Lost

I was so depressed this morning that I couldn’t even bring myself to get out of bed. Things are going downhill fast. I feel like my relationship is crashing and burning, and my partner doesn’t care. He’s made that perfectly clear in the fact that we haven’t spoken since Monday when he basically ripped my heart out. Aside from work I’ve been crying pretty much non stop since then. He hasn’t even bothered to ask if I’m okay. I’m not speaking to him again until he figures out that I’m waiting, and then we’re no doubt gonna have a blowout fight. It’s gonna be bad. 

If he can’t bend even a little and try to compromise on this, then I don’t want to be here anymore. 

Crushed

When the one simple obtainable dream you have is just within reach and then crushed.

All I want is a friend and he actually gave me hope that he'd allow it.

Fool me twice.

Loving This!

The newest fic I'm working on is so far based solely on my wacky dreams. And I'm loving it. Just figured out the finale. :)

Help

Hey SVUheads what do we know about Mike Dodds brother Matthew Dodds? Is he older/younger? I vaguely remember him being trouble. Any help would be greatly appreciated. :)

Ugh, angst

With not much to go on for Mike Dodds character, the fix I've been working on is soo hard. I've been writing him based on someone from my past who sort of "got away".

And holy hell it's hitting me right in the feels. 💔

Youtube Copyright

I haven’t actually addressed this yet, though I know a few of you have already messaged me concerning this, but Youtube has blocked all of my videos for copyright. 

- Dodds - Saturn

- Rollisi - Unconditionally

- Rollisi - Look How far They’ve Come

These were fanworks close to my heart. And now I can’t share these works with the world because NBC says so. All of us work hard for our works celebrating these characters that we love and cherish, and NBC doesn’t see that. 

I feel more than stabbed in the back. NBC, you’ve broken my heart. 

@avenuepotter

Feel free to tag anyone who has been affected by this. I hope @nbcsvu realizes that we write and vid and build these fanworks because we love these characters that they’ve brought to life, and that we want to bring in more fans to enjoy the show with us. Not because we have ulterior motives.

I started watching SVU because of a fanvid I stumbled upon on Youtube one day. And now that vid is gone. 

Dodds fic: Update

It’s coming. 

Life’s been crazy busy for the last little bit, but the story is slowly but surely coming. 

:)

Frustrated as hell

When you have such a great fic planned and you can't write it cuz you work full time and by the time you get home you are too mentally tired and then all your days off are taken up by adult things and you just want to cry. UGH. ON THE BRIGHT SIDE: I got a HUGE promotion at work :D And I'm moving in a few weeks into a beautiful apartment with my lovely man. Can't be toooooo sour. :)