I’m moving away from my hometown

And I’m panicking and starting to second guess myself. I just wanted to try something different, do something different, but now I’m TERRIFIED that I’m making a poor choice. Because this isn’t a pretty move. It’s nothing like the rose tinted coming of age movies or the practical next step after completing a degree program. This is a desperate soul move more than anything. It’s a driving 8 hours out of stare with $300 to my name, a box of clothes, no degree, a car note and insurance hovering over me that I have to figure out how to pay because my car may be my home for a while type of move. The alternative was death in one way or another though, be it mentally or physically. How would you choose between death and fear? So I chose. And I’m scared. And my anxiety is flaring. But even in all of that there is this sliver of hope. And THAT is why I’m so terrified. Because more than anything in my life, hope... or rather the loss of it, has hurt me the most.

But I want to leave. I want to live. I want to learn. And most of all, I want to write. So I’ll be afraid for now. And I’ll cry. And I’ll scream. And I’ll shout. Then, when I’m empty, I hope I can rejoice.

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I managed to calm down then the panic came back WORSE 😭

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I did it. I moved. With the fear. With the doubt. With the skeleton of a plan. And it worked. I’m here. I’m fine. I’m free.

#moving #dear lord #thank you #i made it #happy dance

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The 100

For the record the two seasons with the lowest body counts on this show are seasons 1 and 6. Both seasons where Bellamy and Clarke spend a lot of time together tag teaming the leadership of their people.

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goawfma

skai scalped azealia banks you’d think people know better than to mess with her 😭

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tfry1440

Okay but honestly how the fuck dare you tell her to stop posting about someone she loves and hold dear to her, and had ripped away from her so unexpectedly???? Like the audacity is killing me right now 😒😒😒

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ruzekburgess

Octavia Blake + grounder braids

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whoareyouandwhyshouldicare

Representation Matters

fightbee

I’m a preschool teacher and theres a black boy in my class named Miles and when I showed him the trailer he got SO excited, everytime I see him I say what’s up spiderman and he practically yells “IM SPIDERMAN!!!!” With the biggest smile on his face. Representation DOES matter and I’m happy that my kids are able to see more people who look like us in positive media :’)

whoareyouandwhyshouldicare

GIF by bluewritesthings-blog

Same thing happened with my daughter when was 7 and Annie came out. All of a sudden she wanted to go to Broadway to try out for the lead role. We had seen the original one several times but it never occurred to her that she could be any too. One more time for the cheap seats

oftimelordsandwizards

I work at a bookstore and a few weeks ago a little black boy came in wearing a spider-man shirt. I asked him who his favorite spider man was. He replied Peter Parker. I told him mine was Miles.He didn’t know who Miles was so I took him to see the cover of a book with Miles on it. I watched a look of confusion come over his face. He looked up at me and said. “But he is black.” I said “Yeah. Spider-man is black is those comics.” His eyes got big and he grabbed the comics from my hand before running off yelling. “Mom! Mom! Spider-man looks like me! Spider-man looks like me!”

This is a wholesome post and i am smiling very wide from imagining how happy these children must have been and still are. Like…this is adorable. Representation matters. Pass it on

oh my god my heart that kid finding miles for the first time oh my god

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every-kiss-begins-with-potassium

a) perfect example of people discrediting clever idea & intelligence of a female due to her appearance, and b) all these people wouldn’t have noticed her kit, which was her goal in the first place

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I’m moving away from my hometown

And I’m panicking and starting to second guess myself. I just wanted to try something different, do something different, but now I’m TERRIFIED that I’m making a poor choice. Because this isn’t a pretty move. It’s nothing like the rose tinted coming of age movies or the practical next step after completing a degree program. This is a desperate soul move more than anything. It’s a driving 8 hours out of stare with $300 to my name, a box of clothes, no degree, a car note and insurance hovering over me that I have to figure out how to pay because my car may be my home for a while type of move. The alternative was death in one way or another though, be it mentally or physically. How would you choose between death and fear? So I chose. And I’m scared. And my anxiety is flaring. But even in all of that there is this sliver of hope. And THAT is why I’m so terrified. Because more than anything in my life, hope... or rather the loss of it, has hurt me the most.

But I want to leave. I want to live. I want to learn. And most of all, I want to write. So I’ll be afraid for now. And I’ll cry. And I’ll scream. And I’ll shout. Then, when I’m empty, I hope I can rejoice.

imgabbyrae

I managed to calm down then the panic came back WORSE 😭

#moving #dear lord #help me please

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I’m moving away from my hometown

And I’m panicking and starting to second guess myself. I just wanted to try something different, do something different, but now I’m TERRIFIED that I’m making a poor choice. Because this isn’t a pretty move. It’s nothing like the rose tinted coming of age movies or the practical next step after completing a degree program. This is a desperate soul move more than anything. It’s a driving 8 hours out of stare with $300 to my name, a box of clothes, no degree, a car note and insurance hovering over me that I have to figure out how to pay because my car may be my home for a while type of move. The alternative was death in one way or another though, be it mentally or physically. How would you choose between death and fear? So I chose. And I’m scared. And my anxiety is flaring. But even in all of that there is this sliver of hope. And THAT is why I’m so terrified. Because more than anything in my life, hope... or rather the loss of it, has hurt me the most.

But I want to leave. I want to live. I want to learn. And most of all, I want to write. So I’ll be afraid for now. And I’ll cry. And I’ll scream. And I’ll shout. Then, when I’m empty, I hope I can rejoice.

#moving #relocation #i want to write #transition #fear #coming of age #late bloomer #i really need help #trying #something new #life in your 20s #20s suck #i need to cry

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ransomflanagan

You’re late again.

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physicallyqueer

I have so much respect for the people of New Zealand for the actions that they have taken in the days following the Christchurch terrorist attack. On a slight sidenote tho: America, take some fucking notes, please, for the love of god

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Anonymous asked:

Did you notice in the end hug scene how when Clarke first says she ‘tried to do better’ and Bellamy nods a bit, so does she? I think that was mirroring, and further evidence of how connected and ONE they were in that moment. I even noticed when she starts to unload everything to him, he starts to get emotional - his mouth opens and closes as she gets more intense, and his breaths even alter, like he’s crying/feeling the emotion with her. All the detail is amazing if you look!

sometimesrosy answered:

It is. They are “together.” They are feeling with each other. They are inhabiting each other’s realities. They are coming from the same place, on the same mission, and feeling the same things, remembering the same things.

This is the first hug where they are this together. They aren’t reuniting from afar. They aren’t separating. They aren’t making amends or trying to come back together. They aren’t even really looking to be comforted. They are in sync, together and they need to be together, to share, to talk, to understand, to feel.

This has definitely become my absolute favorite hug because of this.

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sometimesrosy

Anonymous asked:

Fandom thought Bell’s arc was just about Clarke, but no. His main arc was to save EVERYONE. There was a plan for peace. The sec. he knew Clarke was alive, he dropped said plan, coming up w/ another (w/ everyone) to save Clarke b/c there was no way in hell he WASN’T going to save her. He didn’t have to alter it, he chose to. B/c he loves her. That DIDN’T mean he didn’t also want to save everyone else, hence the mind drive plan. He was trying to protect everyone, while still saving Clarke’s life.

sometimesrosy answered:

I agree with that.

He was also trying to do better, to be better. With the trauma of leaving her behind to sacrifice herself last time, he was also trying to fix that. KNOWING that she was alive, and sacrificing her would make it easier for them?? He couldn’t do that.

BUT, you know, while that’s the plot line character arc and that makes a lot of sense, I believe that he ALSO has a personal arc, on a deeper level. We have head and heart development, and he made a great deal of forward movement on using his head in season 5, and I think he actually finished his hero’s journey. But that left him without a deeper character development story…. except, I think he took Monty’s OTHER instruction to heart. Not just to be the good guys, but also to live a good life like him and Harper. To find love.

The thing is, not only did Bellamy seek out love this season with CLARKE, allowing his feelings for her to come out and lead his decision making AND to be honest about them with her, but he also regained his love for his sister. This is in addition to his love for his people who he refused to leave behind and sacrifice.

He was a little harsh with the sanctum folk, but that’s because he was led by his heart. He listened to his head, but season 6 Bellamy was the heart again, and it showed.