thoughts, thoughts, thoughts.
cast: idol!jungwon x reader ft. enhypen, txt, etc.
what happens when yang jungwon has to go back to school? will he make friends or will he hate everyone and hide in a little corner every chance he gets to get away from everyone? all we know is that he will, most definitely, get kicked where the sun doesn't shine.
warning(s): vivid mentions and descriptions of anxiety and panic attacks, trespassing, misgendering, illegal and unprofessional tattoos and piercings, vivid mentions and descriptions of suicidal thoughts and ideation, etc.
you were back at school again and it was safe to say, you absolutely hated it. you could feel the stares of nonexistent drilling into your back and as much as you knew no one was actually looking at you, you struggled to shake off the feeling.
you had begged your dad to let you stay home for another week but he had just held you close and whispered comforting words into your ears as you sobbed into his chest. he wanted you to give it a chance, go for a day and see how that plays out.
yet, here you were, barely having the strength to hold it all together as you walked into the empty classroom you had grown used to.
you sat at your desk with a sigh, your hoodie-clad arms coming up to rest on the table before you dropped your head onto them. the room was silent once again as you got consumed by your thoughts.
the same thoughts that haunted your mind day in and day out. the same thoughts that crept into your dreams as you slept, shaking you from your slumber and leaving you clutching at gashes you couldn't feel that assured you that you were still alive.
the thoughts picked you apart and ate you alive. the thoughts that told you to eat to fill the emptiness inside you, only to call you fat and ridicule your body all in the confines of your own mind. the thoughts that simply shrugged at your helpless sobs, telling you 'this is life' and then continuing to make you suffer because this was life.
the thoughts that enthralled you so much, that you didn't even hear someone shuffling into the room. you couldn’t feel them pushing your hair away and placing headphones over your ears until loud music started blasting through them.
you looked up to see jungwon smiling down at you, mouthing a hello before dashing off to his seat and you couldn’t help but smile.