled “you snuck inside my head and i carved you out of stone”, 2B’s part of a series spanning from when 2B and 9S first meet to the beginning of the game

Why why why - you seemed to be the only person that questioned, or cared, or gave it any thought whatsoever. Maybe it was a scanner thing. Maybe the other S units also couldn't stop themselves from asking themselves these things too, were brushed off by Command in the same nearly contemptuous way. You wouldn't know. Your current social circle consists of 21O, the Commander, and Pod 153. You are pitifully excited to increase that number by 33% by meeting this new android.

- titled “it’s something in my blood, something in my bones”, 9S’s half of the series, paralleling 2B’s

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Soul Eater

“I know,” Soul sighs, sounding so unbearably exasperated and inexplicably fond that her heart is sent into overdrive. “Can’t take you anywhere without worrying about whether we’re gonna get kicked out ‘cause you thought punching someone was easier than using your words -”
“Y-you’re one to talk!” Maka crosses her arms, clutching them close in an attempt to calm the pounding in her chest. “You hate making conversation more than I do!”
“Lucky I got you with me then, hm?” He sends her a devastating, sharp-toothed grin, and her heart refuses to be caged in by her ribs and arms any longer, leaping into her mouth.

- untitled, in which Soul and Maka have to pretend to be engaged in order to stop a witch that works as wedding planner 

She hesitates. She's hugged Soul loads of times, and vice versa - they've never been shy about physical contact, couldn't be, really, what with him being a weapon and her wielding him. Honestly, she'd probably been in far more compromising positions with Soul in reality.
But something about the way they touched each other in the dream felt different. A kind of casual comfortableness, perhaps, a intimacy that seems strange and out of place in their reality. Just imagining it happening with the Soul sitting across from her, solid and immutable and unequivocally real, causes a low-lying embarrassment to settle in the pit of her stomach.

- titled “giving up”, in which Maka has too-real dreams about future her and Soul in a relationship that makes her start to question what she wants in the present

Shinigami are tools of the living, and so your father tried to write it into the flesh of his firstborn. But tools must have wielders, ones that are equal to the strength of the task, or all risk being consumed. A lesson the world learnt swiftly, but not so swift to prevent your creation.
Asura had a name. Your father merely calls you Kid, and on good days you think that to be a source of pride. On bad days, you think it to be a reminder of the brother you are too close to becoming.

- titled “ghosted with the memories gone astray”, Kid’s part of inverse weapon-meister AU

" 'Never being able to live up to my father?' " he interrupts, tone deadly level. "Don't worry, Maka, you made that point quite well yesterday too, and I assure you, I am well aware of all that I am lacking in comparison to him." Even with the mask, she can read his quiet grief, hear the loss in his voice. The crushing weight of regret and guilt bears down upon her, and she nearly reaches out for him, lips already forming an apology -
But Kid's next words betray none of the lost son she once called 'friend', and her ire spikes as he says, "However, I will tell you as I told you not twenty-four hours ago: whether or not I possess all the qualities as my late father, I am still your god - and your employer. Therefore I suggest you treat me with the respect I deserve."

- tentatively titled “Maka Albarn’s Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day” where Maka gets stuck in a time loop after her insecurities cause her to piss off two very important people to her

Soul doesn't say, You were the one that challenged him in the first place. He doesn't say, Kid's our friend, and you know he only agreed to it because he knew it'd make you happy. He doesn't say, Stop being a sore loser and acting like a brat and let's go play basketball to blow off some steam.
He doesn't say, I wish you cared half as much about my opinion as you do Kid's.
What he does say is, "If you break your hands, we won't be able to challenge him for a rematch tomorrow."

- untitled Soul/Black*Star fic (with minor Star/Kid and SoMa)

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Miraculous Ladybug

"Get up," he's mumbling. "Get up. Get up. Get up."
"Cha-" Marinette swallows, tries again. "Ch-Chat Noir?"
Her hand brushes against his elbow and he flinches, immediately curling back up into himself, shoulders shaking.
"Please," he rasps, voice muffled through his arms. "Please. Just a few minutes."
The small, beaten note in his voice breaks her heart, and in its place a burning need to do something flares up. "Wait there," she tells him firmly, moving towards the hatch. "I'll be right back."
But when Marinette comes back, pitcher of water and a platter of cookies balanced precariously in her hands, the balcony is empty. Nothing is there to even suggest that he was there in the first place. She leaves her offerings on the little table anyway, just in case.
She throws the soggy, dew-laden cookies away the next morning.

- untitled, AU where Chat Noir got his miraculous but Marinette never did

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Tales of Arise

You hated your dad's questions. Your words stumbled along without a shred of the eloquence that your father was known for, and you knew, you knew that the more you rambled the stupider you sounded, but you couldn't help it. All you could do was watch the furrow between his brows grow deeper and deeper and no amount of talking could smooth it out. Whatever answer he was looking for, you could never find it, and always walked away feeling like you had disappointed him deeply and would never live up to him.

- titled “an angry blade”, exploration of Law’s life immediately after his mother dies up to where he joins the group

It's enough of a concession that Law's able to recede back into his usual barely-awake state of being during these events. Or attempt to, anyway. Instead he spends the next twenty minutes berating himself for his lapse in judgement. He had survived nearly four years in this hellhole by doing his best to avoid everyone else and keeping his head down and mouth shut; he wasn't tough enough or clever enough to survive any other way. And yeah, okay, he wasn't always very good at shutting up or not drawing attention to himself when his temper got the best of him, but he'd at least been able to stick to the avoiding part. So naturally, less than two days after getting the crap beaten out of him, he decides to go for broke, and with someone who not only has actively threatened to kill him but is also incredibly invested in projecting how much she loathes the organization to everyone who has eyes.

- titled “face to face on high places”, where Law, working for the Snake Eyes, accidentally discovers his fellow agent Rinwell is a double agent for the Silver Swords

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Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun

Tsukasa can be obedient. Tsukasa can follow rules. Tsukasa can stop running around like a crazy person, can tuck in his shirt, can stop yammering a mile a minute, can keep his hands to himself when Amane orders him to. He is content, mostly, to let Amane tell him when to stop being Tsukasa and to be more Amane, a distinction he's only just begun to realize. Especially when it means that the perpetual little crease between Amane's eyebrows will smooth out briefly, when it means that Amane might agree to play a game with him, maybe even come exploring if he's lucky.

- titled “when you hit me, hit me hard”, which is an exploration of the events leading up to Amane’s death from Tsukasa’s perspective (and is totally non-compliant with canon!)

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Folk of Air by Holly Black

Here are your few talents: You can lie as well as a fae is able to. You've a fair hand for stealing and you're better at most at slyfooting and sleight of hand. You've a talent for gossip and secrets and change roles and attitudes as easily as slipping into a new pair of clothes. You also have, through much trial and error and threat of death, acquired a particular skill of slipping in and out of the mortal world without detection by Madoc's patrols.
Here are your worst weaknesses: The inability to curb your tongue. The tendency to find levity at the worst of times, most often when on the other side of a fist. Your tail, which gives away your every anxious thought. The latter at least you can control by hiding it. As for the others, well, you've gotten very good at running, and, failing that, you've had much experience in taking a beating and still living afterwards, even if it's from the perspective of the floor.

- untitled fic with role reversal between Cardan and Jude, where Jude is the human princess of the realm after Madoc carved his bloody way to the throne, and Cardan is a rogue thief just trying to make it another day without getting killed

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Luca (Pixar Film)

Anytime you jump off a cliff or tell Bruno to shut up, I'll be there, Alberto had said, and so it was. But he was there even when Luca wasn't trying to be brave - or rather, the lack of him was. With every pillow fort he built with Giulia, with every new food he tried, he felt his absence, an Alberto-shaped hole that made every experience just a little more dull.
He did his best to fill this emptiness with letters, and hearing Alberto's voice on the phone, with all of its verve and expression, helped to blur his absence a little more.
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Uprooted (Naomi Novik)

"You're trying to capture something that can't be captured," Agnieszka tells him reproachfully. "It's not like - magic isn't some sort of math equation. It has a life of its own, like a stream, and you just guide it to where you want it to go." And then she's off again about forests and gleaning and picking trails and other words that sound more like they belong in a guidebook for hiking than a treatise on magic. It's like they're speaking two completely different languages. Sarkan has never felt this mystical "consciousness" to his magic, no sense of a will or instinct. Every spell he's ever done on purpose has been the steady, patient work of building: the spells providing the blueprints, his words placing the bricks, his magic holding them together like mortar.

- untitled fic with role reversal between Agnieszka and Sarkan, where Agnieszka is the centuries old witch of the woods and Sarkan a 17-year-old orphan who just wants to steal her magical books

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It has been a very long time since I have posted, and it has been a very long time since I’ve finished any piece of fanfiction. But I have been writing in spurts and pieces for various fandoms as they catch my interest, and while none of them may see the light of day, there are still parts of them that I like and enjoy. So in an effort to encourage and to reassure myself that even if no complete work comes out of it, I can still be satisfied with doing things the way I want to do them, in the time I want to do them, I’ve decided to post a couple of my favorite lines from unfinished works. I was intending to do this just for 2022 but since I write in OneNote and write snippets years after I’ve started something, it’ll just be a general catch all, posting them in accordance with the fandoms they’re associated with. Here’s hoping 2023 will inspire me, and whoever is reading this, to write!

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In Plain Sight - Chapter 2

Here’s chapter 2, guys! If you missed chapter 1, you can start the story [here] or [here] !

Summary: In a world where everything is black-and-white until you find your soulmate, one learns to navigate in shades of gray. When Soul, an agent tasked with recruiting operatives for the FBI’s tech division, gets a tip about Maka, a sharp-witted hacker flying under the radar, their story is bound to be a colorful one.

Chapter 2: Somebody’s Watchin’ Me

It’s been three days, and in theory, nothing has changed.

Soul wakes up late again, worms into the same pants, and drops his phone while putting on said pants. At work, his computer loads like molasses as he nurses a coffee cup, staring at the update bar through sleep-heavy eyes. He sits at the same desk, with the same task: wasting his life away, monitoring his newest recruit.

This is all well and good - except, of course, for the fact that everything has changed.

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In Plain Sight

Happy SoMa week friends!!! Here’s part 1 of a story that I couldn’t resist writing for the Complementary theme. Thank you oodles to @jaded-envy, @makapedia, @alliope and @piercelovewonton for the eyes <3

Summary: In a world where everything is black-and-white until you find your soulmate, one learns to navigate in shades of gray. When Soul, an agent tasked with recruiting operatives for the FBI’s tech division, gets a tip about Maka, a sharp-witted hacker flying under the radar, their story is bound to be a colorful one.

Rating: T for language, rampant invasions of digital privacy, vague references to animal abuse, and probably a lot of innuendos.

The summer heat is suffocating, even in black and white.

They’ve been cramped up here for hours, pamphlets scattered across the floor, tiles stark white in the fluorescent lights. It’s almost cruel, the irony of such a cold, unforgiving place completely devoid of air conditioning.

August heat in Washington D.C. is especially oppressive; humid and lingering, it’s the kind of heat that makes you feel like the devil himself is rising up from the concrete to greet you, hovering just out of reach.

Luckily, Maka Albarn loves the heat. And catching demons is what she does best.

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the brother

Hello again friends, and we’re back on track. This one begins with a very important flashback…

Incidentally, with few exceptions, almost all of the places described are real. Blanchard Springs Caverns, as mentioned in the blood, are a series of caves located in Arkansas; in this chapter, we visit Buffalo Central Terminal, and the facts said are as true as my research could ascertain.

Comments, criticism and reblogs are always highly appreciated. Thank you for reading! Full story here: AO3 || FF.Net

WAYWARD SOULS ACT ONE: PACTS the brother

“The train station was built in 1926,” Wes says, Maserati humming quietly as he shifts gears. “They decided to construct it a good way away from the city, to avoid congestion, and because they expected the city’s borders to eventually expand and encompass it.”

“Fascinating,” Soul drawls, cheek propped up on a hand, head resting against the window. His eyes follow the mile markers as they flash past.

“It’s a pretty big building - fifteen stories of office towers, fourteen train platforms, and a huge mezzanine. Too big, it turned out, especially once the automobile started gaining popularity and people stopped using public transportation to go long distances. But at least that means there will be many areas for us to explore, right, Soul?”

“Mmhm.” He sneaks a glance at his brother, who sits prim and proper in the driver’s seat, hands perfectly aligned at ten and two. Wes is dressed down for the occasion, which means he’s still wearing clothes that would immediately get him mugged. It’s weird seeing him outside of suits and tuxedos, Soul thinks as he turns back to the window. Not that Wes’s busy schedule had allowed him to see much of him at all lately.

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the brother

Hello again friends, and we’re back on track. This one begins with a very important flashback...

Incidentally, with few exceptions, almost all of the places described are real. Blanchard Springs Caverns, as mentioned in the blood, are a series of caves located in Arkansas; in this chapter, we visit Buffalo Central Terminal, and the facts said are as true as my research could ascertain.

Comments, criticism and reblogs are always highly appreciated. Thank you for reading! Full story here: AO3 || FF.Net

WAYWARD SOULS ACT ONE: PACTS the brother

"The train station was built in 1926," Wes says, Maserati humming quietly as he shifts gears. "They decided to construct it a good way away from the city, to avoid congestion, and because they expected the city's borders to eventually expand and encompass it."

"Fascinating," Soul drawls, cheek propped up on a hand, head resting against the window. His eyes follow the mile markers as they flash past.

"It's a pretty big building - fifteen stories of office towers, fourteen train platforms, and a huge mezzanine. Too big, it turned out, especially once the automobile started gaining popularity and people stopped using public transportation to go long distances. But at least that means there will be many areas for us to explore, right, Soul?"

"Mmhm." He sneaks a glance at his brother, who sits prim and proper in the driver's seat, hands perfectly aligned at ten and two. Wes is dressed down for the occasion, which means he's still wearing clothes that would immediately get him mugged. It's weird seeing him outside of suits and tuxedos, Soul thinks as he turns back to the window. Not that Wes’s busy schedule had allowed him to see much of him at all lately.

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the secret

Onto chapter four, where the plot thickens…

Comments, criticism and reblogs are always highly appreciated. Thank you for reading!

Full story here: AO3 || FF.Net

WAYWARD SOULS ACT ONE: PACTS the secret

The first thing Soul becomes aware of is the music.

Scratchy, poorly recorded jazz presses against him, muffled by the darkness. Other things gradually begin to make themselves known to him: dark, velvet red curtains, gleaming grand piano, and candles that seem to enhance the darkness rather than drive it away.

He looks down at himself, rubs the pinstripe suit between his fingers. It dawns on him why this feels familiar, why this suit hangs heavy on him, but he pushes that aside.

“Well well well,” comes a voice. Soul blinks, focuses on crooked teeth, calculating eyes, a sinister smile. “Look who’s back already,” the demon says. It sweeps its arms, encompasses the dark room. “Recognize this place?”

“No,” Soul lies.

The demon settles into one of the plush armchairs. “Oh really? Doesn’t ring any bells?” It cocks its head at him innocently. “The magnificent piano performance, the lackluster violin accompaniment, the adoring crowd with eyes only for the younger brother - your dearest wish come true, right?”

Shut up,” Soul snarls. “Why am I here? What is this place?”

The demon waves its hand airily. “Here. There. Nowhere. Think of it as a space…in between.”

“In between what?”

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the secret

Onto chapter four, where the plot thickens...

Comments, criticism and reblogs are always highly appreciated. Thank you for reading!

Full story here: AO3 || FF.Net

WAYWARD SOULS ACT ONE: PACTS the secret

The first thing Soul becomes aware of is the music.

Scratchy, poorly recorded jazz presses against him, muffled by the darkness. Other things gradually begin to make themselves known to him: dark, velvet red curtains, gleaming grand piano, and candles that seem to enhance the darkness rather than drive it away.

He looks down at himself, rubs the pinstripe suit between his fingers. It dawns on him why this feels familiar, why this suit hangs heavy on him, but he pushes that aside.

"Well well well," comes a voice. Soul blinks, focuses on crooked teeth, calculating eyes, a sinister smile. "Look who's back already," the demon says. It sweeps its arms, encompasses the dark room. "Recognize this place?"

"No," Soul lies.

The demon settles into one of the plush armchairs. "Oh really? Doesn't ring any bells?" It cocks its head at him innocently. "The magnificent piano performance, the lackluster violin accompaniment, the adoring crowd with eyes only for the younger brother - your dearest wish come true, right?"

"Shut up," Soul snarls. "Why am I here? What is this place?"

The demon waves its hand airily. "Here. There. Nowhere. Think of it as a space…in between."

"In between what?"

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