keep running

I've decided I'm not even gonna tinfoil hat about MCR5. I've been existing for 10 years just knowing it's gonna be a thing that happens. My faith never wavered that they'd come back and I've always felt that a new album would happen, not a matter of if, but when. So come get me when it gets announced or drops, I'm too old for speculation 😅

My favorite thing is realizing that some weird habit I have now is because no one taught me better when I was a kid. JFC my mom really didn't give two shits about going out of her way to make sure I was doing the little things to take care of myself, and my dad was either at work or too checked out (either tired/sleeping, or drunk) to pay much attention either. I love making myself sad 🙃

No photo today, but did strength training this evening once I got home from an eyebrow wax appointment and grocery shopping. I sat down to eat dinner after and my quads were SCREAMING. Tomorrow is finally my rest day and I'm very excited 😅

Treat obtained 😊

Oh my god 🥹 that's so awesome! I hope you have lots of fun and you have to report back on how it's going!!

Ugh, I love being a weather nerd, but it still stresses me out. There's something probably super deep and meaningful about how weather just happens to us and all we can do is prepare ourselves for it by dressing appropriately or having a safety plan in place or whatever. So when the forecast calls for severe weather today through Sunday, its stressful! The worst part is no one knows for sure what will be happening and interprets data differently or uses different models or whatever.

I tend to find Max Velocity on YouTube to be the most chill, I guess you could say. Like he'll tell you "yea there might be an outbreak," but he'll be very clear on when and where. Whereas you get like Ryan Hall, and he's like, "Saturday there is gonna be severe weather from the Upper Penninsula of Michigan to the Texas/Mexico border!" Like 😐 I know I should just pick one and stick with them for the forecasts, but I do like all of these weather guys on YouTube for one reason or another.

Anyway. Speaking of leaving things up to someone else, I sent an email back to the potential running coach that I'd like to make this official. But until she gets back to me with the paperwork and stuff, I don't have my workouts for next week and that's such a weird feeling. Like yes, I will have probably have 6 days of workouts, with 3 of them being base building runs, but I don't know specifics and that's such an odd feeling for me.

So much letting go of control and letting things just happen as they will. It's very strange for me.

On another topic of things I can't control but wish I could: my mom seems to be in the middle of a depressive episode, but being a boomer, will not go to therapy even if Medicare covers it, which leaves me to hear all about it. Like her spiraling about her friend who lives a couple blocks away walking over with her wife to drop off a birthday present and how my mom won't be able to control Shandy and how she won't even be able to fake being appreciative! Only to have her reply 15 minutes later that it was fine and the dogs were well behaved and blah blah blah. Like this is how she is all the time. She freaks out about something, spirals and catastrophizes, and then whatever it is resolves, and it's fine. And the only one she talks to about it is me. 😮‍💨 and then I come on here and dump it all over you guys... wait fuck I'm the asshole here.

So anyway if I don't get a sweet treat after work I'm gonna snap 🙂

Not boomers getting all snippy about the "new" Jake from State Farm. I don't get paid enough to listen to this dumb shit