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Spooky πŸ‘½

@doyouthink-imspooky / doyouthink-imspooky.tumblr.com

at one point I had a theme for this blog but I've given up β™‘ struggling adult || aspiring cat lady β™‘Β πŸ’—πŸ’œπŸ’™
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Even if I didn’t have a solid plan, in the back of my head, I always assumed I’d kill myself.

Now I’m an adult and people my age have their lives in order and I’m stuck here, confused, because I never planned to be alive and I’m so far behind.

I feel like I’ll never catch up.

Hey all.

I want to make an addition to this. I made this post a long time ago.

I’m currently back in university, and I’ve made so much progress with my trauma. I’m in a loving relationship.

Things can and will get better. It’s not too late.

Nothing is perfect by any means. But I’m happy I’m still here and didn’t kill myself. I hope you get to that point, too πŸ’•

The addition is important! I see the original post circulating a lot, but the addition is important!

New addition two years later. I’m still going strong!

I’m getting married. I’m still in that loving relationship.

I’ve learned that there’s no real timeline. It’s okay. And while it sucks that I lost time, there’s still so much for me to experience and enjoy.

Newest addition. 7 years after the original post!

I got married last month! My dog is laying on me snoring. I’ve learned to have healthy friendships and relationships. I’ve learned that I’m not alone and that even when things are hard, I’m going to be okay.

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if you would all like to cry a little more today, but also have a reminder that people have always been people, and we connect to those who came before us even if we did not know them

in glasgow necropolis, there is a gravestone. it is very small and unassuming. in fact, it's very easy to overlook because if you walked past it it would not even come up to your knees and it peeks out of the surrounding foliage

there is no date of birth, nor date of death.

it is the grave of a child. her name was "Wee Bessie" Wilson. she lived, and then died aged just 2 1/2, sometime in the victorian era (from the age of the stone, and the fact the necropolis is largely a victorian burial ground)

nobody knows who she was, anymore. but 150-200 years later people leave flowers, toys, brightly coloured pinwheels, teddy bears, or seashells on it as they pass

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bessie is gone. everybody who knew bessie is gone. the people who knew the people who knew bessie are gone. but she was 2 1/2 years old and goddamnit she's going to have a brightly coloured pinwheel or a teddybear or a pretty seashell

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waitforiiiit

It's important to me to point out that Wee Bessie didn't have "accomplishments". She didn't have a degree, or a particular job title, or a salary. She wasn't a homeowner or a parent. Her life was not impactful because it was goal-oriented, it was impactful because it happened. Her legacy is in her existence, not in a checklist, and your life is valuable regardless of what you achieve or what you leave behind.

from the size of the stone, her parents were not wealthy. but they loved her enough in her short life to give her what they could. to make sure she was remembered.

and after all this time, strangers still honour that by making sure a toddler has a toy.

between this and King Tut’s ducks I see we are having a Weep Over Children Day on tumblr

as the op of both posts i did that on purpose and i will not apologise

nor should you apologize; it’s good for us to recognize our humanity.

Things I was not expecting to be reminded of today, Wee Bessie. It’s nice to know people are still leaving things. I used to love going for walks through the Necropolis and seeing flowers on the old graves was always nice.

And now I'm sobbing into my 2 1/2 year old son's hair, hoping that if that was him, people would still leave him toys hundreds of years later.

i posted about wee bessie because i live maybe half a mile from the necropolis. i'll say hello to her for you

i have to go out to the supermarket soon for medication. the necropolis is not much further away than that.

would anybody like to say hello to bessie today?

I WILL LIKE TO SAY HELLO but I'm in California so it must be in spirit

just tell her Bo says hi

I will tell her you say hello

As promised, I went up to say hello to Wee Bessie today.

Because the universe has a sense of humour, the sky unleashed what can only be described as a biblical rainstorm as soon as I left the shop

I told her you said hello, @dykeopathic, all the way from California which is a place she never knew - may never have known - but is very far away

I told her thousands of people around the world say hello, and I told her about @thebibliosphere who used to stop by but moved far away and can't visit her anymore.

And I left her a little toy whale I crocheted some time ago, a seashell I collected the last time I went to Aberdeen beach with @blarghala, and a bouquet of baby's breath

Because the universe has a sense of humour, as soon as I turned to leave it stopped raining completely.

[ID: a small grave stone in the shape of a celtic cross, which flares out toward the bottom, atop a plinth. the stone is a dark greyish-brown and is weathered and stained with moss and water marks. behind the grave is a large bush, ivy, and ferns that now partially obscure it.

the inscription is worn, but still readable. on the cross itself is inscribed (double slashes denote line breaks) "IN // MEMORY OF // WEE BESSIE". at the flared base of the cross are the words "AGED // 2 1/2 YEARS" followed by a horizontal line and then "W. WILSON". to either side, at ground level, are bright pink flowers. the ones on the right are obscured by foliage. to the left, stuck into the bush, is a large pinwheel in bright colours. the pinwheel is almost as large as the circular part of the celtic cross. to the right, similarly placed, is a bouquet of white baby's breath flowers in a cellophane wrap.

atop the plinth there are several copper coins and a piece of white quartz. on the ground in front of the stone there is a small collection of items: a crocheted whale which is bright yellow on top and white underneath with black plastic eyes, a rock painted pale yellow with brightly coloured polka dots, and a white seashell. just behind them is a foam llama on a stick, stuck into the ground. the llama is white and has blue, pink, and yellow decorative elements that are now faded]

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werewolftits

tiktok is such an awful app, it's almost designed to feed you misinformation and expose you to insane discourse. unlike beloved tumblr, the app that feeds me misinformation and exposes me to insane discourse

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lierdumoa

No, no, no, you see on tiktok an algorithm feeds you misinformation. On Tumblr I feed myself misinformation from my charcuterie board of hand-selected unhinged mutuals.

None of that mass market junk. Only artisanal, small batch, sustainably cultivated, fair trade horseshit.

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Ok but like. What the fuck is there to do on the internet anymore?

Idk when I was younger, you could just go and go and find exciting new websites full of whatever cool things you wanted to explore. An overabundance of ways to occupy your time online.

Now, it's just... Social media. That's it. Social media and news sites. And I'm tired of social media and I'm tired of the news.

Am I just like completely inept at finding new things or has the internet just fallen apart that much with the problems of SEO and web 3.0 turning everything into a same-site prison?

Long collection of resources under the cut.

ALSO you should consider browsing Virtual Pet List and seeing if there are any pet sites you might be interested in playing. There is a whole genre of browser games right under your nose

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biothreads

Another one that I just found recently is this, which is a whole collection of blogs, organized by topic!

Look guys the real internet IS STILL THERE I'm going to cry

try Radiogarden

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hi i just created an excel sheet where i can pick a meal and have it autopopulate the ingredients i'll need as a shopping list

i have never felt so smart

OH MY GOD I CAN MAKE THEM DROP DOWN LISTS

THIS IS TRUE POWER

I NEVER HAVE TO DECIDE WHAT TO EAT OR MAKE A GROCERY LIST AGAIN

I CAN MAKE THE MACHINE DO IT FOR ME, AND ALL I HAVE TO DO IS PICK A FOOD FROM A DROPDOWN LIST

OH MY GOD I'M THE SMARTEST PERSON IN THE GAME

HI IF YOU WANNA MAKE THIS

I DID IT IN GOOGLE'S EXCEL BC THAT'S WHAT I HAVE ACCESS TO ON MY PERSONAL DEVICE. I IMAGINE EXCEL EXCEL IS PROB SIMILAR.

hi, to make this easier, i made a google account just to make a shareable link for the original i made.

it's viewer only mode, so you can't edit the link itself, but i tested it out, and all you have to do is copy/paste it into a doc of your own, and then you'll be able to edit it no problem.

this way, the only thing you'll need to do is input your own dishes and ingredients and all the formulas will already be good to go.

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