i knew it was just a matter of time before iβd corrupt your thoughts again
ew why did i let you know me like that
Be the reason why the lights flicker when you enter a room.
Iβve never belonged anywhere Iβm always just in between
remembering your love for me hurts me in unimaginable ways
over it, but i love you still
Iβm not happy.
time to say fuck it and move on
if im on your mind, let me know
the colour of cocaine dripping down your spine wonβt appease your broken heart
some of you have never tried to completely alter your personality in a desperate attempt to avoid people leaving you and it shows
but what if things work out and everything turns out better than you imagined? what if things change and your depression has been lying the entire time? you never know. life has a funny way of coming together sometimes. so donβt give up, and wake up every day knowing that the future is full of good people and small successes and beautiful things that will make your heart swell. it will all be worth it in the end. believe in that.
today, i felt like i was on top of the world. tonight, my heart crumbles a bit more under the weight of my sick reality and i donβt want βtomorrowβ to ever come.