Just a little life update.
My mom is doing ok. The chemo is rough for her, and she’s on a fuck ton of pain and nausea meds, but it seems like the growth in her is slowly shrinking. I’m all in the clear too, but I’m more worried about her than anything. She love sit when I bring Apollo over so he can just love on her and nap in her lap. He loves her so much it’s adorable.
I feel like I’m just hanging on most of the time. I rarely see friends and when I do we social distance with masks the whole time. Which sucks but it’s for the best for my mom. But fuck could I use their hugs right now, you know? I’m also sad about Chen enlisting because I just hope he knows that there are still fans out here who understand and support him.
The only thing in my life I’m looking forward to right now is literally all the video games coming out. I’m finally jumping on an Assassin’s Creed game for the first time with the new one and (fingers crossed) Cyberpunk 2077 will FINALLY come out. Literally that’s the only thing I’ve been looking forward to outside of like... EXO solos and stuff. Also my new laptop can fun some games, so I’ve been playing Hades in my spare time just letting my anger out at something other then bottling it all up. I’ve also been going to therapy, which is helping be cope with the stuff my mom is going through along with still not being fully over the death of my grandmother. That insight into myself was NOT FUN but defiantly needed.
Lastly, let me take the last bit of this to just say to VOTE IF YOU CAN. My state is letting everyone vote Absentee because of Covid, which is awesome. I did that already. If they didn’t let us I’d have to actually wait and go on election day because we don’t have early voting. Just vote if you can! Even I voted, and I’m pretty sure that my vote will be drowned out because of where I live, but I still did it just in case.
Sorry once again for not updating. I’m just... when my mind has been like it is for the past few months, I just kind of can’t find motivation to write. I will try when I can. I’m taking from November 17th until December 1st off because it’s vacation time and it’s a ‘use it or lose it’ sort of deal. I’ll see if I can manage to write something if not before then, then by then.
You all have been so kind and supportive of me over the years I’ve been writing. I truly feel the kindness and the compassion even if we don’t actually see one another face to face. Please know that I appreciate all of you with every fiber of my being <3