I’m back?????? It’s been almost two years but I’m back and…..ready to write again.

I have moved to @bookishgalaxies if anyone wants to see me there :))

Me out here like: nooo I don’t want to go to the beach and watch the sunset. I want to clean the apartment at 3 a.m. and belt the Percy Jackson musical with you.

Anyone else?

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Characters: Todoroki x reader

Status: Not Proofread

Reader: Hates crowded spaces // nothing else mentioned

Type: Oneshot // Angst? // Fluff

Warnings: crowded spaces, mild anxiety attacks

A/n: I’m…..back? After not posting for like….forever because school sucks I’m back, and I missed it all. So hello, and my deepest apologies for this taking SO LONG! Also….I just want to point out that I do myself have anxiety, BUT, everyone’s experience is different. If this offends you I’m any way PLEASE LET ME KNOW and I can take it down.

It could have been a lovely Friday night. Filled with you and Shoto eating takeout and watching a good movie. Cuddling on the couch and staring at each other lovingly instead of actually watching the movie.

Nope, that was hardly the case tonight. Momo had thrown a huge party for class A, B, C, and other friends and family. She really wanted you and Shoto to be there. Since Momo was a good friend of your’s, you agreed, even though you despised parties.

You stood in a darker corner of the room, looking at your phone. Shoto had gone to get you two some water so you were all alone. The room was dark as it is, only having small lights here and there and then a whole lot of neon brightness coming from where the speakers were.

The music was so loud, you felt like your ears had reached maximum capacity. The bass, you could feel it vibrating in your soul. The people, oh my the people. There were so many of them. Screaming, cheering, singing, dancing. So much going on at once.

Luckily, you kept calm, scrolling through your phone, trying to focus on your screen and not, everything else that was going on.

“Y/N, hey, why are you over in the corner?” You heard Mina call as she walked up to you.

“Didn’t wanna, you know, people.” You got out, trying to yell over the loud noises.

“Come on, you gotta dance!” Mina encouraged grabbing your hand

“Mina, I can’t. I suck at dancing.” You said, pulling back

“Oh come on, just once!” Mina insisted, tugging on your wrist.

“One dance.” You agreed, letting her pull you onto e dance floor.

You and Mina got out there and the first thing that came into your mind was how many people there were. Mina had your hands and here’s and you two were doing sort of a sidestep spin kind of thing. It was Mina, you didn’t know. Probably some new TikTok dance or something.

However, you kept feeling yourself dump into multiple people and it felt like they were all closing in on you. You started to sweat, when did it get this hot? Keeping up a smile though as your let Mina happily guide you to the rhythm of the song that was blaring through the speakers.

Your breathing started to quicken. It was as if you couldn’t get enough clean air in. You felt every bit of air you breathed. it was all too deluded with perfume.

The song ended and you quickly asked Mina if she could show your way back to we’re she had found you. It had gotten darker in the room and your head was starting to feel a little dizzy from the lack of air you were I taking.

Mina had a look of disappointment, but agreed. Guiding you back to your exact spot, you thanked her quickly, then sat down on the ground, pulling your knees to your chest.

You looked around, seeing if you a could possibly make out Shoto’s silhouette coming towards you. Nothing, you saw nothing but people and bright neon light coming from the front of the room. You smelled nothing but strong and flowery perfume. You heard nothing but blaring music.

Your mind was overwhelmed. It couldn’t take every sense besides taste and touch being overwhelmed. You felt your throat tighten to the point your breathes where extremely shallow.

You tried to breath, you tried so so so hard to breathe, but every attempt, got you less air. At one point you felt like you were drowning. You couldn’t breathe, you were going to die. Glancing around frantically, trying to find someone, anyone to plead at. There was no one, only a bunch of people dancing to the music.

People, people that might be looking, watching. Watching as you broke down, watching as you suffered. What are they thinking? Why aren’t they doing anything? Are they laughing? You couldn’t hear anything at this point, your ears were drowning everything out besides your shallow breaths.

You felt a hand touch your wrist and you quickly looked in front of you to see your boyfriend with a concerned look on his face. He took your hands in his quickly, giving them a warm embrace.

“Y/n. It’s me, Shoto, your safe, I’m going to take you outside okay? Somewhere quiet.” You faintly heard him say.

You focused on his touch, trying to slow your breathing. He got up and brought you up with him. Shoto looked around for a door, and thankfully found one not too far away from where you two were.

He took your hands and slowly lead you through the crowd of people. You did you best to focus on things that weren’t the feeling of being closed in or the pact of normal breathing happening. Reaching the door, he pushed it open

You would’ve felt the cold air hit your face if you were paying attention, but you weren’t. If your mind was focused and calm you would have seen that the sky was even darker tonight because of the clouds covering the glittering stars. You would have seen that the trees were bare and missing leaves because of the bitter winter. Though most importantly, you would’ve seen that your caring boyfriend was doing his best to get you two toward his vehicle as soon as possible.

Your mind was being pulled back slightly when he helped you into the car. You felt the heat hit your face and looked around realizing there was no one else in sight besides your Shoto. He helped with slowing down your breathing, which aided your mind with going back to a semi-normal state. You let yourself focus on looking at snow starting to fall. You felt Shoto’s cold but soft hands holding your’s. You smelled the cinnamon air freshener you had gotten him for his car as an early small holiday gift. It was all so comforting it was calming you down.

“Your hands are as cold as ice.” You finally said, when you had calmed down enough to talk.

“I forgot my gloves at home.” He simply stated

“You should put them next to the heater.” You said, taking his hand and putting it near the vent blowing warm air.

“Thank you y/n.” He said

“Thank you? For what? Warming your hands, I’m pretty sure you could’ve done that on your own.” You joked

“No, I mean, yes, I could have warmed my hands just fine. I mean, thank you for staying with me during the holidays. It’s always kind of a hard time because….we’ll, you know.” Shoto confessed, implying the struggles with his family making this season very hard for him.

“Hey, anytime, it’s my job to here for you because I love you. And, I want to apologize for back there, I just-“ you were cut off

“Y/n, there is no need to apologize for what happened. It is okay and valid and all the other normal things in between. It simply became too much for you, which is understandable. Everybody has their breaking points, and sometimes, we surpass them and things like this happen.” He told you, in a calm and normal voice.

“I know, but I hated to pull you away from the party.” You said

“Again, it is completely okay. I would choose being here to help you over staying in a loud and crowded room of people any day of my life.”

“Are you serious?” You asked out of somewhat disbelief

“Yes, I am, I really am.” He assured you.

That night, Shoto made sure to get you home and in bed safe and sound. He insisted on staying with you until you fell asleep, and unknowing to you, he left you a small note of on your nightstand that had a lyric he had heard on the radio the other day that reminded him of you. The note read:

“I want you to know that the snow isn’t all that cold if you’ve got someone to hold. Thankfully my someone is you.” - Much love, Sho

He wanted you to awake and have something there to put one of those bright smiles on your face. He deeply wished he could’ve been there to see it.

Hope you have a good day/night!

You are loved!!

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so…..hi. So….I just want to say that, ugh! I avoided coming in here cause I felt bad for not posting. I kinda lost inspiration and motivation when school started and then got tons of work and, I just couldn’t find the time to write. I have some stuff in my drafts that I’m going to finish though. I finally feel up to writing again. So, sorry for hopping out and not giving any explanation as to where I was lol. 😂

Tagging some Mughals that Inerd to say hi to and go like and reblog all their stuff I’ve missed.

@kiwibirbs-library

@kal0psi-a

@blossominglark

@luluwiie

I missed you guys sm!!! 💞💞💞

Hello to anyone who is reading. Apologies again for being so inactive these past two weeks. For everyone who has sent in requests, I have four left and they will all be finished by August 16th. I’m still taking requests for my event but they might take me awhile to get done. Love you all and hope you are staying safe and hydrated! ❤️