Cora couldn’t help but grin at Quilla’s infectious enthusiasm. She was still nervous about seeing the doctor herself- she didn’t really want a label -but she knew she couldn’t handle things by herself anymore. After hours of making quiet inquiries, it seemed this particular doctor had a wicked reputation, and Cora figured it was with a shot.
But her smile faded the moment Quilla started to talk about her ex. Her eyes narrowing into slits, she asked (the words razor sharp), “What do you mean your ex is up to his old antics?” Cora hadn’t been around when Quilla’s tulgey, slithy, jerk of an ex had first been truly awful to her, but she was now. Cora wasn’t about to let anyone treat her friend like that.
Quilla looks down and twiddles her thumbs around each other. She knows she can trust Cora, but that doesn’t mean talking about any of it is easy. It’s not necessarily the one recent incident—it’s a stockpile of incidents growing and growing over time, and she would’ve been able to push past it if it weren’t for the fact that he had been so public about it.
“Just…” she stops and lets herself breathe before the inevitable rant. “He’s spreading some…slander about me. To his people, as well as my own. He had this interview with a local news reporter, who asked about me and his relationship with me, and well…” she shrugs. “He managed to convince a lot of people that…I, um…I’m not fit to be a ruler. That I’m too cra…” she bites her lip, unable to speak that word. A word Maq had weaponized against her, cut into her core with. Crazy. Crazy, crazy, crazy…
“I…I was hoping now, now that I’m not with him, that he wouldn’t be able to affect me anymore. That I would no longer feel trapped. But, I…I still feel that a part of me is, and I don’t know if that feeling’s ever gonna go away, not while he’s still out there spinning that tangled web of his. I’m always getting caught. No matter what I do, I’m stuck.”
“He’s just…he’s so charming and attractive and knows all of the right things to say, never loses his cool, always makes sure he sounds perfectly logical…these things add up. I’m…I don’t have any of that in me. I’ve tried to be, tried to change myself so that my people would see me as more credible, but, they…I don’t know…” Burying her face in her hands, she steadies her breathing. It’s all she can do to prevent herself from breaking down into sobs.