Believe This
Pairing: Draco Malfoy x Reader
Warnings: Angst, Draco being an ass, fluff
Summary: The five times he should have said it and the first time he did.
The first time was after you two had been dating for six months. It was Christmas time and the school grounds were covered in a thick layer of snow. You had convinced the platinum haired boy to go outside with you for a walk around the lake. The two of you put on your warmest cloaks and began the short walk to the edge of the now frozen lake. Draco was too busy looking at you to notice the patch of ice directly in front of him and when he fell he managed to drag you down with him. If it had been anyone else with him he might have been more embarrassed, but with you laying on his chest, a rosy blush covering your cheeks from the cold, and snowflakes floating down around your head like a cheesy christmas picture, Draco couldn't really find it in him to care.
Your laughter floated around him like bells and for once he didn't think about his reputation so much as he too let himself laugh freely. As he looked into your y/e/c eyes he felt the words on the tip of his tongue and it shocked him so much he stopped laughing. When you noticed he had stopped you bit your lip and started to move as if to get up but his arms held you tightly to him ignoring the cold snow melting into his clothing beneath him. In a quick motion you almost didn't even see, he placed his lips upon yours and kissed you. When he pulled away he could see the blush on your cheeks get darker and he smirked. Even after six months he could still get a reaction out of you.
The second time had been just two days after the first. Both of you had gotten sick from being outside in the cold so long and you were sure you looked like a mess. Draco, the perfectionist he is, somehow managed to look like a god even when he had bloodshot eyes and a runny nose. Because he had been the one actually getting soaked the most during your excursion in the snow, he was worse off than you were so you had taken it upon yourself to take care of him.
You were constantly bringing him hot tea and making sure he was warm. While you both were on the couch in front of the fireplace in the common room you would run your fingers though his silky hair and massage his neck and shoulders. It was during a moment like that one where he was laying on the couch with his head in your lap as you read a book and combed your fingers through his hair that he felt the need to say those words once more. It didn't shock him as much this time, but he still couldn't bring himself to say the words on the tip of his tongue. Instead he whispered "you're beautiful," causing your hand to stop moving and your eyes to flash to his grey ones.
You scoffed and rolled your eyes. You were sick and unlike the boy on your lap, you looked far from beautiful. "I'm serious, Y/N. No matter what I will always think you're beautiful."
"Even if I dressed myself in a trash bag and and dyed my hair green?" You joked smiling at the blonde below.
"Even then," he replied rolling his eyes before he looked at you seriously once more. "You're not going to do that though, right?" You just laughed and began to read your book once more.
The third time was a few weeks later when you were in the stands cheering him on during the Slytherin versus Ravenclaw Quidditch match. He would catch your eye every once in a while as he was flying around in search of the snitch. He was trying to focus on the match but with the way you were looking at him it was hard. You had dressed in all green, something that he smirked at when you had wished him good luck before the game began, and he could see his scarf wrapped tightly around your neck as well.
When he glanced towards you for the third time in a minute he noticed a hint of gold streaking through the sky. With barely a moment of hesitation he raced off to catch the snitch. Within five minutes the game was over, Slytherin pronounced the winner as Draco caught the golden snitch. When he landed he was immediately surrounded by his teammates and the rest of the Slytherin house but his eyes were glued to your form as you pushed your way through the crowd and jumped into his arms. He was smiling wider than he probably ever had before and you wore a matching smile that caused his chest to constrict almost painfully. The words almost flew out of his mouth then and there but in order to prevent that from happening he pulled you into a passion filled kiss and spun you around. By now it was no surprise that he wanted to admit how he felt, but he wanted to do it in a more private and romantic way.
The fourth time he was actually prepared to say it and he almost had but the door to the common room had flung open right as he was about to. It was his birthday, June 5th, and instead of a party he had taken you on a date by the lake. He would've taken you somewhere off the school grounds but you told him you wanted to stay close by. He had a picnic prepared and a blanket spread out underneath a tree. You both talked for a few hours never seeming to run out of things to say when you suggested that you both should go back to the common room before curfew.
After packing all the things away Draco took your hand in his and walked with you back to the dungeons, his thumb rubbing the back of your hand the entire way. You noticed him glance at you every once in a while and he seemed to be deep in thought but you didn't ask him what was bothering him. Draco was the kind of person that would only tell you when he was ready. As you reached the painting that would lead to the common room he pulled you to a stop. "Y/N, wait. I need to tell you something." He cleared his throat while glancing around as if he was making sure no one was around to hear him. "I've wanted to tell you this for a while now, but I couldn't get it out. I uh-" he paused and grabbed your free hand in his and pulled you closer so that your bodies were almost touching. "I lo-," the painting swung open with a bang and both of you jumped.
"Surprise!" A collective yell from the crowd had Draco almost groaning in frustration. Just as he had finally gotten the courage to admit his feelings it had been interrupted by almost every Slytherin student as well as a few of the more entertaining Ravenclaws. He turned to face you and saw your mischievous grin.
"You planned this?" At your nod he smirked before dragging you inside. He'd tell you later when he could escape this party, but for now he would enjoy the attention and the time he had with you.
The fifth time he should have said those three words wasn't because he felt like it was the right time, it was because he needed to make you understand that he wasn't using you. The birthday party had been underway for a few hours and most everyone was drunk at this point. Both you and Draco had a few drinks but not enough to spoil the evening. Blaise, Draco's friend, was telling spectacular tales of him and Draco, each one slightly more embarrassing than the last. The platinum haired boy was smiling even though he was trying to glare at his friend.
"I'm serious! He screamed so loud that my ears were ringing for days and all because someone had used his shampoo!" Draco sighed but didn't bother to correct his friend. Nobody needed to know that he had actually screamed because he was in pain from a particularly bad torture session from the Dark Lord the day before. "Oh, now this is a good one. So last year Draco here was boasting to everyone how he could get any girl he wanted, right? So me being the amazing friend I am made a bet with him that if he couldn't get a girl of my choosing to go out with him by last Christmas then he would have to tell Potter that he had a crush on him." As soon as Blaise had begun speaking Draco had gone white as a sheet. He motioned to Blaise to stop speaking but the boy had already had more than enough to drink and didn't register the motion.
"Blaise, stop!" The blonde boy shot a look at his friend when he noticed your stony expression.
"No, Draco. I want to hear how this story ends." To the people around you your voice sounded sweet, happy even, but Draco knew the look in your eye was nothing short of devastated.
Blaise, not understanding what was going on between you two, continued. "Draco accepted, obviously, and I chose Y/N as his conquest. We all know what happens then! Just look at the happy couple!" Everyone turned to see Draco seething as he glared at Blaise but you were nowhere to be seen. The blonde didn't make a sound as he turned on his heel and chased after you.
"Y/N, wait!" He spotted your robes disappearing around the corner as he chased you. Luckily for him he had long legs and an athletic build from Quidditch so he was able to catch up easily. He reached out and pulled you to a stop while twisting your body around to face him as he pleaded with you. "I need you to listen to me, Y/N. Please." His heart constricted painfully as he saw the tears streaming down your face.
"Was that true?" You choked out, your throat felt tight and it was hard to see past the tears blurring your eyes. "Was Blaise telling the truth?"
Draco sighed and closed his eyes briefly before nodding. "Yes, but I swear that it's not like that now. It started off because of a bet but after I started getting to know you I realized that I really did like you and I wanted to be with you. If I was only doing it for the bet I wouldn't still be with you. You've got to believe me, Y/N. I lo-." This time it wasn't a door swinging open that interrupted him but your hand as you slapped him.
"Don't," you whispered lowly. "Just don't." With that you ripped yourself from his grasp and stormed away leaving him staring after you with a broken look.
It had been three weeks since his birthday and you were still avoiding him like the plague. He had tried to corner you but each time you managed to slip through his fingers and disappear. Today was the last day at Hogwarts with the train leaving in a few hours. Most of the students were either doing last minute packing or in the Great Hall enjoying the last meal in the castle that year. Draco sat alone at the Slytherin table watching you from afar. You were surrounded by a group of your friends who were all trying to cheer you up but it was no use. A thud sounded beside him making Draco whip around to see Blaise seated next to him.
"She's miserable without you." Draco scoffed at the boy and turned back towards you. Things were rough between him and Blaise ever since the party. It wasn't for lack of trying though as Blaise had apologized profusely, but Draco couldn't seem to care. Without you he was empty. Blaise sighed at the silence he received. "Anyone can see that you love her. They also know that she's completely in love with you as well. Maybe it won't change anything, but not telling her will definitely not change a thing no matter what. If you give up then you'll never know." Draco stayed still for a moment before he stood up and stalked towards you, a look of determination on his face, his eyes blazing.
The hall went silent as everyone watched the blonde approach you. As he got closer you turned to see him heading in your direction. You stood, presumably to get away, but he was quicker than you thought and he latched onto you pulling you close. "I made a mistake." No one dared to make a sound as they listened. Draco spoke quietly, but it was no use as everyone could gear him perfectly. "I was a stupid git and I made a massive mistake when I accepted the bet, but I don't regret it. Not completely, at least." He stared straight into your eyes as he spoke, never once glancing away. "How can I regret something that made me get to know you? If I hadn't of accepted the bet, I might never have realized that I love you Y/N." He paused, trying to see what your reaction was but your mask was firmly in place. "I love you, and if you don't believe that, then believe this."
With those words he slammed his lips on yours and kissed you fiercely. He could almost feel your mask cracking as he moved his lips against yours turning the kiss from harsh to gentle. He felt you begin to kiss back and he smiled into the kiss, moving his hands from your arms to cup the sides of your face. The great hall erupted into cheers from all sides, even a few of the gryffindors appreciating this brave move Draco had made. When he pulled away from you to see your face he couldn't help the smirk when he saw the blush staining your cheeks. Even now, almost a year later, he could still get a reaction out of you. 'Looks like the sixth times the charm,' he thought with a grin.