Okay, so this pizza is surprisingly good. It's not my favourite, but half a pizza is a single serving so I'll take it.
So close. Must take one... more... step...
This is an easy workout -- if you're in shape. I am decidedly not in shape. For the first half I was thinking, 'this isn't so bad. I can do something more intense.' By the second half, I was glad I didn't push myself any harder. I've had a bad habit of trying to work out like I used to and then hurting OE exhausting myself. I'm learning to be humble and ease back into things.
Back to the basics. Power 90 looks so dated -- well, I guess it is pretty dated at this point. But it's still a good workout. I thought it might be too easy, but no, it's not. I am really out of shape. It's humbling.
How did this happen?
I stepped on the scale today, for the first time in two years, and it registered my highest weight ever. 261.8 lbs. That’s more than 100 pounds over my lowest weight when I was running regularly. It’s 30 pounds heavier than I was when I started my first weight loss journey back in 2012.
I knew I’d been putting on weight, but I didn’t think it was NEARLY that much. I tend to have a fairly distorted view of my weight -- when I’m at a healthy weight I feel fat but when I’m overweight, I don’t realize just how bad it is.
But anyway, now I realize how bad it’s gotten. It was a punch to the gut. I cried a little. Now I’m done feeling sorry for myself.
I’ve lost a significant amount of weight before and kept it off for ~3 years. I can do this again. I know how to do it, I know I can do it, I just need to make myself do it.
I’ve signed up for Noom. It’s a subscription app that uses psychology (guided self-help cognitive behavioural therapy, specifically) to help you lose weight. I’m hoping this is exactly what I need. I feel like I just need a plan to keep me on track and accountable.
I’m also going to go back to the basics for a bit with exercise. One of the problems I’ve been having is I try to start back into things too close to where I left off and I overexert myself. It’s not sustainable. So I think I’ll try doing good old-fashioned Power 90 for a bit just to see where I’m at physically.
I’m a bit disappointed in myself, but whatever -- I’m confident I can fix this. Here we go again!
My wife and I are staying in a tiny apartment with a tiny fridge for a couple of months whiles we're away for her job. We're both ridiculously busy, so we've subscribed to a prepped meal service. The meal elements are precooked and packaged separately. You can pick and choose your protein, starch and veg. They could probably use more veg, but they're calorie controlled and, so far, pretty tasty. This one's chicken, Gorgonzola, pears and walnuts with broccoli and a pesto gnocchi.
I went to the gym today. Well, sort of. I signed up for planet fitness and went to a session where a trainer put together a program for me. I didn't actually work out. It's a pretty easy routine with higher reps (and lower weight) than I'm used to but the trainer kindly reminded me that I'm out of shape and I need to be patient. In other news, I'm in Toronto for two months (thus the need for a new gym). My wife is here for work and I'm tagging along because I work remotely for a company that's actually based here.
Another short, tough run. Two years ago I ran the Boston Marathon. It was the most fun I ever had racing. And to date, it's the last race I've ever run. I've struggled with injury and, maybe more so, I've struggled with all or nothing thinking -- refusing to train if I can't be at my peak. I don't think I'll ever run that fast again. I'm not sure if I'll ever run a marathon again. But I need to find something fun again.
Out. Of. Shape. Ugh. I ran/walked for 30 minutes. It was my first run since January, I think, and I'm not sure when I last ran before that. I've been lazy for not working harder to find out what's wrong with my leg. Instead, it's been an excuse to fall out of shape. I wanna fix this, but I'm not sure that I'm there yet.
The advantage of ordering my groceries online is that I can get a breakdown of what I’ve actually ordered, which kinda shames me into buying fruits and vegetables.
I haven’t been around here much, but I’ve been trying to do the health thing. I call this meal, “not a cheeseburger”. It’s a hash made with sweet potato, chickpeas, red onion, kale, and topped with a poached egg and feta cheese. A poached egg improves almost any meal.
My wife is trying balance staying in shape with the demands of being a law student, so I had to buy this book for her when I saw it.
One of my slowest 4k runs ever. Oh well, it's faster than sitting on the couch.
2017 wasn’t a great year for me fitness-wise. I haven’t been able to get into a routine that works. I haven’t found a way to run without pain. I haven’t been eating well. I HAVE put on weight and lost fitness.
At Christmas I had a real wake-up call. I learned that my father had a heart attack back in June (my parents kept it from me and my siblings because my sister was studying for an exam and they didn’t want to stress her out). He’s 62 and healthy, he’s been a vegetarian for a decade and a half. His father died waiting for a heart transplant at 64 and had had his first heart attack at 42. One of the things that spurred me to get in shape five years ago was losing an uncle who died of a heart attack. Suffice to say, genetics aren’t on my side.
The good news is that my father is doing well. The heart attack was minor and he’s been working out and getting healthier. I try not to think about his mortality.
My mortality, on the other hand, I need to think about. This was a reminder that my quest to get healthy was just that -- it was never about running fast or losing weight, it was about not dying unnecessarily young.
I haven’t figured out what I’m going to yet to get back into a routine that works, but this needs to be the year that I figure it out and get healthier.
Stay tuned.
from300to200 replied to your photoset: So, I’ve recently discovered that I can order...
Who and where from?
It’s a Canadian company that only ships in Ontario. It’s called LiveFit.
So, I’ve recently discovered that I can order fresh healthy prepped meals that are shipped overnight to my doorstep. They’re all high in protein and veg with a reasonable serving of carbs (and you can get different meals with more or less protein/carbs to fit your needs). It feels a bit ridiculous and lazy, but the truth is my wife and I have both been crazy busy and eating out way too much. This seems to work pretty well for us.
Pretty sure I'm walking behind Donald Trump right now.