we slept at last

at a certain point in your leftism you have to decide that, beyond just not being killed, colonized people have an right to self-determination, without any qualifiers, caveats, or conditions. a sincere anti-colonial stance has no exceptions

Andrea Gibson

Verba Mystica

Pedro de Mena - Ecce Homo (c. 1674). Detail.

we cant be meant to live like this why does everyone live like this!!!!!!! (opens tinder) (hates tinder) (opens tinder) (signs a lease) (sits alone) (exchanges instagrams) (never talks to them again) (feels weird about texting people inviting them to hang out) (feels weird about texting) (feels like if i deleted social media i would stop existing) (doesn’t use social media) (continues to exist) (continues to sit alone) (buys food at the grocery store for one) (food goes bad) (doesn’t talk to strangers) (doesn’t hold hands) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes bad) (food goes

BERNIE FUCHS Love In San Francisco Acrylic and Pencil on Board 20.25″ x 19.5″

DAEMON TARGARYEN and RHAENYRA TARGARYEN holding hands in HOUSE OF THE DRAGON 1.04 “King of the Narrow Sea”

Lily of the Valley Field

gouache on paper, 2018

by Kelly Louise Judd

Idk what it is but these convey the same feral energy @hearteyesmp3

Charles Baudelaire, Les Fleurs du Mal; "Consecration" / Shakespeare, Much Ado About Nothing / Angela Carter, The Bloody Chamber and other stories; "The Erl-King"

Out of the ash I rise with my red hair And I eat men like air.

(Lady Lazarus - Sylvia Plath)

Angela Carter, ‘Unicorn’

Louise Gluck, Circe’s Power

push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.