On the topic of my Fallout 4 fanfics
Hey, it’s been awhile. I wanted to address something I was thinking about earlier today, regarding my Fallout 4 fanfic that I started so long ago.
I still get kudos and favorites on Purple every now and again and it reminds me that I never finished it. And I want to say that I probably never will. At least, I probably won’t be finishing Purple specifically.
I cherish Jack Schmidt’s story so much, and I always will. But since I started writing it... what, four or five years ago? I’ve grown as a writer and a person. Writing doesn’t come so easily for me anymore. When I look back at Purple, I often see problematic things I wrote (specifically in mental health and in other areas) that I’ve come to learn aren’t exactly accurate depictions of what I wished to convey. Not only that, but the fanfics I had lined up for Jack’s story were far too ambitious for me to handle. I had forty-seven chapters or so on the original, and I cannot imagine writing that much today. That being said, I won’t be taking down the fanfic or anything. It’s a piece for me to look at and think, “wow, I’ve come quite a long way as a writer!” and it’s a piece for me to learn from. Besides, a lot of people really did enjoy it and I don’t want to take that joy from anyone.
Regarding me writing Fallout 4 fanfics again - I might in the future! Fallout 4 and the series as a whole has a special place in my heart and sometimes I return to it. I ache to write Jack’s story again, so it’s definitely a possibility that I may pick his story up again - just not in the form of Purple.
When or if I decide to pick up his story again, Purple will probably be considered not canon to his story and I will start the entire series over with a fresh mindset (although I may pull ideas and stuff from it). I want to write something that has a clear goal in mind - not like how it was, where there were different arcs every few chapters.
No promises, of course. Dumb mentally ill brain makes it hard to consistently write nowadays, but I feel like one day, I do want to try to write Jack’s story again.
Anyway, thanks for reading. Hope you’re all doing well.
